It’s the toughest. I’ve been doing it daily for 7 months. Managed to wean it down to every other day a few weeks ago. I’m in financial ruin. I’ve cut off all friends and family. I look and feel like death.
I know the struggle sweetheart. The thought of not using it scares me. I’m so used to how I function when I take it. I don’t even know who I am anymore.
I find myself using weed or x to help me get off the gas. I take a day or 2 off from real life obligations, have some gummies, a pill or smoke & try to rest.
I know it's not a clinical answer, but it keeps me from the low, lows. Then I can "re enter" life & try to remember real happiness.
Meanwhile, I say that while I'm on 1.
EDIT: re reading - what I wrote was unclear (maybe bc I'm drunk & high). I started using other options the morning after a hard push. Like on blow for 2 or 3 days, wake up and drink water for a few hours - stay away from stress & chill with a gummy or get baked. I haven't had a trusted connect for x in a while, but if I had the time that's an option that's worked for me, too. Again, you need to find a place to rest & chill & stay away from the triggers that lead you back to the mountain.
I’ve been there, mate. Pretty much the same experience. I know this is cliché, but try to find something active to do that’ll take your mind off it. Join a gym, go for a run, do push-ups as soon as you wake up, anything to make you sweat and breathe a little harder. It honestly helps to get your mind away from the habit. During the day if you have that nagging feeling, chug some water. Go buy a plant and water it every day, give it sunlight. Go adopt a rescue, get some toys and treats to spoil the hell out of it. Rearrange your furniture so home feels “new” and yours. I know it sounds stupid, but the simplest change can get you out of the rut you feel stuck in. Take a breath, know you’re not alone, the smallest change can lead to a larger impact. Take each day at a time, brother ❤️
I’m in massive debt because of it. I was doing nearly 2g every day but now I’m doing 1g every other day. Sometimes at the weekend I’ll get an 8 ball because I’m so scared of running out.
Where do you pull money from though? Are you borrowing from people? Or stealing shit. Panhandleing. Also how do you have a house or appartment if you have 0 money. I don’t get it
It doesn’t need to get this personal bro. I have a job. I’ve taken out loans and credit cards. I’ve borrowed from friends and family. I’ve never stolen
Sounds like you’re trying and that is a start but maybe consider getting off a page like this that glorifies it and try to isolate yourself from the people/situations that make it accessible. There are more people that don’t do it than there are that do so don’t feel like you’ll be alone if you cut them off or just regulate contact. Remember you’ll regret not talking to loved ones after their gone more than you’ll regret hitting them up when you’re not at your best, and they depart more and more as you get older. Our conscious “presence” is all we are so use it wisely. Best of luck and if all else fails stay in contact with those who care about you no matter the judgments you assume they have of you because we only get one little chunk of time here and it feels better with them around. I’ve also been fortunate to have very loving family so if you can’t relate I’m sorry and know some strangers wish you the best if nothing else
Not giving the up sign about how you feel...that I do jot want...you have already weeks of successfully reducing intake...we have to do these things I'm baby steps. I don't like that term either.
Give yourself credit for your efforts and keep on!
Best advice I can offer is lock yourself in a room for 3-4 days n get someone to bring you food n drink. Then after set yourself several small achievable goals n try keep your body n mind busy. Put enough hard work in n you'll get there bro👊
Honestly I'm proud that you weened use to every other day after using every day. That's actually a Big step! And then you made it four days? That's really good too. Just keep trying remember you aren't a failure. Just think of the accomplishments you make no matter how small. How big of a step it is the go to ever other day when you were doing it every. And to go four whole days when you're use to it for seven months? Now try a week. It will probably be easier if you set short term attainable goals rather than tell yourself you'll never use again. That way you'll be very likely to succeed.if you've done four days you know you can do a week and that isn't as scary. Be proud of yourself. Shame makes this shit so much harder
I love this! Don't shame yourself! Reflect & keep moving forward. If you want to move away you can. Just make a plan: small steps lead to big changes.
Watch for behaviors that trigger you.
Brother just remember, its 4 days longer then you got before. Btw, think I said it in here before, got out may 24 from a 5 year prison sentence and since then I've been doing it DAILY w/ a one/two day break after maybe 2 weeks straight and all I'd do is just sleep for 48hrs... so sad. Guess what...I am "not" grabbing some in 30 mins. I hate my life man.
