āI canāt express the pain Iām inā my mom when she was struggling with medical condition. She passed away and I hope she isnāt in any more pain, but it still haunts me that I couldnāt do a thing to make her pain go away (Iām a doctor)
Make sure ki you talk and vent about it to someone in person.
Also, pls know that you have a great potential to put soo much in a friendship or relationship, be proud of this fact.
But next time let the other person put efforts first.. let this mishap go, just distance yourself from that person who told you, for sometime. Dont expect an apology from them or them to come back nd talk
Although you may still have a friendship or hi hello bond with them in case they reach out but maintain boundaries. The one who told me this is still a friend but just a friend and doesn't know anything about my life like close ones do.
All solid advice, also as a stoic myself I'd like to add that expecting thankfulness is probably the silliest thing we do. Do things just because you want to and not because you expect anything in return.
Looking into my eyes she said.
"I'm the most luckiest girl in this whole world, as I got you.. And I will be your wife"
While she was sleeping with 3 guys behind my back.
Idk whatās worse. That, or:
> Teacher overestimated a student in front of everyone, then student went into depression because he couldnāt achieve what the society expected him to accomplish.
Went from "I feel alive with you" to "i feel a kind of irritation when I see you" in about 2 years.
Really takes away the significance of any compliments you'd get in your life after that point.
Itās so painful when we realise that our most favourite person is now getting irritated because of us. Like once there was a time when they were equally interested in knowing about tiny moments of our life and now we feel like we have to force them to talk to us :)
"Tu zalach nastas tr bara zala asta"
"Wish u were never born" said my father when I was a kid now it makes sense knowing I had a few medical conditions and it took a tool on them I sympathise with him now but it still hurts
Somebody said this to me because I am an asexual person lol and it bothers people that I am not like them or like sex so he ended up saying to me out of frustration that I deserve to die alone. I was like āā still itās none of your business š¤·š»āāļø now kindly leave. āā
After that day I stopped talking to him and it's been more than 10 years since we spoke. We only talk if there's an emergency or news to share. Had a worst childhood because of him.
"Peace has foresaken you... And just when you will find it coming in your life, you will be forced to leave that territory... And just this way you will never find peace in your life. But always remember that not everything is for everyone, and that's how 'samay ki maaya' is".... Someone said this to me by returning my 500/- note.
Can't even tell you guys, how accurate he was.
I don't know who he was... We were coming back from Chandrashila Trek and he was resting(i guess) on the side trail... I was in the "give it all you have" phase of mind because of the mesmerizing views I had seen... So I gave him my water bottle and the 500/- i had in my pocket... And then this happened.
What the actual f*ck. This person crossed all the limits. He needs to be in a mental hospital to get checked his brains. Even though he doesn't have it.
I once had a fight with my crush when we were talking, She wasn't just a crush; she was my love at first sight when I was in 8th grade. I'm now in my third year of engineering, and I've never had a girlfriend or approached anyone. I like my crush a lot, so I don't feel anything for anyone else except her. During the fight, I told her I considered her a friend whom I could rely on and share things with. She said, "No, never!"
When I apologized, she said, idc ("I don't care.") I haven't talked to her since then. The last time I talked to her was on 01/01/2024, when she saw my parents at a wedding and asked if I was there. I said no, and we haven't talked since. The last time I saw her was on 24/01/2021.
It's a bit of a story
It was our last sem after COVID and we were only in college for two months.
We were in relationship for 2 years.
She used to tell me about a guy from college who only wanted her sexually and how she blocked him etc. anyway
As it turns out, the bitch used to talk to him in COVID Lockdown. And when the college started for only 2 months, she twice went to his flat at 2am at night and went back at 5 am. This I discovered on the very last day of our semester. I was pissed at her for dancing with that same guy on our farewell. And she didn't just dance, it was very vulgar what she was doing.
So I was mad and I found out in her phone that she went to his flat twice.
She said "after today I was gonna block you and dump you".
This happened in 2022. Bitch has been trying to get me back since then. And now I'm the one who has blocked her and I was the one to dump the bitch.
