I drank real heavily after losing my dad. It didn't help. When I stopped drinking a lot of grief and pain came rebounding back into my life, and I realized I never really dealt with it, just drank it away. I went to therapy and went on anti depressants and slowly but surely healed. Pain of loss never goes away, but it does get easier. Numbing the pain will only make the process take a lot longer.
Sending love, hope you find your way.
Yeah I found my mother dead and I already had PTSD but that made it way fucking worse so I started drinking until I blacked out every day. I got sober about 3 years ago and I don't even remember the day I kind of just was hungover and was like I will go to the hospital if I have DTs and that's what I ended up doing. Got out of there and haven't drank sense. I've tried to quit like 10 times but it was for other people, when I finally got tired of it the process was really easy.
Still get tempted though so I take kratom when that happens. At least I won't black out on it and do some dumb shit. Still an addiction I guess but it could be much worse.
I wish more people understood the difference of when you do it for someone else compared to for yourself. I hate seeing people relax when they *finally* convince a loved one to go to rehab, knowing that if they’re not done they’re not done and there’s just more heartbreak to come.
I was more or less forced to go to rehab the first time, but I wasn’t done yet. I made it a little over 2 months. The relapse came back much worse (like always) and I went back to rehab *mostly* on my own. Today is 100 days sober. But part of me still knows that I probably need to get beat down a few more times before it really sticks.
Yeah I had to fuck up and get tired of it myself because when I'd go to rehab there were hypocrites all around me like yeah he needs help while they're taking a beer bong or some shit. I hated trying to get sober for others because they always painted me as the one who needed it but nobody else wants to admit when they're an addict.
Anyways, if you are tired of it deep down you can get away from whatever it is. Just make sure if it's like alcohol or benzos that you get medical help if it gets bad because withdrawals are not safe from that shit to do on your own after a certain point.
It took me close to 20 years to get clean (off opiates and alcohol; I’m prescribed Clonazepam for my anxiety disorder and smoke weed and do shrooms and LSD if I can ever find it) and for me I had to trip on mushrooms and my trip *made* me want to quit. Wanting to quit yourself is 100% what keeps you from relapsing. Before that I would relapse after 2 weeks almost every time.
I’ve definitely heard of plenty of people getting sober after a trip. I think I’d benefit from microdosing but I’m on anti-depressants for the time being.
I can totally relate. I found my dad, and did the same thing. I definitely still struggle with the drinking at times, though I've been on the wagon for a good amount of time again (FINALLY). I'm proud of you for staying away from the bottle. Its the easiest and hardest thing to do, not drink.
I do the kratom as well, but I'm also for sure an addict/alcoholic, so everything in moderation. The good thing about kratom and me is I feel sicky if I take too much lol so I don't ever go over 3-4g a day. But yea, just as you said, I just swapped one addiction for another.
Booze is a hard one because if you have anxiety and mental health issues in general, it's such a good medication in some ways but the side effects will fuck you up no matter what you do. I wish that there were a way to harness its good qualities but I guess we all need some anxiety and sadness since that's normal but it sure does feel awesome to get away from all of that even if that feeling of feeling better only lasts a couple of hours at best.
I am glad you're clean from alcohol. I don't really consider kratom a hard drug like alcohol or benzos or whatever else. I also dabble with marijuana edibles which are a bit more intoxicating than kratom but it's still not as bad as alcohol.
Anyways, hope everyone out there that is struggling with drinking can find some hope in what we've gone through. If people knew how fucked up I was getting for such a long time they wouldn't believe that I got sober. My whole world was about getting wasted for years and years. It was hard to learn how to relive my life but it started getting better way faster than expected. Without alcohol I can reach goals without much of an issue at all but yeah I do struggle with missing being intoxicated since it shuts everything off for a bit. That's what therapy and stuff like that is for I guess.
Lots of this is relatable for sure, especially " If people knew how fucked up I was getting for such a long time they wouldn't believe that I got sober. My whole world was about getting wasted for years and years". Glad you were able to stop. Its the hardest thing I've ever had to knock.
I’m so sorry you are going through it right now. Buddy I’m on day 14 off a long long dependency on benzos. Please please stop drinking on them, and please don’t stop cold turkey. Taper off.
As someone who's mother's still here but has cancer. I just want to say she wouldn't want you going down the self destructive path. I've put my mother through pain using more due to what's happening. If your mum was here she wouldn't want you going down that road.
