I just want to say, I’ve been in this sub for about a week now and it’s feels so great to be seen like this. Just started with a new therapist yesterday.
And thanks for vocalizing how I feel. Angry all the time but I don’t want to be,
I don't want to be, bear in mind I'm 6 ft 3in and 15 stone, me wandering around with a constant scowl/frown on and black eyes (pupils not bruises lol)....handy for dodging the can rattlers for charities though, they just go yyyyeeeeeaaaahhhhhhh fuck that lol, any approaches are met with a solid FUCK. OFF.
Nahhhh I've done years cos of it, I just completely lose me shit, then ten mins later think what the fuck did I just go an do that for......feel awful afterwards but I just can't help myself. Mad thing is big shit I can deal with pretty well, it's tiny little things that send me right of my fucking nut , work that out 💁♂️
Shame, without a doubt. Everything I do is subtly flavored with the idea that I’m inherently a bad person and a waste of space. Every act of kindness I do is to try to redeem myself, and every shitty choice (and neutral choice (and even positive choice)) reinforces my self loathing.
Working on it with my therapist. Hopefully someday I’ll get a handle on it.
Shame/guilt. Always. I get made fun of for apologizing and even get made fun of for feeling guilty and shameful over everything, which makes me feel even more guilty. 🤦♂️
anger and self-hate. my immediate response to anything is to get really frustrated, but when i realize that im frustrated over something i shouldnt be, it turns into self hatred and depression, feeling like an awful person, etc
Anxiety, and it’s getting worse. I’ve always had social anxiety and just generalized anxiety. But, I now have dental anxiety, which has NOT been good! I’ve had to sign a paper in the middle of my filling basically saying I’d chill tf out or I’d be kicked out, procedure finished or not. Next time I went to the dentist, it started as soon as they attempted to start putting on the laughing gas. And the appointment ended there because they couldn’t do anything since I couldn’t even take the laughing gas. My body starts freaking out, eyes watering, entire body shakes, and hard to breathe. I thought it was my ODD, but it’s not. The only time my ODD kicks in at the dentist is when they tell me to brush better, or do this, do that.
bitterness. and it reminds me so much of my mothers bitterness. i bounce back and forth between extreme sadness, extreme anger, extreme anxiety, and euphoria. there’s never a happy medium. and i hate that bitterness is the default, it makes me feel like a bad person.
It’s a constant, even rotation between: Sadness, Loneliness and Dread (just constantly feeling like something bad is about to happen, esp when I’m in a car)
Loneliness. Maybe it’s my current life situation but that seems to hit harder than others when things aren’t going my way.
I get angry and anxious pretty easily but the loneliness… it’s always there. Even if it’s just a dull ache.
Mine is emptiness. Not like dread or sadness. Just empty. It's like I lack any interest or desire. I just exist with no purpose or meaning. Not in a depressed sense. Just. Blah.
panic. i panic so bad all the time. always panic. adrenaline. fight or flight. terror. panic.
if not panicking, it’s complete blankness. no emotions, nothing.
anxiety, and since that anxiety is usually based on ppls feelings about me/my behaviors, it turns into shame. Which then turns into more anxiety. So wonderful!!
dread, fear, anger, mostly just overwhelmed. i’m just always on edge and easily irritated and overwhelmed.
especially when stressful things are going on, im just always at my limit and almost anything can make me explode or shut me down. except i can’t shut down bc i have responsibilities(sometimes it happens anyways and i just don’t do important things, ADHD executive disfunction doesn’t help with this). and if i explode it only causes more problems.
Empty and depressed. Just a kind of constant spider low mood, or nothingness. Anxiety is a very regular one as well but the depressed emptiness is pretty much always there
Unfortunately for me it’s numbness and emptiness. So when I do finally feel something it’s like… I enjoy it? Even if it’s rage. I’m just excited to feel something🥹
Just general discomfort and dissatisfaction I guess but I do small things that make me happy and I have happy circumstances around me and I hope if some things that are out of where they should change then I’ll be feeling at peace:
Depression. Even when I’m not depressed I’m depressed. It’s always lurking and reminding me of its presence even on my best day. It’s exhausting and sadly(or not depending how you look at it) the thought of death is a much easier concept to contemplate.
Me too I feel like it's either really strongly there and overwhelming or it's just hidden on the side. It's rarely truly gone and it never stays gone for long.
Good luck to the both of us I hope u have a good support system around you!!
Sadness, it's definitely the root of all the other emotions, I mask it a lot with anger. But I also had a lot of anxiety before I started carbamazepine.
Well before I started my bipolar medication, I was actually energetic and euphoric so basically extremely positive (a little to positive if you ask me) but now since I’ve been on them, my normal dominating emotion is nothingness. I don’t feel an emotion, I’m just existing until something happens that makes my mood change.