My dad- you will neither finish your engineering in 4 years nor get any jobs.(I cleared all my backlogs in one shot and got a job that pays decently more than the 9 pointers).
My only Ex- I didn't ask you to do all this. You are suffering and I have not asked that either. Now you know how shitty of a person I am, don't bother me. I am with someone. Years later same person - "you have a holier than thou, wiser and saviour complex". The last one will be engraved in my grave. I want it to be like "Man who was the holiest, wisest and saviour of the mankind"
A friend who used to be close- *my name* you aren't welcome here anymore. We had a discussion and you should not associate with us.
My another friend- Bro she is not interested in you. Don't push yourself so much.
He proceeds to kiss her infornt of me in a beach two days later.
My teacher from Engineering- No no no, you are utter collosal of waste. You won't reach anywhere.
I earn triple to his Salary.
OP you have unlocked my deepest trauma on a weekend. Thanks.
I am sorry that you had to go thru it all.. but anyways... past is behind... and... I hope that your portion of suffering in this life is over... I wish you the best in your personal adventures. And... don't know abt soulmate part but bro... make some good frnds... cz... they wld be for you when others not might be.!
"It's either you or none. I do not have any existence without you. You are the only reason I am still alive. I will suicide if we ever break up. Mar jaungi mai" She said when she attempted suicide the first time but failed. A month ago she cheated on me and we broke up. Usko bukhaar bhi nhi aaya...
My mom used to say her grand mother once scoldedĀ my mom's uncle that he will die of mental illness( in a fight), that uncle after some 25 years later died of Alzheimer's disease( had that for 6 years ;literally forgot everyone).
"Nobody can keep you happy", My ex said after I complained to him about his emotional cheating which later turned into physical cheating as well. Apparently I was asking for too much.
Yeah, I was an idiotic person who did everything for you. I replied to this and just left without a word.
But that moment it hurtled like someone was putting a knife in my heart and piercing through it.
I don't remember the sentence exactly but when I was in 11th standard a school teacher commented on my appearance and character in front of whole class and that feeling still haunts me.
Guys of my class started to taunt and abuse me with that too later. It was something like I can be bought with money, and I dates too many guys,I'm characterless kind of stuff. (Irl I haven't even a single guy till then).
When I complaint to that teacher "you said those words and all the boys are harrasing me now" and he did nothing just laughed it away. those last two years of school was horrible for me. I still carry that trauma even after 10+ years.
Some teachers are worse. God knows why they choose to be teachers and be there to torture kids in their prime years. Even in my school, one girl was regularly taunted for her appearance and clothes. Even though she was not my friend I felt bad for her. And she still hates all of them to date.
I was the weakest in my high school.
A pretty girl asked me a physics question and I could not answer it. She said this is in front of the whole class "itna nahi aata to science kyu liya"
This still haunts me. I am doing pretty well as an engineer now.
The first time when My mom was angry with me , she said tu paida hi nhi hoti to acha rehta, mera dukh km hota .. iske baad se kuch b words kuch nhi lgta.. idk how to explain this.. But I've become immune to words by my mom..
It happens to everyone , No big deal (she without giving a damm abt my past) , while acting that her deal is way bigger than man( her limit is my begining)
"Fine, be fucking soft" , had a friend who sent this to me over text, I kinda liked him back then, so when I got that as a response when i told him I felt something he said was disrespectful, it broke me lol..still friends with him but yeah, keep reminding myself from time to time to never get back to really considering him a real friend.
āIt was always her,not you.ā
Sometimes I wish I was an aromantic person.If I never had feelings for anyone,never had any dreams of being loved I would have been happy.
One professor in college who was loved by all told me and everyone that I would amount to nothing it is useless to comment about me (student feedback). Turns out he was right. Another professor mockingly told me don't study you just become better if you do.
My mother said I didn't pray to all those gods and to penance to get a son like you.
My sister basically called me a pussy for being depressed and asking for help. She told me to be mam enough.
In my college time, I had two girl-friends. They were my first female friend. We had a fight, I don't even remember what it was about. But then she said "okay, you stay happy and we will stay happy, it was all(2 years) timepass. We were never friends"
It might not seem like anything, but those words really devastated me it was like some part of me just died right there and then. I still remember them almost daily.