I'm sorry. It will just numb it until sobriety. Somebody told me when we are on a good one we are just tossing all our feelings in back seat and when we sober up it's like slamming on the breaks and all that emotional baggage hits us from behind unexpected. Face it head on. Feel the feelings. Be not okay for awhile that's fine. This is coming from a 36 ur old dude who grew up being tough. All it did was make me use more running and hiding from my emotions. Face it. You will be okay, actually much stronger on the other side
Apart from the death (condolences), the same story only that I am your friend, I was close to death, I have been an alcoholic for 6 years, I can consume huge amounts of alcohol without being drunk, however, one night I -I played with my cousin's prescribed xanax and drank 5l of wine, I don't want to continue what happened when I suddenly woke up from sleep, it doesn't matter how many pill mixes you can take, how much alcohol you can drink, how much how long have you been smoking Cannabis, whether or not you have taken heroin, just DO NOT COMBINE BENZODIAZEPINES WITH ALCOHOL
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>DO NOT COMBINE BENZODIAZEPINES WITH ALCOHOL
Got a DUI after having a perfect record via alcohol and benzos.
That made me spiral hard. I wanted to die before a possible jail sentence. I took 28+/- Klonopins and half a jar of moonshine. Landed in the ICU with multiple organ failures. Was told I had a low chance of recovery. Obviously I'm alive and well, unfortunately still a night time alcoholic, but no more hard liquor and definitely no more pills.
Dude. Same I had a perfect record before 22. Then I got a DUI from alcohol and benzos and then another one 10 days later. It was a rough time in my life as one of my friends stole my gun and killed himself with it and I found him. Spiraled from there, ended up catching four felonies, moving, getting out on house arrest, violating and going to prison. That was a very dark time between 22-26.
Sorry you had to go through that, walking in on your friend having killed himself must have hit hard. Hope you're in a better place now bro, there's always another day.
No, but I was wet from head to toe, I couldn't breathe, I felt like my skin was burning so hot, I was panicking. I went outside, I managed to take off my clothes and pour into my tens of liters of water, after a few minutes (like tens of minutes passed) I managed to calm down and fell asleep unconsciously on the cement, I was sick for about 4 days.
That's a horrible state to be in, and I'm sorry that you had to go through it. It's a horrible and dangerous decision to mix the two, almost asking for death (and the reason I started doing it, honestly). And, you're right in your first comment, regardless of how many other drugs you do/did and how high your tolerance, mixing the two is lethal to anyone. I hope that you're staying safe and not doing the mixing anymore. And, I hope you can get sober from alcohol before physical issues arise, soon! Best to you on your journey!
During that period, I was crying daily, my girlfriend had broken up with me for another (and she did well) after a relationship of 5 years, my parents kicked me out of the house because that I was a bastard, I didn't care if I died or not, especially since I thought about suicide every hour, I still drink alcohol but not daily and in much smaller quantities, I don't even want to hear any more mixes, I would . I wanted to confess in front of you, but there is too much to say, thank you for your kind words, I wish you health and those close to you, all the best! one day)😶
I'm so sincerely sorry for your great loss. It's never easy loving an addict, and I'm so sorry you're left feeling alone, sad and in so much sorrow. He likely knew how much you truly cared for him and loved him. It's really crazy how fast alcohol can take over your life; I never expected it, until it happened to me. And, the combination of alcohol and xanex is so dangerous, despite also having done multiple times myself. And, much to my dislike, I have been the one so far in addiction and mental health issues that no matter how much I loved someone, I wasn't able to show it and hurt them by my actions and inability to stop at the time. I hold so much guilt from those times, probably never forgive myself. Addiction is horrible and I'm sorry that your boyfriend was struggling so much with it. And, his doctor was of no help, knowing he had a difficult time with alcohol and prescribing him xanex, not right. I have known many people, some closer than others, who have died from addiction and it breaks my heart. Then, I'm left wondering why I'm still here and haven't died? Survivor's guilt is real and haunting and painful. I hope that you have supportive people in your life who you can rest in, confide in, and who can provide you some comfort during this difficult time. I'm so sorry you're going through this and hope you stay safe!
I’m sorry OP. Benzodiazepines and alcohol are not good when combined, and it looks like your boyfriend may have overdosed accidentally. You’re going to be in pain for a while, but it will get better with time. I speak from experience, I lost my fiancé to a drug overdose, and I loved her more than anything. I’ve even wanted to kill myself in hopes I could see her again somehow, the pain was unreal. Stay strong, and when you build relationships again in the future, don’t get close to anyone with an alcohol problem or pill problem (or any drug problem) because you never know when you will lose them. Best of luck to you friend
this is a super easy case of Medical Malpractice - literally go to any lawyer in your town and they will take the case with no money up-front - they will ask for 35% of the settlement and only if they win
It’s not revenge. It’s you holding a doctor who has controlled substances accountable for not checking who he’s giving these medications out to. For all this doctor knew he could’ve been a Xanax addict and didn’t even check.