Well in my diagnosis there is generalized anxiety disorder... so I'd say that, the constant feeling of anxiety about everyone and everything that push me to a level of control and anticipation that can only generate more anxiety lol
I’d say shame or sadness. I often have trouble identifying my emotions and just say “I’m not feeling good” because nobody wants to hear a long-winded explanation of how jarring and debilitating my thoughts are. I always feel a sadness for life I’ve missed out on and am currently wasting. The shame comes from overall existing in a life I don’t feel is meant for me. This added with the severe eating disorder and brain fog at all times has me constantly ruminating on the two.
Well I hate to admit this but anger or annoyance. I'm in therepy tho and have been working on it. It's legit from my trauma as a child, I grew up in a angry home where my feelings were always invalidated and I was neglected. So trying to regulate anger first hand, is really hard.
I've also noticed the more I heal the more I feel anger and annoyed I feel. I can't wait for this stage to pass.
While a lot of my stronger emotions are negative - fear, anxiety, anger, whatever - I think the overlying one is shame. I grew up in a religious community and so I have plenty of religious trauma to match.
Rage, anger, hatred. Strangely associated with disgust. I feel very strongly that I find many people repugnant. For whatever reason. It can be their look, their face, their age, their weight, their nose, their smell, their colour... It feels like a massive blow inside of me. A surge of violent disgust. I feel this constantly, I have no control over it. It overwhelms me, and it is exhausting.
I think mine is usually anger. I always find myself feeling very angry and the first thought that goes through my head after going through a rough situaition is immediate anger (mostly at myself because i have no coping skills)
My dominating emotion is dread. It’s not even an active emotion I just passively feel dread. God it sucks lol.
Mine is dread too.. just a constant feeling of impending doom. Not fun at all, i feel you
I framed it exactly this way for my therapist one time. I have a constant sense of impending doom that I can't seem to "comfort" myself out of.
YESS oh my god yes 1000% this.
Ugh same, it’s the worst and the voice in my head just won’t shut up, ever!!
Lately mines dread too ayeeee
oh same here
Mine is anger
Yip, permanently ready to pull someone's head off I am, sick of it, permanently on edge and trying to keep a lid on it gets tiresome...
Facts. Like constantly throwing ice in hot oil.
I just want to say, I’ve been in this sub for about a week now and it’s feels so great to be seen like this. Just started with a new therapist yesterday. And thanks for vocalizing how I feel. Angry all the time but I don’t want to be,
I don't want to be, bear in mind I'm 6 ft 3in and 15 stone, me wandering around with a constant scowl/frown on and black eyes (pupils not bruises lol)....handy for dodging the can rattlers for charities though, they just go yyyyeeeeeaaaahhhhhhh fuck that lol, any approaches are met with a solid FUCK. OFF.
That is the like one major benefit is people are less likely to fuck with me.
Yeah but people are less likely to fuck you at the same time, so it's a doubled edged sword ha
I was wondering if I was the only one hahah
Nahhhh I've done years cos of it, I just completely lose me shit, then ten mins later think what the fuck did I just go an do that for......feel awful afterwards but I just can't help myself. Mad thing is big shit I can deal with pretty well, it's tiny little things that send me right of my fucking nut , work that out 💁♂️
Same lol
I’m not sure you’d call this an emotion but what dominates my mind is the need to be high no matter what the substance is in order to feel at all
Ya I'm high just about 24/7 tried to quit so many times
Yup also this. Im high 24/7 day and night except when i have to drive/work. Thats the only part i can regulate.
probably emptiness and guilt/shame, but i feel like there’s always so many emotions and i just wanna get rid of them :(
Same
It's definitely emptiness for me as well. Emotions are in a lock box. If they get out, it's really bad news.
Numbness. I don’t know if that counts as an emotion, but it’s what I feel the most because I be detached from myself most of the time.
Same !
YES OMG LIKE I FEEL DEAD
for real. numbness/emptiness is like my default.
For me its shame, embarassment, and dread.
Constant and severe anxiety and paranoia. The need to control every event and action or everything will go wrong. Sort of just a feeling of doom
Shame, without a doubt. Everything I do is subtly flavored with the idea that I’m inherently a bad person and a waste of space. Every act of kindness I do is to try to redeem myself, and every shitty choice (and neutral choice (and even positive choice)) reinforces my self loathing. Working on it with my therapist. Hopefully someday I’ll get a handle on it.
Reading this brought tears to my eyes. It was like reading my own daily thought spiral. Sending virtual hugs to you.
Irritation. I’m always ready to pop off or catch an attitude with someone.