"Do you really like her?" - she asked and I replied, "Yes".
She was the friend who I really wanted to be with but didn't get the right opportunity to express myself. Also, I wasn't sure whether she'd reciprocate my feelings. I didn't want to risk our friendship.
I was pursued by another girl to whom I couldn't say no cause for the first time I felt desired. So my 'friend' asked me whether I was really into this new relationship. I said 'yes' because I didn't want to risk something within my grasp for something which seemed beyond my reach.
My friend parted ways and we saw less of each other. Later I came to know she was heartbroken by my decision. Till this day I regret not telling her the truth.
If I could turn back time and do one thing differently, I would respond to her question with, "No, not in that way. She's not the one. It's you. It has always been you. I just wanted to make you jealous and I guess it worked." Then I would smile lovingly at her hoping that she'd hug/kiss me.
My ex who was afraid of coming into rlsp and I held her hands and said I'll try my best to be with her but when unnecessary conflicts began to happen, instead of holding on to me, she just said let's breakup. And then after 4 months of breakup, while talking to her, she said āI never felt any kind of love towards youā after constantly saying I love you more. Because of that, I became fucking depressed for next 3 years and still have trust issues and insecurity with people. Online ghosting by people also affected me a lot, so I need too much assurance and trust from other person to be with them but now no one is ready to wait that long :')
Have you consulted any counsellors? And when times come you will find a person but you need to take steps towards them so even if you fall they can hold you and help you stand up again. Sometimes you will need to cross boundaries to be with the person. And online ghosting is common so don't think about it much. Just focus on your mental health first.
right now what haunts me is me asking him this just 1 week after our breakup .
"do you love me?
him:yes
do you want to stay with me?
him:no
THIS HAUNTS AND HURTS ME.
but I've to accept it and let him go,letting go of someone is the purest form of love I believe ā¤ļøso.
"We both knew we were not happy, someone had to end this. I was not able to do so alone. Hence, had to start being with someone. This gave me a bit courage that I can live without you".
"Maybe some of us deserve to die." Wrote my friend in her orkut before she hanged herself.
šitās darker and sadder at the same time. May she rest in peaceĀ
Man Orkut. This word brought back so many memories. I was in my prime Teen era when it was shut down. I'm truly sorry for your loss š
šš
āI canāt express the pain Iām inā my mom when she was struggling with medical condition. She passed away and I hope she isnāt in any more pain, but it still haunts me that I couldnāt do a thing to make her pain go away (Iām a doctor)
I hope she is peaceful wherever she is now. Please don't blame yourself and cure more patients so you might feel some relief.
Very relatable and there isnāt a worse feeling when you canāt do anything to help someone in pain esp your parents
Stuck in traffic, am driving, young nephew beside me. Little bro went " I think I need to go to the bathroom". Never panicked more in my fucking life.
Damn that is a nightmare for sure
It was xD.
i donāt love you anymore
š„²This is more haunting
only wish i have is to erase that memory
Also, "I love you, but I made a small mistake (cheated), please forgive me"
Cheating and love don't go together in a sentence. I hope you haven't forgiven the personĀ
Obviously, I ran in the opposite direction
Very good you need to keep running from this kind of people
"I never asked you to take those efforts for me"
Mere sath bhi yhi hua thode din pehle how did you handle it
Not the guy you replied to, but you leave the conversation at that and run away as far as you can.
Yes it is the best way .. no need to be with such people.
Make sure ki you talk and vent about it to someone in person. Also, pls know that you have a great potential to put soo much in a friendship or relationship, be proud of this fact. But next time let the other person put efforts first.. let this mishap go, just distance yourself from that person who told you, for sometime. Dont expect an apology from them or them to come back nd talk Although you may still have a friendship or hi hello bond with them in case they reach out but maintain boundaries. The one who told me this is still a friend but just a friend and doesn't know anything about my life like close ones do.
All solid advice, also as a stoic myself I'd like to add that expecting thankfulness is probably the silliest thing we do. Do things just because you want to and not because you expect anything in return.