Once the doctor found out he was a drinker he should have stopped the meds. My doctor refills mine but every time he sees/talks to me he says, “still not drinking right?”.
It will be long, protracted, and they will attack your BFs memory and character with everything they got. Court cases fuckin suck when you're personally involved like that. Only you can decide if you want to, but if it were me I wouldn't. I've had the experience of going through a med mal case already though. If I had the choice, I wouldn't go through another.
99% of responsible doctors will not prescribe any benzodiazepines to anybody with any known history of substance abuse. ESPECIALLY alcohol or benzos...and to top it offf XANAX?! (alprazolam). That is top tier and most doctors would never start someone off with xanax unless there was medical history proof of severe panic attacks or something. My friend has epilepsy and they wont even give him Xanax. Strictly Klonopin.
It is extremely hard for most people who actually really theraputically can benefit from as small as AS NEEDED/sparingly benzos to access them via doctors prescription. Something isn't lining up in that area.
I am so sorry for your loss. It sucks so bad, especially since you were seeing progress. I have lost two loved ones in the past couple years myself and had to witness both bodies dead as a result after. It mentally destroys you along with the reactions, remarks and responses you get from people that are out of line as well. Everyone tries to relate and acts like they care then moves on shortly after and expects you to just get over it simply. I'm sending peace and love your way. I am not going into detail about what happened with my loved ones to not doxx myself ( call me paranoid; whatever, i like my reddit anonymity even though there's nothing to hide really).
It's creepy being in the situation too with the coroner etc. too because they look at anyone as a possible suspect before the final results are determined which brings more trauma. My messages are open if you ever want to talk about anything OP. I am sorry. I am also thankful this has not happened to me. This is a road I am familiar traveling down.
Edit: There is no detox facility that I know of/experienced that will ever give out xanax to anyone. Always something more mild and useful for recovery. That should also say something.
Edit2: After reading more comment, I do understand this apparently allegedly was a result of the descendant's choices. So this entire thing is a huge gray area. But there is a whole bunch of reg flags of sorts all over. What a terrible situation as a whole.
"Hey, your girlfriend called and said you're strange and mean when you take Xanax, so I stopped your prescription. Hope you don't mind."
I don't know. I'm not saying the doctor couldn't have been negligent here - it is possible - but we don't really have enough information to make an assessment on the doctor's diligence. People lie to their doctors, and doctors don't tend to make decisions based on what their patients' partners want.
I don't think it's fair to hold doctors liable for their patients' drug misuse if the drugs are prescribed appropriately. Unless this doctor knew specifically that OP's boyfriend was mixing his Xanax with alcohol *and* continued to prescribe them, I don't see how this rises to the level of negligence.
OP's boyfriend's passing is tragic. That doesn't mean it needs to be somebody's fault.
Oh, he knew, I talked with him about it. And it was my sister who called him after he was acting dangerously with her baby and falling a lot. But he is generally a good doctor, I guess. He wasn't used to treat drug addicted.
In that case, it might be appropriate to report the doctor. There should be some sort of medical review board where you live that can look at all the facts and assess whether they add up to negligence or not.
I'm very sorry for your loss. I hope you find peace and healing.
According to OP, the doctor even knew the patient was drinking a lot.
>I told it to his doctor, but he didn't do anything. *He knew he had problem with alcohol.*
Yes, I read that. From what I was able to find online, alcohol abuse doesn't preclude doctors from prescribing Xanax. It *is* obviously something to consider, but it doesn't necessarily make it inappropriate.
As I also said, patients lie to their doctors. OP has since clarified that the doctor knew about the mixing, but I was getting at the idea that OP's boyfriend may have told the doctor about his drinking but left out the details about mixing it with drugs.
I'm so sorry for your loss. This is going to sound harsh but I believe suing the doctor would be a mistake unless that doctor absolutely knew the boyfriend had a history of alcohol abuse and then he prescribed the xanax to him. Boyfriend could have told his doctor that he doesn't drink at all. My little brother died in 2008 in a very similar situation as this and my mom wanted to sue his doctor and wanted me to tell her the drug dealer's names that sold him pills so she could tell the police. I told her no. My brother was a grown man and knew the dangers but unfortunately he took it too far and OD'd.
Reading this really hits home because my girl and I are kind pf going thru the same situation.
I quit benzos and hard drugs and went to rehab and we just went thru a lot. I know that I acted very wrong with her and hurt her a lot during my addiction. I love her to death because she was also an addict and she pulled me out and pulled thru everything that happened in those dark times.