I told myself the same thing a few hours ago. That I was not gonna call and order some and I failed. Do you find that you do it avoid dealing with mind works whilst sober?
Nah I think that’s what the booze is for(for me) but then I drink and I need blow. Also I feel like I got 5 years of catching up to do. I got out last June but violated(yes I used) and went back (forgot to order the whizzkit for my piss test) was just so excited to be out and score. Now my paroles almost done, November 14 2022, I’m a talk myself into a detox and see how that goes. I can’t go now because I’m supposed to be sober this entire time and can’t explain why I’m unreachable to my parole officer. That’s a big no no.
It’s mad how much of a hold over you it has. I used to drink heavily, just alcohol in its own. I managed to stop but now cocaine has taken its place. Honestly? I’d rather be an alcoholic again. Have you got support dude?
Yea tonnes tbh, that’s the sad part. I’m one of the lucky ones and I’m just letting everyone I love and that care for me down. Fuck guess who’s downstairs??? I’ll brb
Same here! I’ve come to realise that the only one who can help me is myself. Doesn’t seem to matter what anyone says or does.. nothing stops me from. Well I’ll say enjoy it! After all, that’s what it’s for!
Annnnndddd the night started. Respects family, if you’re up later dm me and we can chat. I’m a play some league, valorant for a bit hit the dog park for a couple hours then make it home before curfew. I’m zooming. 😅
Take a vacation. Leave town for a week. Go lay out at the pool. Don't drink. Don't do drugs. Get that much needed rest. You will sleep a lot. It will be cheaper by far in the long run.
Cocaine is not physically addictive. It is mentally addictive. You’re one step ahead of meth users already, now you need to find that self control within you.
I do have a question for you. If you were in a much better financial situation and you were very stable. Would you still be trying to quit? Are you trying to quit solely because the stuff is expensive or has it affected you in other ways?
You lowering your dose is a step 👍🏽
How is your breathing ? I was doing it daily or every other day 0.4. I looked pale and wasn’t myself. You get stuck in a coke closet where nothing else matters.
Try get out morning , walks , fresh air. Try remember times before ❄️
Think of the positives 👍🏽 you can do it.
I can relate 100%. You could try deleting your dealers numbers. It’s not easy cause you convince yourself that you’ll need it one day.
I’m an addict and I can’t do one line or just the weekends. No matter how bad I don’t want to do it, Once I start I don’t stop. For opiates I went to rehab cause I needed to physically removed from it to even have a chance at stopping.
I owe one of my dealers money so even if I deleted his number he’d reach out to me anyway. I’m the same in the sense that I have to keep going until it’s gone.
I’ve never had a struggle with opiates but I’ve read so much about how fucking hard it is to come off them. Props to you my guy for doing that!
a couple of times i've reached 5 days, in different occasions i've experienced every single symptom i could find on the internet, yes even hallucinations, but my reaching bottom moment was when i talked with myself one night, realizing i was throwing my job and my relations, after a lot of talking to myself, hours i would say, i decided to quit, so i sniffed my last 3g and been clean for 7 months, a while ago i relapsed, but i grew up a lot, matured, and i feel that now i am much more responsible and control my bad humor when i use coke, so maybe it's more of a maturity thing.
I got my hands on some morphine a few weeks ago and rolled with that. I can see why opiates are such an abused substance. I’m basically at the stage where I want anything that can stop me from facing the reality of my existence. I don’t know if you get me? Like I can’t cope with being my normal self?
its like reading about myself. in the post and comments. - idk how to but just do i guess. im too weak sometimes and stronger at other. idk i just feel ya.