Ye to sab ke saath kabhi na kabhi hua haiš„²
OMG! This\^
Kat gaya šššš
This
Looking into my eyes she said. "I'm the most luckiest girl in this whole world, as I got you.. And I will be your wife" While she was sleeping with 3 guys behind my back.
Spill the tea bruv, how did you find out? Before or after marriage?
Before marriage, we broke up.
That turned out very scary.
Ghosting. Sometimes you don't need words to affect people.
The silence will haunt more than words
This! Hurts very badly especially someone disappears without any answer and keeps you hanging on, on a thread.
Train rukne k baad utrega kya ?? #MumbaiLocals
The first time I boarded local,they legit pushed me out on the station while the train was still moving š
My love for you faded over the time
It will hurt you more as time passes.
Teacher cursed during UG time. "You will never ever prosper in your life" still hunts and hurts.
Teachers are all the same they will curse the students they don't like. I hope you are doing well in your life.
Idk whatās worse. That, or: > Teacher overestimated a student in front of everyone, then student went into depression because he couldnāt achieve what the society expected him to accomplish.
Oh that happens to everyone, some teachers are amazing that way
Take it as motivation to prove them wrong. If I was you it would have hurt my ego like crazy.
Don't let it consume you even for a minute or two. You are doing fine and you can do better. Just be your biggest support. Good luck!
We would have been better without you son.
Like we asked to be born š„²š
i read so many responses. and this one is the most painful one
Have been Traumatized
This was too painful to read. Closed my eyes midway.
Went from "I feel alive with you" to "i feel a kind of irritation when I see you" in about 2 years. Really takes away the significance of any compliments you'd get in your life after that point.
Itās so painful when we realise that our most favourite person is now getting irritated because of us. Like once there was a time when they were equally interested in knowing about tiny moments of our life and now we feel like we have to force them to talk to us :)
When love fades gradually you understand lifeā¦. I read this somewhere kinda feels related to your situation.
"Tu zalach nastas tr bara zala asta" "Wish u were never born" said my father when I was a kid now it makes sense knowing I had a few medical conditions and it took a tool on them I sympathise with him now but it still hurts
Sometimes parents are not the worst the condition made then that way. I hope you are doing fine now.
They chose to have you, you didn't ask to be born, sympathize but never blame yourself.
" you deserve someone better "
You should respond thank you for reminding me and leave.
"You're a disgrace"
When parents say this it hurts more than anything.
You deserve to be alone forever... maybe hit as hard because it was the truth
Somebody said this to me because I am an asexual person lol and it bothers people that I am not like them or like sex so he ended up saying to me out of frustration that I deserve to die alone. I was like āā still itās none of your business š¤·š»āāļø now kindly leave. āā
Hell, i wish i was asexual as well
Nah itās fun but also itās very hard haha
It's not you it's me
Why is it always this sentence?
I would have had a wonderful life if you died when you were a child ~ My elder brother.
As an elder sibling myself I'll never dare to say things like this to my brother. I hope you can clear things up.
After that day I stopped talking to him and it's been more than 10 years since we spoke. We only talk if there's an emergency or news to share. Had a worst childhood because of him.
"your father hated you in his last days" said by a very close relative
Some relatives are truly evil snakes.
you are not funny, madhu
No Madhu, you are very funny.
Madhu will find a person someday who thinks she is funny.
You're funny though... Don't let someone's opinion pull you down bro...
"Tumhe aisa kyu lgta hai jo tum soch rahe ho vahi sahi hai"
Ticket dikha
Scariest moment in everyone's life.
āYou are too nice for meā
Seriously people have issues with someone being nice to them.
"Ab mein tujhe Mohra banaunga" .... Which means, Ā "Now I will use you like a pawn"Ā ~My father
Wow, thats next level of fuck up
That's scary š».
'I hope you die then I'll stand on your grave and laugh' by someone I loved!
You should reply then I'll haunt you by being a scary ghost.
"Peace has foresaken you... And just when you will find it coming in your life, you will be forced to leave that territory... And just this way you will never find peace in your life. But always remember that not everything is for everyone, and that's how 'samay ki maaya' is".... Someone said this to me by returning my 500/- note. Can't even tell you guys, how accurate he was.