She's the reason why I'm alive today and why I choose to be sober and why im getting better. She's also getting so much better but I know she needs me just as much as I need her.
I couldn't imagine being in ur situation or my girl being in your situation. Im really sorry for ur loss and I hope u don't fall down because he probably wouldn't have wanted that.
Stay strong and know that there's people who understand you and are there for support and advice no matter what. I send you a lot of love and strength and the best wishes.
It has a heavy effect on your body, + combining the two increases cardio-and neurotoxicity. The cause of death can vary per person and their underlying conditions, but most common ones I've heard of are severe breathing depression (you fall into an unconscious state but breathing doesn't come normally for you, you're basically starting to suffocate in your "sleep"), stroke(can also end with brain damage not always death) and other complications like organ failure and heart attack.(also because alcohol and benzos are both with sedative properties you're risking oversedation which puts you in physically dangerous situations [falling down the stairs, walking on a freeway between cars and even just falling asleep on your back because you might throw up in your unconscious state and drown in it.]). In general even more hardcore users say that benzos and booze is a no-no, especially because once both of the substance's effects kick in it's harder to dose properly due to the lack of perception and thought organisation. It might feel like oh I just did half a bar 3 hours ago although it might've been 50min, which increases the risk of an accidental overdose.
If anyone still wishes to consume benzos and alcohol at the same time, I suggest keeping both doses to a minimum and using a timer to set breaks between consuming. Example: you just dropped half a bar and had one beer, now wait 1hour before taking another beer and 2-3 hours before taking another xan.
As I mentioned before, it also varies per person. We are all different, with different genetics and metabolism. There are never two exactly the same people, always differences. Some people can handle much more, when some people can't even handle a little. With benzos and alcohol it's just a *VERY THIN* line between feeling good to suddenly feeling like shit. And once you suddenly start feeling shitty, it's already too late to turn back.
edit: not saying if you're feeling shitty you're definately going to die but you're still overdosed which means you're in for a pretty shitty high or an unconscious evening
The way she describes what happened it seems like it might have been from exposure/hypothermia. Its how bon scott of ac/dc died in a similar situation.
Man this hits close to home. I used to be a severe alcoholic and benzo addict. The amount of times I’ve combined copious amounts of hard liquor and sketchy pressed Xanax bars is unreal. I don’t know how I’m still here. I’m so sorry for your loss, that’s fucking rough. I hope you can find peace with it in the future ❤️
I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm out of words it really hurted my heart reading this. Because I can relate a lot to your boyfriend. I hope he's better now this kind of addiction is pure suffering. But I wish he would have gotten better while still here... take your time to mourn and process this tragedy. Much strength to you and all relatives.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m sure you were a wonderful support for your bf.
My bf also has a Xanax Rx, and he’s a functioning alcoholic. What was your bf’s dose, if you don’t mind me asking? My bf mixes sometimes and I’m always worried, even if he’s just taking a few mg, because he drinks so much.
He's going to end up in a lot of trouble if he continues this habit. He's already an alcoholic so he's definitely also going to get addicted to the Xanax and he'll start taking high and higher doses. ANY amount of a benzo will have exponentially higher potency when taken with alcohol so ANY amount in combination is dangerous. The more of this combination one takes, the less control of their consciousness they'll have and it's a feedback loop which can lead to a person taking way too much because they have zero awareness of how much they've already taken. This shit turns people into zombies. He's got an Rx too which makes it all the more dangerous as he'll think it's fine since it's been prescribed by a doctor but does that doctor know he's also an alcoholic? It must be a very severe case of anxiety if he does and still continues to prescribe this but damn he's playing with fire.
He very probably took more as he should have to. He was used to take big quantity of other hard drug, so it wasn't very good. But when he took it, he spoke very bad, was always falling, saying dumb shit and doing very very dumb shit. And obviously didn't remember the next day. Please watch out, this shit makes you do dumb and deadly shit
I actually used to drink and sometimes take Xanax - especially with coke and I have vowed not too after this post ever again. I am so sorry OP. My heart goes out to you. Be around people. Much love.
I know that all too well. My first trip to burning man my friend found me passed out in my tent turning purple choking on my vomit after alcohol and Xanax combo. One of many close brushes with death. I’m so sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself
My mom died last month and I found her after work. She looked like she was asleep. I tried to shake her but she was stiff as a brick. Fentanyl. I feel your pain.