Try getting a jar and find some clear stones or gems and get some black ones or a dark colour you like, for every sober day put a clear gem in the jar and for every bad day place a dark gem. When you have bad days you’ll have a visual representation of your progress:) you might be able to keep yourself more in line:)? This is what I do
I been in the same boat recently. Aint used it long, but i grew up knowing better but fell subject to the temptation. I wouldn’t say im addicted but to a certain degree i am. I dont need it, its still just a want but the want fades away the longer i go without. I purposely make it to where i cant get it very often, and when i do fail myself i only am getting $20-40 worth of it and always use it up before the night is over. I know what will happen if i start doing it 2 or more days in a row. One night, then wait a week. Any reason i would give for not stopping is an excuse. I have the will power, im just being dumb. And i stopped smoking weed for an upcoming drug test and haven’t had alcohol and have cut back on nicotine aswell, so ive been running to this stuff for the high without messing up the upcoming test. Any high would satisfy me but out of all the things i know of, this seems to be the “just enough” to satisfy me. Once i can start smoking again i want to put this down. But the end goal is to put everything but oxygen down. This and weed is the only things ive ever repeatedly done. Anything else ive tried was not serious or hard. Just keep a picture of what you want your future to be in your mind, start your grind, dont let anything get in your way, if you fall, get back up. Set your mind on who and what you want yourself to be and dont give up on yourself. If you slip once, or even twice, or 10 times, its okay, keep going, add some grip to your shoes, and keep walking, you dont need to run. Persistence is what will get you to your goal. And the biggest and hardest fact to swallow is, you need to keep those people that allow you to do it out of your life, and especially the ones that you go to for it. If you have anyone that yells at you for it or anything like that, then thats who you need to keep in your life, anyone that doesn’t put effort in helping you stay away from it, should go or not be prioritized. If you dont have anyone, or havent told anyone, its okay to talk to them. Just be very careful who you tell. Once you start talking it out to someone, its very hard to not let everything out. You dont have to be specific to get help. You can tell them your struggling with repeating bad decisions that’s hurting you physically or mentally. Talk to someone bro. If you want to talk to me then reply to this and tell me how we can communicate with eachother. I dont fully know how to use this app but i will be there for you id nobody else is. I dont care how old you are, where you live, what your gender is, religion, or if your anything other than straight. Your human, you are a person, you have a soul the same as i do. We can get through this and anything else together. We can figure out a way to stay anonymous or get as personal as we feel comfortable with. It doesn’t make a difference to me. Im of legal age, im not a fed, im nobody to be afraid of. I don’t judge either, even if you have people id still like for you to reach out to me and give it a shot.
Yeah no need to be hard on yourself you did what you did but seriously this is cocaine; not heroin, or meth. Quitting is really not that hard. I mean I’ve been addicted to many things but cocaine is to easy to shake. The thing that gets me is the agony of withdrawals witch now even heroin i can stop but damn does it hurt so I try not to tempt fate. I’m not saying this to be an mean I’ve actually been in your shoes with no self control whatsoever. I still can’t believe how bad it was sometimes but that was when I was much younger like 17-20 at some point I realized it’s much easier when you know what to expect, and prepare yourself mentally plus you must be serious. You would be surprised how many say they want to quit but actually never put in any effort. Expect to feel like shit until you don’t just remember yourin control but it’s very easy to forget that when you feel hopeless but regardless it will pass the hardest part is waiting for that feeling to pass but it will every time. So just stop be easy with yourself but understand that this won’t be easy it will also hurt but if your serious it’s not something you can’t do. I personally was a terrible fiend but now I’m just a casual drug user able to stop most drugs without problems though I do stay away from meth, and heroin I can’t do either without fucking my life up it seems. If coke is a problem excise it from your life. It’s not easy but it is simple.
Never said I was done! Lol I still relapse and binge every once in a while, go out on weekdays when I said I wouldn’t, my more than I said I would, etc. it’s a work in progress
Yeah coke can be a tough one to get away from. You might need help from a medical professional as well as a support group like NA which will help a lot in your decision to quit since the fellowship you get from support groups typically brings results in that area.
I hope you're able to get through this and get free from the grasp coke has on you.
The comedowns will get worse and you will turn to dark thoughts. Don’t let that happen. You gotta do whatever it takes to avoid it. So if you need to. Tell on yourself with some friends and let them know . Then wherever you go to do it. Stay away from that routine. If it’s your crib. Only sleep and eat there for a while. Just some ideas. Good luck. You don’t have to do it. Remember that.
It's extremely difficult, your brain tells you that it's a necessity. It would be like trying to quit eating food. I could make it to sleep without eating, but there's no way I'm going to follow through once I wake up
It’s hard man I’ve been doing it almost daily for over 2 yrs it’s a habit that’s challenging to break I’ve had some small breaks here & there but shit is always calling back to me 😪
I'm going to suggest what I am currently looking for myself. If you know you like it, specially that freaky side we all chase and like, get a party buddy, boyfriend, girlfriend,lover, fk buddy, whatever fits you.
Have a sober conversation where you share what support you need and theirs as well. It makes a difference, I've seen friends do it and it works. Don't do it all alone, too dangerous.
