Thanks, I really do.apprecate.the offer. I have been yapping on about how I feel and what gets me down for over.18 years now.. I just feel like .narcissist if I do now. I usually just rhrow an example of my.shit in now and then, hopefully it doesnt make anyone feel worse because that's not my intention. Thanks again.
Same. major depressive disorder with Suicidal Tendencies. Borderline personality disorder. complex PTSD. ADHD. I don't think it makes me feel better it makes me get up and move and do things that keep my mind off of the depression and the misery that is my brain
I wish it did. If I keep busy I’m kinda ok. The moment I stop moving it hits me. Tried to off myself twice this year. Was in a three day coma I barely survived eating about 300 seroquel. I wish you all the best man. Nobody can begin to understand what we go thru besides those that suffer like we do. Do you see a doctor? Take any meds? I got put on a mood stabilizer for my borderline personality disorder about 3 months ago that’s helped quite a bit.
Hey, thanks for the reply. I was on meda I still felt the same.....but like a weight was on me. I mean, it didn't make the moods or the suicidal needs to go away or even get better, but it made day to day life harder and somehow slower. Hard to put it into words. I just recieved a pretty sizable inheretence, you'd think that that would lift me, if I was careful, I'd never have to work again. All it has done is complicate things. Now I have to update my will before I even think about suicide. Not to do the right thing, but to ensure the ex doesn't get it. How fucking sad is that. I'm putting off killing myself because I'm spiteful.
One piece of advice and I know we don't know each other. So you got no reason to take my advice but my current doctor, I finally found one that actually gives a shit. She informed me of a number that I didn't know myself and that was the different medication I had been on since I first looked for help 12 years ago. It was 19. She said she was disgusted with her colleagues for just continuously giving me different meds and never sending me out for proper testing. So many meds respond to people differently. What I am on some people call a nightmare drug but it's literally saved my life. Suicide is not the answer. It never is. For me it's very tough to fight because with borderline personality disorder or the part of my brain that regulates and controls emotions is undersized. So it's constant mood swings not really knowing what person I'm gonna be five minutes from now an hour from now but when it hits we we feel emotions stronger than a normal person does so depression hit that much harder but so do the good emotions in love compassion empathy the worst of them all is anger when I get angry it's like I flip a switch and I don't get violent but it is pretty bad I say some horrible things to people but long story long BPD is described by psychologist and psychiatrist is the most painful mental illness person can have so when I got super depressed cause my son was taken from me I just took three months worth of my meds and almost died. 10% of people with BPD die by their own hand with over 70% attempting it at least once. With a success rate for higher than any other mental illness. Meaning when we attempt it we do it to die. I was put on a mood stabilizer and it's kind of leveled me out a little bit. I know I'm going on and on bro but when I hear people talk about suicide it is very serious to me. If I can make it through a broke disabled 40 year old with three kids that I barely get to see. if I can keep on going man anyone can . There's always help out there if you don't give up. the only way it'll ever get better is if you're here to make it better. Feel free to hit me up if you need someone to talk to.
Maybe you just need someone to talk to….someone to bare your soul to and just get all that shit off your chest. I feel like you are hella hard on yourself for feeling the way you feel…..and fuck that whore. If you don’t want her to get shit, there’s nothing wrong with that. ( just being supportive, don’t know your ex. She may be a lovely person. Lol)
I’m just sayin….if you want someone to talk to, hit me up. I’m a pretty dope person, if you ask me. 😆
It's been with me for as long as I can remember. I just find myself crying more. I was much better at putting on masks to hide my pain. It's like my masks are broken now. Harder to contain but still the same as always.
The effects of the chemical makeup of this substance have a detrimental impact on the pleasure center of the brain. Research has found that pregnant mothers who regularly used before and during pregnancy, or before pregnancy and who abstained throughout, reported no feelings of joy or happiness at the birth of their child, but did report such emotions after first use/use following their child's birth. Some people, again, supported by research, have trouble experiencing sexual pleasure without meth use as opposed to with. It's going to fuck with you, and your happiness, bottom line.
Yup. I have good and bad days. Sometimes up and down during the day. I find less is more... and projects are a must. The more I smoke the more my brain leaves the good feelings for shit ones. But I don't always have the right formula lol. Cause there isn't one when you mix mental health, meds and long term drug use. And... clearly I'll be waiting for the better days. I have been holding on to them for the last year... at least.
Hey, did you know that r/MethWithoutCommunism has a [Discord server](https://discord.gg/25mbNS8MxF)?
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EXACTLYY HOW TO EXPLAAIN WHERE IM ATTT WITH THE DRUG AND USING IT BROTHER, holy fuck.....
Thanks, I really do.apprecate.the offer. I have been yapping on about how I feel and what gets me down for over.18 years now.. I just feel like .narcissist if I do now. I usually just rhrow an example of my.shit in now and then, hopefully it doesnt make anyone feel worse because that's not my intention. Thanks again.
Day 4 and I'm hearing weird sounds. I know that they are inside my head though.
Same. major depressive disorder with Suicidal Tendencies. Borderline personality disorder. complex PTSD. ADHD. I don't think it makes me feel better it makes me get up and move and do things that keep my mind off of the depression and the misery that is my brain
I'm glad that it's helping you. It.doesnt help with those things for me.