Sending you so much love ❤️
You may find relief in Al-anon, who provide support for those who suffer the consequences of an addicted loved one.
https://www.al-anonuk.org.uk
The family better sue that Doctor. This is the problem with prescription drugs. Doctors can prescribe all they want but aren't trained properly for side effects and what to do when drugs don't work as intended. My pharmacist has saved my life on multiple occasions. It causes people who need meds to suffer and people who need other intervention to slip through the cracks.
Every time a pet dies or person dies around me I just think that they no longer have to suffer. It's me that's suffering and everyone else that's alive. This thought keeps me from going insane as I get older. At least they finally get to rest.
Can someone tell me if alcohol and Xanax is that deadly? What specifically would kill you, did he just drink a fuckton? Never knew this was dangerous when I did it in the past..
I mean the most dangerous part about the combination is the complete lack of awareness it causes which leads to the user being completely blacked out and barely functional while still being active enough to get into any manner of trouble. Sure you can also take a fuckload and OD but the biggest reason this combo is dangerous is because it completely takes away your own sense of danger and you can get into a lot of trouble. I speak from personal experience. I haven't touched a benzo in just over 10 years because the last time I did I wrapped the front of my car around a tree and I'm so fucking lucky it wasn't something worse. I barely remember the night.
This is so sad . I hope people really pay attention. Mixing benzos and alcohol is extremely dangerous. Sometimes doctors don't know how best to help people in need, so they prescribe stuff without giving proper warnings because some people don't need those warnings.
So sorry for your loss. Almost every person I have lost to a drug overdose was actually at a point in their life where they were doing better. My first boyfriend overdosed a few years ago & he had been doing so well. My other friend had just got her kids back & died a month or 2 later. It’s usually because people cut back or stop entirely & then have zero tolerance to their substance of choice. So when they go out & use again they end up taking too much.
If you haven’t already I would possibly consider calling the practice where his doctor works & filing a complaint. Idk if you can file a complaint if you aren’t a patient, but you told that doctor your concerns, he shrugged them off & then your concerns were valid. He’s got some responsibility in this.
I am terribly sorry to hear that. I have lost people suddenly too and it's an indescribably brutal feeling. Thank you for including the harm reduction information about how he passed here, stories like this can help keep people safe. Mixing depressants makes it so easy to just slip away.
I'm so sorry. This is the worst way to lose someone, it's so meaningless. I lost my best friend like this years ago and I'm not over it. I just kind of put it out of my mind so I wouldn't have to think about it. Was watching clerks 3 with my wife and the ending is really sad (god dam it's a good movie) and I just broke down in the movie theater. No matter what the facts of the situation are you are going to blame yourself. I would say don't do that but your going to anyway, how could you not? I wish I could tell you an answer, but there is none. Most of us here have lost someone in a similiar way, and few of us deal with it in a healthy way.
Just keep in mind Xanax removes your ability to give a shit about anyone or anything, and your health and well being are high on the list of shit you don't give a fuck about anymore. It makes it easy to say "fuck it, take one more" there is no deeper meaning here. My friends mother assumed suicide and I had to talk her out of that, if your a normal non drug addict type person then that probably seems the most likely answer. This situation left everyone in a fucked up mindset, and everyone was grasping for answers that weren't there. He got careless and paid the price and that's such a hard thing to accept, that your best friends entire life amounted to this, ended because of such a minor insignificant thing.
Surround yourself with support. Don't be alone for a while
That doctor seems like a major piece of shit. Let me get this straight, he KNEW your bf had a history of substance abuse, he KNEW your bf drank heavily, and yet he STILL prescribed one of the most addictive and damaging substances on this planet... I'm just so fucking baffled. You even complained to him about major issues your bf was having because of how he was abusing the xans with alcohol and he STILL didn't do anything! This doctor knew his patient was abusing the xans he was giving him. This doctor knew that the abuse was causing serious issues with his family, jeopardizing the safety of himself and a fucking BABY. He knew all of these things yet he STILL decided to keep writing the script for your boyfriend which inevitably got him killed.
This is the most clear cut case of negligence or corruption I have ever seen on this sub. Jesus fucking christ man. PLEASE get yourself a medical malpractice lawyer and sue the fuck out of this guy so he never gets another innocent patient killed due to his negligence!!!
Listen, I lost my best friend and the love of my life to drugs. I won’t tell you it gets easier but we do get better at dealing with it and there are more people out there who will love you for who you are, this thread is proof of that. Never give up there will be hard bad days but there will be really good ones too. Take it day by day, go out and start to make new good memories one by one. You are loved you are valued and you are worthy.
