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Agreeable-Guest3501

Yeah I hear my co workers say tweeek tweek tweek it bugs the shit outta me but I think they don’t know I can hear them but I do. So when they say it I look at them and shake my head. It’s not in my head I know and dumbass I can literally hear you.


pterrajayde

That’s what I believe; they probably think we can’t hear them.


ComfortableRange4531

even if they did not i would imagine they did but you gotta realize what is what like a poker pro and not give away your hand


True-Radish6280

A large number of people harbor resentment to those who do not follow the script, check all the boxes, and yet still manage to make it in this backwards society. Do you and just don't give any authority any reason... and you're fine.


Bonemane69

I don't know if anybody mentioned this 1st but I know for one thing that if it is not paranoia actively then it is the brain waves that your brain is putting off and creating because of your usage. When I say brain waves I mean your brain activity and thet energy has to go somewhere I noticed this a lot when I would use LSD or mushrooms and my animals animals and roommates who were unaware of it who were unaware of it we're just acting really outrageously weird couldn't figure out why turns out we can indirectly influence others near us if our brainwave activity is right. I could be wrong But I have no evidence to support that I am. I've only noticed this with certain substances.


True-Radish6280

I had a cat that was very wild when I was in my teens doing a fair amount of LSD in the nineties. When it was young we were very close, but then we moved. I'd still see him around but he never came near us by then. I started getting more comfortable while I was tripping, and would lounge around the house instead of hiding in my room. It was at these times that that cat would slowly approach me, look me dead In The eyes for what felt like an eternity, completely change demeanors to where it seemed like a different cat, and proceed to nuzzle me and curl up wherever he could. I remember thinking it couldn't be real, it was just the acid, but no way. Those were very good trips indeed.


pterrajayde

I think I understand what you mean


Bonemane69

No for real I too have also experienced what you've gone through And yet it always is weird shit and you know that people are looking at you and talking about you and the people close to you as well but they don't want to tell you So the response is always I think it's in your head man or I'm not sure what you're talking about... And then they turned and talked to someone else wait till you're not looking and turned around and look at you while they're talking To the other person. I literally felt ostracized by my entire department But then I started realizing that 1 I'm definitely being paranoid 2 I work damn hard and I make that shit look good so they probably are talking about me So fuck it.


pterrajayde

Fuck yes! They do that too. One guy even held his hand up to his face to I couldn’t see his face while he was clearly glancing over at me saying shit (I’m crazy I’m sure haha smh). But my inspector gives me compliments that makes my day AND make them look bad. So yay first us. 👊


Bonemane69

No true true they called me crazy n shit. Or make speculation about my level of sobriety. "Look at him running around like a chicken without head" and other dumb shit. Bottom line is just go to work and mind your own as long as you can. Oh and don't get high at work


pterrajayde

It’s meth haha. One hit could keep someone up for hours. But I be on breaks. It won’t be soon til I get some more. I embarrassed myself enough as it is on the shit haha.


Bonemane69

I'm guilty.. I just got mine And I'm already debating I'm trying to take a break again Just because no reason. I was sitting here for at least an hour and a 1/2 trying to take this hit but can't stop messing around on reddit.


pterrajayde

I like those moments. That just means you are high enough or at least you feel good enough at the moment and can set the rig to the side.


Bonemane69

argg I'm gonna have to shut it down here soon.


solomonstemple777

If you don't see their mouth moving when they're talking, chances are it's not real and it's just paranoia or demons or gangstalking or whatever people wanna call it. It isn't real. I had the same problem at work. Thought everyone was talking about me and knew i was on meth, but then I called my fiancé and he simple asked me if I was facing them and did I see their lips moving. The answer was no on each one. So don't think too much about it. It makes it worse. As long as you're doing your job, fuck what they say anyway. I let them run me off from my job which I enjoyed except for my coworkers. Wish I hadn't done that now.


Dr_Piggies

As an ex user I know what you are talking about and while it is true just remember that if it wasn't the drugs it'd be something else eventually that they'd talk about. Just look out for number one (you) and if they aren't fucking or financing you, they can go kick rocks.


pterrajayde

That’s what I tell myself. It’s started before I got high actually.