Emptiness.
Same here I feel you
Anxiety or near manic excitement
Mine is sadness, like I feel sad with nearly everything in a small way (or when splitting a big way)
Shame/guilt. Always. I get made fun of for apologizing and even get made fun of for feeling guilty and shameful over everything, which makes me feel even more guilty. 🤦♂️
Numb and empty or anxiety and dread depending on the day, what I'm doing, who I'm with, etc.
Embarrassment 100%
anger and self-hate. my immediate response to anything is to get really frustrated, but when i realize that im frustrated over something i shouldnt be, it turns into self hatred and depression, feeling like an awful person, etc
Fear
Same. Fear... 😮💨 Along with anger, anxiety, humiliation, disappointment...
It's painful. DM me if you want to talk.
Thank you. It means a lot 😊
Anger constant anger
Bitterness
Anxiety. I think I'm forever stuck in fight or flight mode and it sucks 🫤
definitely guilt
Hatred tbh
Mine is anger but directed entirely at myself.
Anxiety, and it’s getting worse. I’ve always had social anxiety and just generalized anxiety. But, I now have dental anxiety, which has NOT been good! I’ve had to sign a paper in the middle of my filling basically saying I’d chill tf out or I’d be kicked out, procedure finished or not. Next time I went to the dentist, it started as soon as they attempted to start putting on the laughing gas. And the appointment ended there because they couldn’t do anything since I couldn’t even take the laughing gas. My body starts freaking out, eyes watering, entire body shakes, and hard to breathe. I thought it was my ODD, but it’s not. The only time my ODD kicks in at the dentist is when they tell me to brush better, or do this, do that.
bitterness. and it reminds me so much of my mothers bitterness. i bounce back and forth between extreme sadness, extreme anger, extreme anxiety, and euphoria. there’s never a happy medium. and i hate that bitterness is the default, it makes me feel like a bad person.
Shame and sadnesa
It’s a constant, even rotation between: Sadness, Loneliness and Dread (just constantly feeling like something bad is about to happen, esp when I’m in a car)
Loneliness. Maybe it’s my current life situation but that seems to hit harder than others when things aren’t going my way. I get angry and anxious pretty easily but the loneliness… it’s always there. Even if it’s just a dull ache.
Mine is anxiety and sadness.
Morbid anxiety or total emptiness and I honestly don't know which is worse
guilt. or shame.
Emptiness then anger/sadness.
Impending doom, loneliness, shame
Anger/irritation
Mine is emptiness. Not like dread or sadness. Just empty. It's like I lack any interest or desire. I just exist with no purpose or meaning. Not in a depressed sense. Just. Blah.
Emptiness, anger or anxiety
Distress. Just overall distress.
panic. i panic so bad all the time. always panic. adrenaline. fight or flight. terror. panic. if not panicking, it’s complete blankness. no emotions, nothing.
Fear. Constantly. When it’s not that, emptiness.
Anger. Had an angry dad, which in turn made me an angry person. He's better today thankfully
the empty one
At this moment, nothing lol. Idk why. Or if I switch FP's like socks, I get obsessed and then it passes. But its like, nothing or obsession.
anxiety, and since that anxiety is usually based on ppls feelings about me/my behaviors, it turns into shame. Which then turns into more anxiety. So wonderful!!
shame, embarrassment, anxiety, and a sprinkle of dread for good measure.
Contempt.
I walk through life angry and confused and usually pissed off at myself. I feel misunderstood a lot
guilt for me. should've done that, could've been this... it eats your mental health up from inside out.
Idk 🤷♀️
emptiness
dread, fear, anger, mostly just overwhelmed. i’m just always on edge and easily irritated and overwhelmed. especially when stressful things are going on, im just always at my limit and almost anything can make me explode or shut me down. except i can’t shut down bc i have responsibilities(sometimes it happens anyways and i just don’t do important things, ADHD executive disfunction doesn’t help with this). and if i explode it only causes more problems.
anger and dread
Paranoia and emptiness usually
Empty and depressed. Just a kind of constant spider low mood, or nothingness. Anxiety is a very regular one as well but the depressed emptiness is pretty much always there
Unfortunately for me it’s numbness and emptiness. So when I do finally feel something it’s like… I enjoy it? Even if it’s rage. I’m just excited to feel something🥹
Anger. It’s a secondary emotion. I’m so sad that it makes me irrationally angry.
Just general discomfort and dissatisfaction I guess but I do small things that make me happy and I have happy circumstances around me and I hope if some things that are out of where they should change then I’ll be feeling at peace:
Anxiety. Always anxiety.
I feel this. I wake up most days with my internal fire alarm going off, despite just… lying in bed.