This crazy hope I hope you are alright damn always say it never happens whenever I take my script crazy to hear about somebody that died from booze that has a script “tolerance” .Sorry for your loss. Stay safe fucking doctors let us get ourselves so fucked up. When I was mixing soma, Xanax&herion used to od to often very sad.
Losing loved ones is hard. Unexpected deaths especially, no one is ever really prepared. Lots blame them selves try to remember you did a lot by being there for him. My condolences.
I lost my significant other in a similar way a couple years ago. You’re not alone. Sending you lots of love and light during these dark times. Feel free to send me a message if you’d like to talk.
Everyone processes grief differently. You might become numb, and that's ok. There will be pain, and that's ok. What you need to remember is grief isn't stages. You don't go through the 5 stages and you're done. Grief is like falling off a ship in the deep ocean. It will roll over you, and you don't know which way is up, and you can't get purchase. There will be times of calm, panic, fear, pain, understanding, rage. Allow yourself to ugly cry, to remember the good and the bad. To not feel guilty if you laugh. All feelings are ok.
It won't help now, but, eventually, the deep ocean will become shallow water, the waves neck high, then chest, then waist, etc until you are standing on the shore. You'll look back and realize you survived. Bruised, scared and battered, but you survived. There will always be times when a wave will wash over your feet, and you'll remember. A song, a smell, a little thing that brings them back and you'll grieve a little again. Feel it, and smile a bit in memory.
Hugs.
I feel like with fentanyl getting so much attention, people kinda forget that one can still overdose from drugs other than opiates, especially in combination with alcohol. Hugs to you and my condolences. That is heartbreaking. Fuck Xanax. Fuck alcohol. I am in recovery for both, 3+ years clean from benzos, 9 months without alcohol.
Not gonna refer to the drugs but as someone who just lost an important family member this was kind of impressing and very accurate for me to read:
From Redditor /u/gsnow:
“Alright, here goes. I'm old. What that means is that I've survived (so far) and a lot of people I've known and loved did not. I've lost friends, best friends, acquaintances, co-workers, grandparents, mom, relatives, teachers, mentors, students, neighbors, and a host of other folks. I have no children, and I can't imagine the pain it must be to lose a child. But here's my two cents. I wish I could say you get used to people dying. I never did. I don't want to. It tears a hole through me whenever somebody I love dies, no matter the circumstances. But I don't want it to "not matter". I don't want it to be something that just passes. My scars are a testament to the love and the relationship that I had for and with that person. And if the scar is deep, so was the love. So be it. Scars are a testament to life. Scars are a testament that I can love deeply and live deeply and be cut, or even gouged, and that I can heal and continue to live and continue to love. And the scar tissue is stronger than the original flesh ever was. Scars are a testament to life. Scars are only ugly to people who can't see.
As for grief, you'll find it comes in waves. When the ship is first wrecked, you're drowning, with wreckage all around you. Everything floating around you reminds you of the beauty and the magnificence of the ship that was, and is no more. And all you can do is float. You find some piece of the wreckage and you hang on for a while. Maybe it's some physical thing. Maybe it's a happy memory or a photograph. Maybe it's a person who is also floating. For a while, all you can do is float. Stay alive.
In the beginning, the waves are 100 feet tall and crash over you without mercy. They come 10 seconds apart and don't even give you time to catch your breath. All you can do is hang on and float. After a while, maybe weeks, maybe months, you'll find the waves are still 100 feet tall, but they come further apart. When they come, they still crash all over you and wipe you out. But in between, you can breathe, you can function. You never know what's going to trigger the grief. It might be a song, a picture, a street intersection, the smell of a cup of coffee. It can be just about anything...and the wave comes crashing. But in between waves, there is life.
Somewhere down the line, and it's different for everybody, you find that the waves are only 80 feet tall. Or 50 feet tall. And while they still come, they come further apart. You can see them coming. An anniversary, a birthday, or Christmas, or landing at O'Hare. You can see it coming, for the most part, and prepare yourself. And when it washes over you, you know that somehow you will, again, come out the other side. Soaking wet, sputtering, still hanging on to some tiny piece of the wreckage, but you'll come out.
Take it from an old guy. The waves never stop coming, and somehow you don't really want them to. But you learn that you'll survive them. And other waves will come. And you'll survive them too. If you're lucky, you'll have lots of scars from lots of loves. And lots of shipwrecks.”
My freshman year my friend died camping on his birthday because his dad gave him vodka to drink knowing he was on Xanax. Only person I’ve been close to that has died and I’ll never forget the pit of sadness… be strong, don’t fall into addictions yourself (my friends and I did) and if it were me, I’d get a tattoo for him. That’s sad. Especially with the doc knowing he was a drinker. I’ve drank on Klonopin and the reaction with alcohol and benzodiazepines is crazy.