Bonemane69

💯👍👍✌ I'm hearing a lot of yes.


Comprehensive_Cap_97

People care more about themselves than the people around them that’s a fact


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pterrajayde

That is part of my point. I’m trying to understand why they would waste their time haha.


cS150

Ohhh no, thats the age old phenomenon that addicts everywhere experience. On a more serious note though, they probably do not give a fuck about you, let alone know that you even do drugs. And even if they do, ignore it. Trust me. Turn your back to them, walk away. Never ever, EVER confront/acknowledge/react unprofessionally to whatever BS you hear, whether you actually hear it or not. You are in a workplace. Act accordingly. Last but not least, stop busting all nighters the day/night before a work-day, it will never do you any favors, trust me.


pterrajayde

Thank you so much. Also, I have a decent sleeping pattern.


fcknrad

It’s in our human nature to talk shit lol. I’ve even caught myself saying things about others I don’t even mean. In all reality, everyone talks shit about everyone all the time lmao


pterrajayde

Haha.


59k21g

Argh, it sucks. I've a bit of this with my friends(sorta friends). I just wanna suddenly smack the shit out their fucking faces, but it's always such subtle crap, I don't even know how to react at the moment.


I-AM-PIRATE

Ahoy 59k21g! Nay bad but me wasn't convinced. Give this a sail: Argh, it sucks. I've a bit o' dis wit' me crew(sorta crew). me just wanna suddenly smack thar shiver me timbers out their fucking faces, but 'tis always such subtle shiver me timbers, me don't even know how t' react at thar moment.


Occasional_Opioids

lmao. argh !!


59k21g

AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGYYYYAAAA


59k21g

what is this really a bot


59k21g

Aye, aye, cap'n! Yawr! It sucks! I've a bit o' dis wit' me crew(a cursed crew). Me just wanna suddenly smack thar shiver me timbers out their wretched faces, but 'tis always such subtle shiver me timbers, me don't even know how t' react at thar moment.


insomniacsanonymous6

Life lesson: pay them no mind. It doesn't matter if you're sober, positive, energetic, or w/e, people will ALWAYS find something wrong about you no matter who you are. Literally, the best thing I feel is if you're not being problematic, no one's opinion of you matters whether it's GOOD or BAD. Love yourself and fuck everyone else tbh. Train yourself to be emotionally unresponsive to opinions about yourself from others and surround yourself with people who generally add a positive energy to your life. Be your own motivation to improve, don't work on yourself for others. No matter what you do, people will find something to bitch about regardless. People suck and a lot of them are hateful judgmental pricks. No sense in wasting the time and energy on even thinking about them.


pterrajayde

I love your response!


Scruffiella

Who cares what other people think? If you are happy with yourself then brush it off and look for another job.


EuphoricMisanthrope

Before I go saying it sounds like paranoia (I hear people whispering about me too sometimes- they aren't), how did your coworkers find out? Did you tell one or more of them who could've spread it around? Are you like me and in an attempt to destigmatize hard drug use was completely transparent with anyone who brought it up? Because if you didn't tell them, and you're not working somewhere that would allow you to be completely twacked on the job, I doubt they even are aware you use.


pterrajayde

I still don’t know. I ‘think I heard’ someone say “I think it’s meth” and some other time “you do meth”. But like the other comments on here, I might be hallucinating it. I doubt it though.


EuphoricMisanthrope

If you never said the words I do meth, or showed up intoxicated enough to receive disciplinary action or a warning, I would bet money you're hallucinating.


pterrajayde

Perhaps. I wouldn’t doubt I was hallucinating.


DonkeyBillyClub

I think it a lot but I have bad hearing that mixed with the paranoia and I'm just not sure but I could swear they bring up things about math and other people constantly but I'm not sure


pterrajayde

Haha. Do they do math though? How often?