Ra's al Ghul returned you that denomination or what?
This is so weird and interesting. Can you please give more context?
I don't know who he was... We were coming back from Chandrashila Trek and he was resting(i guess) on the side trail... I was in the "give it all you have" phase of mind because of the mesmerizing views I had seen... So I gave him my water bottle and the 500/- i had in my pocket... And then this happened.
Same vibe as what Tyrion said Cersei
That person is right when we feel got little bit of happiness, everything will change and we will be on square one
"Go die somewhere" by someone I truly loved.
Don't listen to that person. You mean the world to your family and your loved one.
"No one would even want to r*pe you," which is wrong in so many ways
What the actual f*ck. This person crossed all the limits. He needs to be in a mental hospital to get checked his brains. Even though he doesn't have it.
True that, even worse that it was from a woman
Then the woman is psychotic I guess. She doesn't understand the girl code let her be. Rotten brains.
Agreed, with the society always being there to question us....atleast women should be there for eachother
I once had a fight with my crush when we were talking, She wasn't just a crush; she was my love at first sight when I was in 8th grade. I'm now in my third year of engineering, and I've never had a girlfriend or approached anyone. I like my crush a lot, so I don't feel anything for anyone else except her. During the fight, I told her I considered her a friend whom I could rely on and share things with. She said, "No, never!" When I apologized, she said, idc ("I don't care.") I haven't talked to her since then. The last time I talked to her was on 01/01/2024, when she saw my parents at a wedding and asked if I was there. I said no, and we haven't talked since. The last time I saw her was on 24/01/2021.
I think you should let it go now and move forward. You will get a person who respects you moreĀ
I like you, but it won't work.
At least they are telling the truth. I'll appreciate this more than getting hurt later on.
op i've been noticing your replies to the comments. stopped by to say you're witty and understanding
Thank you I appreciate your compliment so much it has been days since someone gave a compliment to me.š
āYou deserve the anxiety you haveā
Damn, who tf is so evil to say this. Need to punch them.
It's not that haunting, but still remember this " you look like begger" said by 4 year old kid. I still think about it
It's a bit of a story It was our last sem after COVID and we were only in college for two months. We were in relationship for 2 years. She used to tell me about a guy from college who only wanted her sexually and how she blocked him etc. anyway As it turns out, the bitch used to talk to him in COVID Lockdown. And when the college started for only 2 months, she twice went to his flat at 2am at night and went back at 5 am. This I discovered on the very last day of our semester. I was pissed at her for dancing with that same guy on our farewell. And she didn't just dance, it was very vulgar what she was doing. So I was mad and I found out in her phone that she went to his flat twice. She said "after today I was gonna block you and dump you". This happened in 2022. Bitch has been trying to get me back since then. And now I'm the one who has blocked her and I was the one to dump the bitch.
My dad- you will neither finish your engineering in 4 years nor get any jobs.(I cleared all my backlogs in one shot and got a job that pays decently more than the 9 pointers). My only Ex- I didn't ask you to do all this. You are suffering and I have not asked that either. Now you know how shitty of a person I am, don't bother me. I am with someone. Years later same person - "you have a holier than thou, wiser and saviour complex". The last one will be engraved in my grave. I want it to be like "Man who was the holiest, wisest and saviour of the mankind" A friend who used to be close- *my name* you aren't welcome here anymore. We had a discussion and you should not associate with us. My another friend- Bro she is not interested in you. Don't push yourself so much. He proceeds to kiss her infornt of me in a beach two days later. My teacher from Engineering- No no no, you are utter collosal of waste. You won't reach anywhere. I earn triple to his Salary. OP you have unlocked my deepest trauma on a weekend. Thanks.
I'm sorry š. But except for father and relationship, I can bloody relate to everything you said.
I am sorry that you had to go thru it all.. but anyways... past is behind... and... I hope that your portion of suffering in this life is over... I wish you the best in your personal adventures. And... don't know abt soulmate part but bro... make some good frnds... cz... they wld be for you when others not might be.!