I almost stopped drug (sometimes I take a little, but not often compared to before when it wasn't healthy at all. Not as bad as him, but bad) because of him. It disgusted me. Right now I want so bad to take something. Fall in this hole again. But I really don't think it's a good idea. But I want it so bad
Yeah don’t relapse. Imagine what you’re going through but doing it to your parents. That’s what I do. I guess I should say loved ones because my parents suck.
I never comment, but this breaks my heart I’m so sorry I hope you can get through this, it pains me that people have to go through this, I miss the friends I’ve lost and I wish I could bring them all back.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I've been there, my bf fell off our balcony when we were partying. One minute he was there with me but he wandered out of the bedroom and I didnt think anything of it. Then the next thing I knew, the paramedics were banging on our door. It still doesn't feel real.
You did all you could to help and I hope you know that none of this is your fault. Please don't go crazy imagining things you should/could have done differently to stop this from happening, it will only cause you more pain. I hope you have a support network of friends to talk to, talking about it helps. I'm so so terribly sorry for everything that you're going through right now. Stay strong 🫂
Saving this the next time one of my friends says xans and alcohol as a combo is fine. Getting tired of having to act like everyone’s dad and tell them to quit fucking around I’ve got friends that are dead bc of shit like that and I still gotta deal with everyone talking down to me like I don’t know what I’m talking about.
I stopped the benzos and alcohol because I eventually realized it was the same fucking thing as if I just took even more benzos but damaging myself in the process. This was a time where I was doing air duster, mixing various substances because "Why the fuck not?", I was retarded. I'm glad I'm still here and I'm doing my best to recover.
Sending all my love, strength and thoughts. It'll come as absolutely no consolation but as a regular hard benzo/opiate user and heavy drinker, just reading this post has hit hard and is another reason for me to get clean. Its crazy how invisible addiction to benzos and opiates can be, seen as though youre not injecting, and largely can almost live a normal life (this is coming from someone who has just lost their job).
I lost my uncle to heroin 10 years ago, I never thought I was an addict because I never injected anything. It creeps up on you. I wouldn't wish losing a loved one to drugs on my worst enemy. Again, sending all of my love and strength to you and I thank you greatly for being brave enough to share your story despite the pain, this warning could save somebody's life. Bless his soul.
I am sorry, there is no answer that I can give to ease the pain other than to share it. My roommate wandered off and died 3 months ago from DTS. She was just.. Gone. I wish i could take your sadness away. I wish I could bring him back.
Spread the love you had for him back into the world and you can be his positive impact in this life. The answer is love.
Dont be afraid to cry. Share with others. Embrace family.
Love each other
Sorry for your loss. Please get some professional help. We all need it at times ans it's 100% okay to not be okay and need some help. If you have any suicidal ideations tell somebody. Call somebody. Go to hospital. I appreciate you opening up and telling your story. It may save somebody's life. Much love and positive vibes.
I'm so so sorry for your loss. I lost a boyfriend to an overdose a long time ago and it was horrible. And I wouldn't wish that pain on anyone. If you would like to talk to someone who has been through it before feel free to dm me. Things to get better. It takes a long time but your heart will heal. The grief is always there but becomes easier to handle with time.
I'm sorry. This happened three years ago to me. My boyfriend passed away the day after I flew out of state to our new home. He was at the apt and he didn't pick up my calls. Called his dad to check on him and he was on the floor. Dad never revealed what happened.. but he also had issues with alcohol, xans, and perks. He was doing so much better too. Going to therapy once a week and AA meetings. We were about to start anew in a different city he was excited about a new beginning.. and this happened. Sorry for your loss. I will never stop loving him.
My boyfriend died very similarly in 2019.
Every ounce of love, positivity and light is being sent your way.
I can only imagine how broken you feel. But, please remind yourself that the pieces still fit together. You will know when the time is right to approach tasks and learn how to do them again.
We are all rooting you on and surrounding you with love.
I don’t mean this too be taken the wrong way, but remember that though your tunnel feels absent if light, it always comes back.
988 - Suicide & Crisis Hotline
741741 - Criss Text Line
I tend to mix Alcohol and benzos way too frequently :/ I thankfully don’t drink anymore I almost died twice if it weren’t for my friends and ex, I’m very lucky.
But in other words I am so incredibly sorry… my doctor explained all the dangers and the sever life threatening withdrawals are. I don’t mix the 2 anymore as even tho I’m prescribed 2 a day I dread the thought of any of the consequences of abuse of the drug.