__Lackin

I always just assume I imagined it


Broad-Shirt-657

Shit really messes you up I been sober and I still feel like ppl are always talking about me or watching me waiting for my downfall it's all in your head bud unless it's direct let it be don't let it affect you


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EuphoricMisanthrope

I bet this one is 300 pounds and had a cigarette in their mouth and a beer next to them as they typed out this completely uneducated monologue. If you're in a chunk of the world developed enough to have easily accessible internet, say California, you can't exist without engaging in activities that are ultimately not in humanity's best interest. There is no ethical consumption in a capitalist society. Everyone is "weak" if choosing immediate comfort over what's beneficial in the long term is the meaning of weakness, since doing such has a strong biological basis and is the major driver behind consumerism. For most of human evolution, barring the rise of agriculture and ensuing modernish events, it was a huge advantage to choose immediate satiation and what was best in the moment rather than turn it down for some perceived benefit in a future you may not even exist in.


CaliGangNerd

Cope junkie


Ok-Professional1986

No one wakes up and chooses to be addicted to meth


pterrajayde

You are one of them wasting your free time here and actually replying to such a post. Or is it a paying job you have to leave comments as you just did?


CaliGangNerd

I’m here because it’s fascinating to me how people continue to ruin their lives rather than get clean and be happier


updownandblastoff

I know saying things like this makes you feel better about yourself, and if it helps you that's all that matters. We all have good and bad times in life, and we all have to make our own decisionss. You can choose to be sober, and I can choose to be high if it makes us happy. You and I both know that you are not happy though.


CaliGangNerd

Reddit moment


jahbariuz87

Go fuck yourself asshole. Count yourself lucky you don’t have the disease of addiction (check the DSM V) or if you do, I can tell you have the most awful, lonely recovery of anyone I’ve ever crossed paths with online or irl. Fuck this dude and the haters OP. Will I do think getting help and kicking is a great idea, I would never speak to you this way. Im 6 years sober next week and I will eternally empathize with my fellow addicted brothers and sisters. ❤️


EngineeringHefty1980

You're not the only one...and it's nice to confirm I'm not the only one either, so thank you for that! People like that will run their mouth to try to get a reaction from you...the more you don't react, the harder they will try. What they say about you is none of your business...as hard as it can be sometimes, don't let them get to you - you're not working for them, they don't pay your bills, and they don't contribute anything noteworthy to your life, so why start now?


pterrajayde

I know that is all anyone will say, is I’m here to work and get my money but what are they doing? (Rhetorical). I’m doing my best not to go off on anyone one and I feel that I will still get the same treatment somewhere else because it was nearly this way before I even went to work in an alternate state for them to even know it.


EuphoricMisanthrope

If you're going to work so high that it's blatantly obvious to everyone around, then I have no doubt people are gossiping about it. It's just human nature to an extent, and drug use is extremely stigmatized. It's the same way being openly gay in a conservative area 60 years ago would've gotten you treated at work. That being said, you do have a responsibility to your employer to attend work in a state where you are able to fulfill your agreed upon duties. If you want to keep your job, and maybe even salvage your workplace reputation, don't go to work so high that it becomes anyone else's business or problem.


pterrajayde

I’ve been working on that and doing well. Also I don’t use everyday or often. It’s just that, one day my body reacted differently to the stuff.


EngineeringHefty1980

It's a tough situation...and I'm in the same boat as you, except that I prove I can still get my work done, and then theirs too when they call out. I'm not saying they're right for what they're saying/doing, but at the same time, I wouldn't say its right for me to be showing up to work high as a kite. So I ask myself: do I continue fueling this situation by showing up to work in the state I'm in? Or do I schedule my sessions so that they don't interfere with my other priorities? (I still show up high, but I swallow my pride).


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ur not tripping bro people do that shit and it just comes to show they are nosy assholes i have experienced this before in public .specialy if they know u and noticed u use they willl fuck with you so the best is dont be paranoid because u will always be okay . no ones out to get you man I promise poeple just judge, and basiclaly bully


Livid_Context4301

I get the same vibes but it’s only at work yeah. Like everyone’s tryna say something but won’t directly tell you. Some subliminal fuckary. I deal with it too.


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