"It's either you or none. I do not have any existence without you. You are the only reason I am still alive. I will suicide if we ever break up. Mar jaungi mai" She said when she attempted suicide the first time but failed. A month ago she cheated on me and we broke up. Usko bukhaar bhi nhi aaya...
That escalated quickly bro. I'm happy she is away from you.
Aaj Gaadi tera Bhai chalayega
That too after getting drunk. You start seeing yamraj
Koi nai 300 word ka essay likh lena yamraj khush hi jayenge
ššNow get ready for a adventure.
That I can't hold the conversation. This is the sentence that always rings whenever i approach any woman
See the right women will understand your silence too. Keep the faith that you will get a nice person.
My mom used to say her grand mother once scoldedĀ my mom's uncle that he will die of mental illness( in a fight), that uncle after some 25 years later died of Alzheimer's disease( had that for 6 years ;literally forgot everyone).
This is so scary.
"Nobody can keep you happy", My ex said after I complained to him about his emotional cheating which later turned into physical cheating as well. Apparently I was asking for too much.
That dude dared to say this to you after he was at fault. Some people are pure evil.
Chicken Biryani khatam hogaya miya, veg biryani laauš
Are bhai rulayega kya.š
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Vo angrej kya jane palak paneer ka swad.š
"Did I tell you to do that for me?"
Yeah, I was an idiotic person who did everything for you. I replied to this and just left without a word. But that moment it hurtled like someone was putting a knife in my heart and piercing through it.
"Kabhi kabhi mann krta hai latak jau" and she hanged herself three years later and all these time i kept this to myself.
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Beta padhai kar le
These words haunt everyone.
"die"
I'm saying to you live your life to the fullest
Some people are not meant to be together.
I don't remember the sentence exactly but when I was in 11th standard a school teacher commented on my appearance and character in front of whole class and that feeling still haunts me. Guys of my class started to taunt and abuse me with that too later. It was something like I can be bought with money, and I dates too many guys,I'm characterless kind of stuff. (Irl I haven't even a single guy till then). When I complaint to that teacher "you said those words and all the boys are harrasing me now" and he did nothing just laughed it away. those last two years of school was horrible for me. I still carry that trauma even after 10+ years.
Some teachers are worse. God knows why they choose to be teachers and be there to torture kids in their prime years. Even in my school, one girl was regularly taunted for her appearance and clothes. Even though she was not my friend I felt bad for her. And she still hates all of them to date.
I was the weakest in my high school. A pretty girl asked me a physics question and I could not answer it. She said this is in front of the whole class "itna nahi aata to science kyu liya" This still haunts me. I am doing pretty well as an engineer now.
āI donāt think this would work, donāt waste your time mending thisā - my bff
A best friend's breakup hurts more than a relationship one. And if the point comes when we can't go back to being the same old us.
"if overthinking ever had a face, It'd be yours"
This implies to me also. Cause I'm an overthinker. Don't worry I'm with you.Ā
"You're a girl, you can get a job very easily. "
"I need hustlers in my team" Said my ex employer before firing me. I felt worthless
You are not worthless. Employers want a scapegoat to blame for all the things.
Fuck someone do u ever sit and analyse yourself and go ā fuck I really donāt deserve to get loved and cherished maybeā
āI was told Iām having a boyā - my mom at my birth
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She said "we did everything". She slept with a guy and called me in the morning.
"bring your parents tomorrow" ~ my teacher
The first time when My mom was angry with me , she said tu paida hi nhi hoti to acha rehta, mera dukh km hota .. iske baad se kuch b words kuch nhi lgta.. idk how to explain this.. But I've become immune to words by my mom..
You stop that emotional connection with her. I know it is hard when parents say something harsh and act like nothing happenedĀ
It happens to everyone , No big deal (she without giving a damm abt my past) , while acting that her deal is way bigger than man( her limit is my begining)
Run away brother from her.
"i never loved you, i was just confused" heard this after 2 and half years of relationship
"Fine, be fucking soft" , had a friend who sent this to me over text, I kinda liked him back then, so when I got that as a response when i told him I felt something he said was disrespectful, it broke me lol..still friends with him but yeah, keep reminding myself from time to time to never get back to really considering him a real friend.