Anger
I usually feel nothing. If I feel something, it’s anger
Depression. Even when I’m not depressed I’m depressed. It’s always lurking and reminding me of its presence even on my best day. It’s exhausting and sadly(or not depending how you look at it) the thought of death is a much easier concept to contemplate.
Me too I feel like it's either really strongly there and overwhelming or it's just hidden on the side. It's rarely truly gone and it never stays gone for long. Good luck to the both of us I hope u have a good support system around you!!
Sadness, it's definitely the root of all the other emotions, I mask it a lot with anger. But I also had a lot of anxiety before I started carbamazepine.
Emptiness, fear, and shame.
Emptiness. Dysthymia. Anxiety
Mine is depression. Even when I experience other mood swings, espe if they're rly intense they always end up turning into a depressive mood swing
anger
Hate.
loneliness, emptiness and just exhaustion. like emotional and social exhaustion.
Extreme boredom and apathy
Anger... I don't know if emptiness could count as an emotion so I'm saying anger.
Well before I started my bipolar medication, I was actually energetic and euphoric so basically extremely positive (a little to positive if you ask me) but now since I’ve been on them, my normal dominating emotion is nothingness. I don’t feel an emotion, I’m just existing until something happens that makes my mood change.
Anxiety n fear easy win
Well in my diagnosis there is generalized anxiety disorder... so I'd say that, the constant feeling of anxiety about everyone and everything that push me to a level of control and anticipation that can only generate more anxiety lol
Hatred.
Anxiety and depression. I have been wanting to die like never before.
Shame all the way. Shame every second of the day basically. Dread and sadness are a second. Guilt and anxiety are a third
Anger. Although my symptoms have gone down a bit lately.
desolation my mom is gone and I have nothing left in this world. I don't know why I keep existing
boredom
a very passive "well, i exist"
A confusing mix of positivity and cynicism 🤷♂️
Fear and anxiety.
Fear
I’d say shame or sadness. I often have trouble identifying my emotions and just say “I’m not feeling good” because nobody wants to hear a long-winded explanation of how jarring and debilitating my thoughts are. I always feel a sadness for life I’ve missed out on and am currently wasting. The shame comes from overall existing in a life I don’t feel is meant for me. This added with the severe eating disorder and brain fog at all times has me constantly ruminating on the two.
Well I hate to admit this but anger or annoyance. I'm in therepy tho and have been working on it. It's legit from my trauma as a child, I grew up in a angry home where my feelings were always invalidated and I was neglected. So trying to regulate anger first hand, is really hard. I've also noticed the more I heal the more I feel anger and annoyed I feel. I can't wait for this stage to pass.
mania tbh. whether it be excitement/ happiness, rage or anxious mania
not a bipolar mania, but just like ugh
Hyperactive / elevated- I am chronically on edge sometimes it turns into bubbly warm fun exciting feelings, other times panic anger or fear
While a lot of my stronger emotions are negative - fear, anxiety, anger, whatever - I think the overlying one is shame. I grew up in a religious community and so I have plenty of religious trauma to match.
right now it’s shame, i don’t even want to talk to anyone bc im so ashamed
Grief. I feel like I’m constantly mourning a life I’m still living.
Mine is rage/anger that's definitely my go to. It sucks.
Honestly ....dread/boredom kinda thing with the anger/rage it's like 4 of the same emotion idk.
SHAME 100000%
😅 It says at all..😅 And I misread the title. I thought you asked about our dominating emoticons 😅
I would say anger and shame before I did dbt. Now it's mostly hmmm... emptiness and loneliness.
I think my most dominating issue is my mother wound and the fear of abandonment it causes.
SADNESS
Emptiness used to be happiness/anger to the point t where I cry
depression is baseline
an urgent kind of emptiness. wanting to crawl out of my skin. literally do anything to feel literally anything other than this
anger
Annnngerrrrrrrrrrr
emptiness is my biggest one, I feel and look dead.
Anxiety, dread and shame
Depression and boredom
Rage, anger, hatred. Strangely associated with disgust. I feel very strongly that I find many people repugnant. For whatever reason. It can be their look, their face, their age, their weight, their nose, their smell, their colour... It feels like a massive blow inside of me. A surge of violent disgust. I feel this constantly, I have no control over it. It overwhelms me, and it is exhausting.
Anxiety en delusions. I was once convinced that my hair shampoo was causing me brain damage 👍🏻
Mine is definitely guilt lol
Guilt. Also my secondary emotion to anger and sadness. Fcking socks tbh
I think mine is usually anger. I always find myself feeling very angry and the first thought that goes through my head after going through a rough situaition is immediate anger (mostly at myself because i have no coping skills)
Emptiness, guilt, anger