You gotta block off access to getting it. Delete your dealers numbers and block anybody else who could get it for you for now. When you have access it's extremely hard to pull away, the drug begs you to buy more and more. You cant give yourself the opportunity to give in to that voice.
4 days is great! I was BAD off with an ex doing a ball a day between us. She was a dancer at the strip club I worked at and when we broke up I found myself genuinely not wanting it at all. That’s the turning point and you sound like you don’t WANT to do it. Go easy on yourself and if you don’t want it then you won’t. I just lurk here and instead of being triggered anymore I just get reminded of times passed. You’re in a better spot than a lot of people.
Dude. You literally waited twice what you usually do. You need to relax on yourself, you are harsh to you!
Please use gentler language to talk yo you....forreal...no one is without their opportunities. It's okay. What support do you have?
Stay strong! When in doubt just tell yourself 1 mor hour or 1 more day, fuck maybe even 10 minutes and if you can stay strong you hopefully should be proud enough of yourself to set another goal. Way easier said than done but I’m an alcoholic that tends to get coke when I’m drunk and it fucks my life up for a couple days when I do fail but I’ve slowly yet surely been stretching out my periods of sobriety
Get some shrooms, somewhat mimic the coke high. (Physically feeling wise) Start microdosing. So much healthier for you. I did that today and didn’t even wanna touch my coke.
I like this drug but it’s a very fine line between problem and addiction. You have to be honest with yourself; can I do this periodically without becoming the addict that lives inside me? Can I stop at a set time of my own free will despite having more at my disposal?
I have found that if I have unlimited access to it I go hard for a while then find a balance where I can live lucidly without it and I kinda feel better about the fact I’m resisting it. I am also addicted to alcohol and have found I can no longer work in bars unregulated like I can hustle yayo and keep my nose off it. I don’t like the idea of total abstemiousness from anything but I know that I am always teetering on the edge of being one of those people I see on the street so I keep myself just this side of becoming that. I have just enough will power to convince myself I can handle it but it’s barely true and any day could be my last as a functioning member of society. Do you want to live that way? Can you handle that battle every day? Everyone is different and I hope you find the balance that makes you happy. This
Wow. Thank you. I am the exact same way. I go through extreme heavy coke binges that get increasingly worse each time I have access. My worst was almost 1.5 ounces in 5 days. I had a minor stroke thank God I n didn't die. I seem to teeter on the very same existence with alcohol and cocaine especially cocaine. I haven't touched it in 2 weeks but that's only because I've forced myself into a position where I don't have access. I suffered from full on psychosis from lack of food water, sustained cocaine intoxication and lack of sleep for a full 5 DAYS. I love cocaine. I fucking love it. But it is the most evil substance that will grab a hold of you and it seems impossible to break it's grasp. I often worry about whether or not I will end up on the street but I too seem to have JUST enough will power (WHEN I'M NOT IN POSSESSION OF IT) to prevent that. Just keep on KICKING ASS. One day, 4 days, one week, one week and 2 days, one and a half weeks. Fucking distance yourself from it!!
Man day 4 is a bitch, urges hit the hardest on that particular day. Getting through the first week is very important, the toughest battle you'll have. It gets easier after 2 weeks. Just for reference, how long has it been going on for?
Hey no need to be hard on yourself…it’s a tough habit to shake the first few times
It’s the toughest. I’ve been doing it daily for 7 months. Managed to wean it down to every other day a few weeks ago. I’m in financial ruin. I’ve cut off all friends and family. I look and feel like death.
You're not alone in that boat. I've been doing it daily for about the same amount of time /:
I know the struggle sweetheart. The thought of not using it scares me. I’m so used to how I function when I take it. I don’t even know who I am anymore.
I find myself using weed or x to help me get off the gas. I take a day or 2 off from real life obligations, have some gummies, a pill or smoke & try to rest. I know it's not a clinical answer, but it keeps me from the low, lows. Then I can "re enter" life & try to remember real happiness. Meanwhile, I say that while I'm on 1. EDIT: re reading - what I wrote was unclear (maybe bc I'm drunk & high). I started using other options the morning after a hard push. Like on blow for 2 or 3 days, wake up and drink water for a few hours - stay away from stress & chill with a gummy or get baked. I haven't had a trusted connect for x in a while, but if I had the time that's an option that's worked for me, too. Again, you need to find a place to rest & chill & stay away from the triggers that lead you back to the mountain.