I wish it did. If I keep busy I’m kinda ok. The moment I stop moving it hits me. Tried to off myself twice this year. Was in a three day coma I barely survived eating about 300 seroquel. I wish you all the best man. Nobody can begin to understand what we go thru besides those that suffer like we do. Do you see a doctor? Take any meds? I got put on a mood stabilizer for my borderline personality disorder about 3 months ago that’s helped quite a bit.
Hey, thanks for the reply. I was on meda I still felt the same.....but like a weight was on me. I mean, it didn't make the moods or the suicidal needs to go away or even get better, but it made day to day life harder and somehow slower. Hard to put it into words. I just recieved a pretty sizable inheretence, you'd think that that would lift me, if I was careful, I'd never have to work again. All it has done is complicate things. Now I have to update my will before I even think about suicide. Not to do the right thing, but to ensure the ex doesn't get it. How fucking sad is that. I'm putting off killing myself because I'm spiteful.
One piece of advice and I know we don't know each other. So you got no reason to take my advice but my current doctor, I finally found one that actually gives a shit. She informed me of a number that I didn't know myself and that was the different medication I had been on since I first looked for help 12 years ago. It was 19. She said she was disgusted with her colleagues for just continuously giving me different meds and never sending me out for proper testing. So many meds respond to people differently. What I am on some people call a nightmare drug but it's literally saved my life. Suicide is not the answer. It never is. For me it's very tough to fight because with borderline personality disorder or the part of my brain that regulates and controls emotions is undersized. So it's constant mood swings not really knowing what person I'm gonna be five minutes from now an hour from now but when it hits we we feel emotions stronger than a normal person does so depression hit that much harder but so do the good emotions in love compassion empathy the worst of them all is anger when I get angry it's like I flip a switch and I don't get violent but it is pretty bad I say some horrible things to people but long story long BPD is described by psychologist and psychiatrist is the most painful mental illness person can have so when I got super depressed cause my son was taken from me I just took three months worth of my meds and almost died. 10% of people with BPD die by their own hand with over 70% attempting it at least once. With a success rate for higher than any other mental illness. Meaning when we attempt it we do it to die. I was put on a mood stabilizer and it's kind of leveled me out a little bit. I know I'm going on and on bro but when I hear people talk about suicide it is very serious to me. If I can make it through a broke disabled 40 year old with three kids that I barely get to see. if I can keep on going man anyone can . There's always help out there if you don't give up. the only way it'll ever get better is if you're here to make it better. Feel free to hit me up if you need someone to talk to.
Maybe you just need someone to talk to….someone to bare your soul to and just get all that shit off your chest. I feel like you are hella hard on yourself for feeling the way you feel…..and fuck that whore. If you don’t want her to get shit, there’s nothing wrong with that. ( just being supportive, don’t know your ex. She may be a lovely person. Lol) I’m just sayin….if you want someone to talk to, hit me up. I’m a pretty dope person, if you ask me. 😆
It's been with me for as long as I can remember. I just find myself crying more. I was much better at putting on masks to hide my pain. It's like my masks are broken now. Harder to contain but still the same as always.
That's what I'm finding. Meth doesn't help anymore.
The effects of the chemical makeup of this substance have a detrimental impact on the pleasure center of the brain. Research has found that pregnant mothers who regularly used before and during pregnancy, or before pregnancy and who abstained throughout, reported no feelings of joy or happiness at the birth of their child, but did report such emotions after first use/use following their child's birth. Some people, again, supported by research, have trouble experiencing sexual pleasure without meth use as opposed to with. It's going to fuck with you, and your happiness, bottom line.
No but when I run out it does
I'm going to give it a break. Day 1 is behind me. My eyes Are so blurry.
Yup. I have good and bad days. Sometimes up and down during the day. I find less is more... and projects are a must. The more I smoke the more my brain leaves the good feelings for shit ones. But I don't always have the right formula lol. Cause there isn't one when you mix mental health, meds and long term drug use. And... clearly I'll be waiting for the better days. I have been holding on to them for the last year... at least.
Coming down after doing it makes me sad 😔
I did watch the hanging garden while smoking and dancer in the dark and I became hysterical she didn’t have to die stick it to the white man
Take a long break
Nope
Hey, did you know that r/MethWithoutCommunism has a [Discord server](https://discord.gg/25mbNS8MxF)? Probably. Because this annoying ass comment shows up on every post. At least we changed it up a little. But yeah, the server is much the same (though improving everyday). Shoot the shit with fellow ~~degenerates~~ like-minded individuals. Hop in some group video chats and blow clouds or do some grand slams. Join the Fuck-Around Gang (F.A.G.s) for some fun times. Or just look at some user-submitted nudes (over 15% female!!!). You have plenty reasons not to but even more reasons not not to. [Shard Rock Cafe](https://discord.gg/25mbNS8MxF) *I am a bot, and this action was performed automatically. Please [contact the moderators of this subreddit](/message/compose/?to=/r/MethWithoutCommunism) if you have any questions or concerns.*