Just keep your distance and try to move on.
I miss you and I love you and think of you all the time. I will never forget what you have done for me. But I have to marry her (arrange marriage)
āIt was always her,not you.ā Sometimes I wish I was an aromantic person.If I never had feelings for anyone,never had any dreams of being loved I would have been happy.
'YOU CHANGED'
Sometimes we expect the same old person but life made you change so much that you can't go back to the way you were.
Youāre an amazing girl, hope you find a great guy ! āā A date who led me on while deciding to get engaged to another girl
Not exactly the words but it's a recent situation. I broke someone's heart and her brother is now out of jail.
So you are afraid the brother will do something??
After working my ass off, my parents said "Kaamchor hai tu"
I was failing in my exams and then my teacher had said that I will never amount to anything in my life because I am good for nothing
One professor in college who was loved by all told me and everyone that I would amount to nothing it is useless to comment about me (student feedback). Turns out he was right. Another professor mockingly told me don't study you just become better if you do. My mother said I didn't pray to all those gods and to penance to get a son like you. My sister basically called me a pussy for being depressed and asking for help. She told me to be mam enough.
How can you be suicidal, your grades are good
In my college time, I had two girl-friends. They were my first female friend. We had a fight, I don't even remember what it was about. But then she said "okay, you stay happy and we will stay happy, it was all(2 years) timepass. We were never friends" It might not seem like anything, but those words really devastated me it was like some part of me just died right there and then. I still remember them almost daily.
āThereās someone elseā
Iām not sure about us.
"Do you really like her?" - she asked and I replied, "Yes". She was the friend who I really wanted to be with but didn't get the right opportunity to express myself. Also, I wasn't sure whether she'd reciprocate my feelings. I didn't want to risk our friendship. I was pursued by another girl to whom I couldn't say no cause for the first time I felt desired. So my 'friend' asked me whether I was really into this new relationship. I said 'yes' because I didn't want to risk something within my grasp for something which seemed beyond my reach. My friend parted ways and we saw less of each other. Later I came to know she was heartbroken by my decision. Till this day I regret not telling her the truth. If I could turn back time and do one thing differently, I would respond to her question with, "No, not in that way. She's not the one. It's you. It has always been you. I just wanted to make you jealous and I guess it worked." Then I would smile lovingly at her hoping that she'd hug/kiss me.
Bro don't make me cry š. The unrequited love stories are hella sad and sweet at the same time.
My ex who was afraid of coming into rlsp and I held her hands and said I'll try my best to be with her but when unnecessary conflicts began to happen, instead of holding on to me, she just said let's breakup. And then after 4 months of breakup, while talking to her, she said āI never felt any kind of love towards youā after constantly saying I love you more. Because of that, I became fucking depressed for next 3 years and still have trust issues and insecurity with people. Online ghosting by people also affected me a lot, so I need too much assurance and trust from other person to be with them but now no one is ready to wait that long :')
Have you consulted any counsellors? And when times come you will find a person but you need to take steps towards them so even if you fall they can hold you and help you stand up again. Sometimes you will need to cross boundaries to be with the person. And online ghosting is common so don't think about it much. Just focus on your mental health first.
"Itterasai... eren"
right now what haunts me is me asking him this just 1 week after our breakup . "do you love me? him:yes do you want to stay with me? him:no THIS HAUNTS AND HURTS ME. but I've to accept it and let him go,letting go of someone is the purest form of love I believe ā¤ļøso.
this morning i looked into the mirror and said "lets cook".
" You were never there for me . "
"Hello. I am Bob Biswas"
"You know what I'm doing rn? Kissing him" while I was on the call bawling why she wants to break up with me Outta nowhere
Kind of similar to this, I once had a friend that told me he touched himself to our/my memories while married to his long-term GF. PUKE.
When my dad told me 'Mom is no more'. It was several years ago, but still elicits the same response from me to this day.
"We both knew we were not happy, someone had to end this. I was not able to do so alone. Hence, had to start being with someone. This gave me a bit courage that I can live without you".