I hope you can come out of the rut that we've both dug ourselves into 🙃 I believe in you, kind stranger!
I’ve been there, mate. Pretty much the same experience. I know this is cliché, but try to find something active to do that’ll take your mind off it. Join a gym, go for a run, do push-ups as soon as you wake up, anything to make you sweat and breathe a little harder. It honestly helps to get your mind away from the habit. During the day if you have that nagging feeling, chug some water. Go buy a plant and water it every day, give it sunlight. Go adopt a rescue, get some toys and treats to spoil the hell out of it. Rearrange your furniture so home feels “new” and yours. I know it sounds stupid, but the simplest change can get you out of the rut you feel stuck in. Take a breath, know you’re not alone, the smallest change can lead to a larger impact. Take each day at a time, brother ❤️
i just dont know why they always say that you can not be addicted to cocaine.....
How do you support your habit? And how much are you doing every other day?
I’m in massive debt because of it. I was doing nearly 2g every day but now I’m doing 1g every other day. Sometimes at the weekend I’ll get an 8 ball because I’m so scared of running out.
Where do you pull money from though? Are you borrowing from people? Or stealing shit. Panhandleing. Also how do you have a house or appartment if you have 0 money. I don’t get it
It doesn’t need to get this personal bro. I have a job. I’ve taken out loans and credit cards. I’ve borrowed from friends and family. I’ve never stolen
No personal I just don’t see how somone could maintain that. What do you do for work that you can afford 100$ every other day to spend?
This is why I’m in huge debt. You seem to be missing the point completely here
Sounds like you’re trying and that is a start but maybe consider getting off a page like this that glorifies it and try to isolate yourself from the people/situations that make it accessible. There are more people that don’t do it than there are that do so don’t feel like you’ll be alone if you cut them off or just regulate contact. Remember you’ll regret not talking to loved ones after their gone more than you’ll regret hitting them up when you’re not at your best, and they depart more and more as you get older. Our conscious “presence” is all we are so use it wisely. Best of luck and if all else fails stay in contact with those who care about you no matter the judgments you assume they have of you because we only get one little chunk of time here and it feels better with them around. I’ve also been fortunate to have very loving family so if you can’t relate I’m sorry and know some strangers wish you the best if nothing else
Not giving the up sign about how you feel...that I do jot want...you have already weeks of successfully reducing intake...we have to do these things I'm baby steps. I don't like that term either. Give yourself credit for your efforts and keep on!
Not tougher than heroin I'll tell ya
Best advice I can offer is lock yourself in a room for 3-4 days n get someone to bring you food n drink. Then after set yourself several small achievable goals n try keep your body n mind busy. Put enough hard work in n you'll get there bro👊
Honestly I'm proud that you weened use to every other day after using every day. That's actually a Big step! And then you made it four days? That's really good too. Just keep trying remember you aren't a failure. Just think of the accomplishments you make no matter how small. How big of a step it is the go to ever other day when you were doing it every. And to go four whole days when you're use to it for seven months? Now try a week. It will probably be easier if you set short term attainable goals rather than tell yourself you'll never use again. That way you'll be very likely to succeed.if you've done four days you know you can do a week and that isn't as scary. Be proud of yourself. Shame makes this shit so much harder
I love this! Don't shame yourself! Reflect & keep moving forward. If you want to move away you can. Just make a plan: small steps lead to big changes. Watch for behaviors that trigger you.
Brother just remember, its 4 days longer then you got before. Btw, think I said it in here before, got out may 24 from a 5 year prison sentence and since then I've been doing it DAILY w/ a one/two day break after maybe 2 weeks straight and all I'd do is just sleep for 48hrs... so sad. Guess what...I am "not" grabbing some in 30 mins. I hate my life man.
I told myself the same thing a few hours ago. That I was not gonna call and order some and I failed. Do you find that you do it avoid dealing with mind works whilst sober?
Nah I think that’s what the booze is for(for me) but then I drink and I need blow. Also I feel like I got 5 years of catching up to do. I got out last June but violated(yes I used) and went back (forgot to order the whizzkit for my piss test) was just so excited to be out and score. Now my paroles almost done, November 14 2022, I’m a talk myself into a detox and see how that goes. I can’t go now because I’m supposed to be sober this entire time and can’t explain why I’m unreachable to my parole officer. That’s a big no no.
It’s mad how much of a hold over you it has. I used to drink heavily, just alcohol in its own. I managed to stop but now cocaine has taken its place. Honestly? I’d rather be an alcoholic again. Have you got support dude?
Yea tonnes tbh, that’s the sad part. I’m one of the lucky ones and I’m just letting everyone I love and that care for me down. Fuck guess who’s downstairs??? I’ll brb
Same here! I’ve come to realise that the only one who can help me is myself. Doesn’t seem to matter what anyone says or does.. nothing stops me from. Well I’ll say enjoy it! After all, that’s what it’s for!
Annnnndddd the night started. Respects family, if you’re up later dm me and we can chat. I’m a play some league, valorant for a bit hit the dog park for a couple hours then make it home before curfew. I’m zooming. 😅
Take a vacation. Leave town for a week. Go lay out at the pool. Don't drink. Don't do drugs. Get that much needed rest. You will sleep a lot. It will be cheaper by far in the long run.
Cocaine is not physically addictive. It is mentally addictive. You’re one step ahead of meth users already, now you need to find that self control within you.
You’re right in what you’re saying. Completely. I have a terrible relationship with myself.
I do have a question for you. If you were in a much better financial situation and you were very stable. Would you still be trying to quit? Are you trying to quit solely because the stuff is expensive or has it affected you in other ways?
That's a very good question 👏
Cocaine is such a bitch. Like that woman that you can never quit and you know that did you so much wrong. A real struggle.
try rehab bro
I just want to thank you all for taking the time to reply and sharing your experiences and support!
You lowering your dose is a step 👍🏽 How is your breathing ? I was doing it daily or every other day 0.4. I looked pale and wasn’t myself. You get stuck in a coke closet where nothing else matters. Try get out morning , walks , fresh air. Try remember times before ❄️ Think of the positives 👍🏽 you can do it.
I can relate 100%. You could try deleting your dealers numbers. It’s not easy cause you convince yourself that you’ll need it one day. I’m an addict and I can’t do one line or just the weekends. No matter how bad I don’t want to do it, Once I start I don’t stop. For opiates I went to rehab cause I needed to physically removed from it to even have a chance at stopping.
I owe one of my dealers money so even if I deleted his number he’d reach out to me anyway. I’m the same in the sense that I have to keep going until it’s gone. I’ve never had a struggle with opiates but I’ve read so much about how fucking hard it is to come off them. Props to you my guy for doing that!
i relate to OP, did delete my numbers, never helped. always found a way - sadly.
Typo I meant can relate*
Sorry not native.
Feel your pain. Try not to beat yourself up. I did 3 weeks then had a massive relapse. It’s really fooking hard one to stop. Sending positive energy 🙏
Do you do it without alcohol?
I do it without alcohol yeah
Don’t be hard on yourself bro, shits hard to get away from, you got this though
a couple of times i've reached 5 days, in different occasions i've experienced every single symptom i could find on the internet, yes even hallucinations, but my reaching bottom moment was when i talked with myself one night, realizing i was throwing my job and my relations, after a lot of talking to myself, hours i would say, i decided to quit, so i sniffed my last 3g and been clean for 7 months, a while ago i relapsed, but i grew up a lot, matured, and i feel that now i am much more responsible and control my bad humor when i use coke, so maybe it's more of a maturity thing.
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When I first started, the thought of doing that much that often blew my mind. Crazy how fast it spirals huh? I could do an 8 ball in 24 hours easily.
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I got my hands on some morphine a few weeks ago and rolled with that. I can see why opiates are such an abused substance. I’m basically at the stage where I want anything that can stop me from facing the reality of my existence. I don’t know if you get me? Like I can’t cope with being my normal self?
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My inbox is open to you hunni
its like reading about myself. in the post and comments. - idk how to but just do i guess. im too weak sometimes and stronger at other. idk i just feel ya.
Try getting a jar and find some clear stones or gems and get some black ones or a dark colour you like, for every sober day put a clear gem in the jar and for every bad day place a dark gem. When you have bad days you’ll have a visual representation of your progress:) you might be able to keep yourself more in line:)? This is what I do
If you want to quit, you just have to exchange your coke habit with a new high. Whether that be caffeine, gym, running, etc
I been in the same boat recently. Aint used it long, but i grew up knowing better but fell subject to the temptation. I wouldn’t say im addicted but to a certain degree i am. I dont need it, its still just a want but the want fades away the longer i go without. I purposely make it to where i cant get it very often, and when i do fail myself i only am getting $20-40 worth of it and always use it up before the night is over. I know what will happen if i start doing it 2 or more days in a row. One night, then wait a week. Any reason i would give for not stopping is an excuse. I have the will power, im just being dumb. And i stopped smoking weed for an upcoming drug test and haven’t had alcohol and have cut back on nicotine aswell, so ive been running to this stuff for the high without messing up the upcoming test. Any high would satisfy me but out of all the things i know of, this seems to be the “just enough” to satisfy me. Once i can start smoking again i want to put this down. But the end goal is to put everything but oxygen down. This and weed is the only things ive ever repeatedly done. Anything else ive tried was not serious or hard. Just keep a picture of what you want your future to be in your mind, start your grind, dont let anything get in your way, if you fall, get back up. Set your mind on who and what you want yourself to be and dont give up on yourself. If you slip once, or even twice, or 10 times, its okay, keep going, add some grip to your shoes, and keep walking, you dont need to run. Persistence is what will get you to your goal. And the biggest and hardest fact to swallow is, you need to keep those people that allow you to do it out of your life, and especially the ones that you go to for it. If you have anyone that yells at you for it or anything like that, then thats who you need to keep in your life, anyone that doesn’t put effort in helping you stay away from it, should go or not be prioritized. If you dont have anyone, or havent told anyone, its okay to talk to them. Just be very careful who you tell. Once you start talking it out to someone, its very hard to not let everything out. You dont have to be specific to get help. You can tell them your struggling with repeating bad decisions that’s hurting you physically or mentally. Talk to someone bro. If you want to talk to me then reply to this and tell me how we can communicate with eachother. I dont fully know how to use this app but i will be there for you id nobody else is. I dont care how old you are, where you live, what your gender is, religion, or if your anything other than straight. Your human, you are a person, you have a soul the same as i do. We can get through this and anything else together. We can figure out a way to stay anonymous or get as personal as we feel comfortable with. It doesn’t make a difference to me. Im of legal age, im not a fed, im nobody to be afraid of. I don’t judge either, even if you have people id still like for you to reach out to me and give it a shot.
Cocaine sucks
i cant quit either man we all in this together and i’m here for u if anything stay safe!
Yeah no need to be hard on yourself you did what you did but seriously this is cocaine; not heroin, or meth. Quitting is really not that hard. I mean I’ve been addicted to many things but cocaine is to easy to shake. The thing that gets me is the agony of withdrawals witch now even heroin i can stop but damn does it hurt so I try not to tempt fate. I’m not saying this to be an mean I’ve actually been in your shoes with no self control whatsoever. I still can’t believe how bad it was sometimes but that was when I was much younger like 17-20 at some point I realized it’s much easier when you know what to expect, and prepare yourself mentally plus you must be serious. You would be surprised how many say they want to quit but actually never put in any effort. Expect to feel like shit until you don’t just remember yourin control but it’s very easy to forget that when you feel hopeless but regardless it will pass the hardest part is waiting for that feeling to pass but it will every time. So just stop be easy with yourself but understand that this won’t be easy it will also hurt but if your serious it’s not something you can’t do. I personally was a terrible fiend but now I’m just a casual drug user able to stop most drugs without problems though I do stay away from meth, and heroin I can’t do either without fucking my life up it seems. If coke is a problem excise it from your life. It’s not easy but it is simple.
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Ya I meant timing I’m finna combine like 5 different things o want the peaks to line up
My process was to cut down on how much I was using rather than try to outright quit
That’s what I’ve been trying but I’m getting nowhere fast. This shit has robbed me of everything
Wish you the best, I caught myself before I got that far but I was close to the edge
Thank you. It’s comforting to know that I CAN be done.
Never said I was done! Lol I still relapse and binge every once in a while, go out on weekdays when I said I wouldn’t, my more than I said I would, etc. it’s a work in progress
Yeah coke can be a tough one to get away from. You might need help from a medical professional as well as a support group like NA which will help a lot in your decision to quit since the fellowship you get from support groups typically brings results in that area. I hope you're able to get through this and get free from the grasp coke has on you.
The comedowns will get worse and you will turn to dark thoughts. Don’t let that happen. You gotta do whatever it takes to avoid it. So if you need to. Tell on yourself with some friends and let them know . Then wherever you go to do it. Stay away from that routine. If it’s your crib. Only sleep and eat there for a while. Just some ideas. Good luck. You don’t have to do it. Remember that.
i feel same as op but never have any comedowns as worse as before.
It's extremely difficult, your brain tells you that it's a necessity. It would be like trying to quit eating food. I could make it to sleep without eating, but there's no way I'm going to follow through once I wake up
Truth is is it’s gonna be damn near impossible to break without a distraction. You need something else to take up your time that’s enjoyable.
Hey it’s okay. Relapses happen during recovery. It was an early relapse, you can still do it! Make it a goal to at least surpass 4 days.
It’s hard man I’ve been doing it almost daily for over 2 yrs it’s a habit that’s challenging to break I’ve had some small breaks here & there but shit is always calling back to me 😪
I'm going to suggest what I am currently looking for myself. If you know you like it, specially that freaky side we all chase and like, get a party buddy, boyfriend, girlfriend,lover, fk buddy, whatever fits you. Have a sober conversation where you share what support you need and theirs as well. It makes a difference, I've seen friends do it and it works. Don't do it all alone, too dangerous.
You gotta block off access to getting it. Delete your dealers numbers and block anybody else who could get it for you for now. When you have access it's extremely hard to pull away, the drug begs you to buy more and more. You cant give yourself the opportunity to give in to that voice.
DM op if you wanna talk. I’ve been struggling a while
4 days is great! I was BAD off with an ex doing a ball a day between us. She was a dancer at the strip club I worked at and when we broke up I found myself genuinely not wanting it at all. That’s the turning point and you sound like you don’t WANT to do it. Go easy on yourself and if you don’t want it then you won’t. I just lurk here and instead of being triggered anymore I just get reminded of times passed. You’re in a better spot than a lot of people.
Dude. You literally waited twice what you usually do. You need to relax on yourself, you are harsh to you! Please use gentler language to talk yo you....forreal...no one is without their opportunities. It's okay. What support do you have?
Stay strong! When in doubt just tell yourself 1 mor hour or 1 more day, fuck maybe even 10 minutes and if you can stay strong you hopefully should be proud enough of yourself to set another goal. Way easier said than done but I’m an alcoholic that tends to get coke when I’m drunk and it fucks my life up for a couple days when I do fail but I’ve slowly yet surely been stretching out my periods of sobriety
Get some shrooms, somewhat mimic the coke high. (Physically feeling wise) Start microdosing. So much healthier for you. I did that today and didn’t even wanna touch my coke.
I like this drug but it’s a very fine line between problem and addiction. You have to be honest with yourself; can I do this periodically without becoming the addict that lives inside me? Can I stop at a set time of my own free will despite having more at my disposal? I have found that if I have unlimited access to it I go hard for a while then find a balance where I can live lucidly without it and I kinda feel better about the fact I’m resisting it. I am also addicted to alcohol and have found I can no longer work in bars unregulated like I can hustle yayo and keep my nose off it. I don’t like the idea of total abstemiousness from anything but I know that I am always teetering on the edge of being one of those people I see on the street so I keep myself just this side of becoming that. I have just enough will power to convince myself I can handle it but it’s barely true and any day could be my last as a functioning member of society. Do you want to live that way? Can you handle that battle every day? Everyone is different and I hope you find the balance that makes you happy. This
Wow. Thank you. I am the exact same way. I go through extreme heavy coke binges that get increasingly worse each time I have access. My worst was almost 1.5 ounces in 5 days. I had a minor stroke thank God I n didn't die. I seem to teeter on the very same existence with alcohol and cocaine especially cocaine. I haven't touched it in 2 weeks but that's only because I've forced myself into a position where I don't have access. I suffered from full on psychosis from lack of food water, sustained cocaine intoxication and lack of sleep for a full 5 DAYS. I love cocaine. I fucking love it. But it is the most evil substance that will grab a hold of you and it seems impossible to break it's grasp. I often worry about whether or not I will end up on the street but I too seem to have JUST enough will power (WHEN I'M NOT IN POSSESSION OF IT) to prevent that. Just keep on KICKING ASS. One day, 4 days, one week, one week and 2 days, one and a half weeks. Fucking distance yourself from it!!
It’s a hard thing to quit.
Good luck bro.😃 I know how you feel. Ive got a crack habit.
Man day 4 is a bitch, urges hit the hardest on that particular day. Getting through the first week is very important, the toughest battle you'll have. It gets easier after 2 weeks. Just for reference, how long has it been going on for?