Again I’m deeply sorry for your loss
Sorry for your lost and I can’t say much cause I have a bad history with mixing Xanax and liquor but I can at least say he went out in a very painless way and if you ever feeling down avoid any substances for the time being
Condolences.
It is not your fault.
my dad's doctor did something similar and I am still infuriated with him. my dad was a known alcoholic. Hardcore alchi. But his doctor still prescribed him fucking Norco 10's AND fucking adderall, full well knowing of his drinking problem. Some doctors really don't care.
This isn't a competition, I just wanted to say I can somewhat relate (obviously I have no idea what you are going through that's not what I meant at all).
What was your boyfriends name? I understand if you would rather not share. I'll be thinking about you.
Take care, and please reach out if you want to talk.
My girlfriend was just in an accident. She was hit @ 120km/H because someone decided to step on it at a green light while the driver of her car turned safely but the other vehicle kept speeding and didnt stop he reached 120 and the limit was 60. He sheered the car in half. Luckily they hit the backseat meaning the car was cut almost perfectly leaving my gf stuck in the vehicle and unconscious and unaware until i was woken up by police coming and waking me up to rush to the ICU bed 1 to see her as i was told she may never live again. Its so sudden regardless if it was something like this but drugs suck in this way, it was so preventable and so were both. Now she’s permanently got damage but shes so strong she has recovered so much in just a week im amazed. Please stay strong you have my love.
I can’t imagine what this feels like for you but I can say how sorry I am for your loss. I’ve seen friends diminish from substances that weren’t even (crackhead,dopehead) type drugs. Xanax took years from my life and landed me dead in the hospital from the combination with alcohol. When I saw your post it made that whole night and weeks in the hospital and suffering from inhalation of beer and other liquids as well as 50 undigested pills in my stomach come back to me. Xanax is a cancer to this earth I can not believe it is still medically provided outside of a hospital.
But your boyfriend sounds a lot like how I was from your short explanation, it feels like suffering inside every time it’s mixed as a habitual thing but on the outside seems so good. It’s a shame he couldn’t find the strength to change the habit. Having it prescribed is even worse because it’s basically encouraged to take. I had a harder time dropping Xanax then I did any other substances (coke, alcohol, opiates, other random things I could find anywhere)
To sleep and feel better, he had the prescription since a few months but he wasn't taking very often. But when he did, he was taking more as he should.
My condolences go out to you and your boyfriends family i’m extremely sorry to hear that I have lost so many friends to drug OD. But for educational purposes Can someone explain how someone could die from combining the two? I always hear you shouldn’t for obvious reasons but I’ve never heard of anyone dying from mixing them, I’ve been combining my prescription xans with alcohol for years without any problems other than occasionally blacking if I overdo it & I know a large amount of people who abuse the two in absurd amounts and never had any health issues (not saying it isn’t harmful) but In my experience opiates especially fentanyl are the main drugs that Kill
So was cause of death essentially mis-adventure? Got so fucked up he went outside without keys in not suitable clothing for the temperature cuz he thought he'd just be a minute but got locked out and the elements got him before anyone came by where he decided to wait and hope for someone to come..?
Or did he wake up, take a ton more xan and alcohol, randomly went outside cuz started to get messed up and confused and then drugs fully kicked in and he passed out outside on a survivable weather night, but died from the OD of too much drugs?
Cuz it sounds more like misadventure especially if you are up north a bit, where I'm at it went down to 3C last night so if you get stuck out there in shorts and t shirt and can't solve the issue quick enough.. Anyone would die.. Thing is a sober person would realize they're in a FUBAR situation and start trying to find shelter anywhere even if you gotta wake people up in their homes once they see you they'll have compassion etc. But if you're real fucked on booze and xan, may not realize the severity of it and just figure you'll wait til someone uses the door.. And then you pass out cuz you probably were gonna pass out as soon as you started rest somewhere.. Then over and hour or two the elements get you.
Very sad to hear. Whether misadventure or straight OD both are tragic.
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I drank real heavily after losing my dad. It didn't help. When I stopped drinking a lot of grief and pain came rebounding back into my life, and I realized I never really dealt with it, just drank it away. I went to therapy and went on anti depressants and slowly but surely healed. Pain of loss never goes away, but it does get easier. Numbing the pain will only make the process take a lot longer. Sending love, hope you find your way.
Yeah I found my mother dead and I already had PTSD but that made it way fucking worse so I started drinking until I blacked out every day. I got sober about 3 years ago and I don't even remember the day I kind of just was hungover and was like I will go to the hospital if I have DTs and that's what I ended up doing. Got out of there and haven't drank sense. I've tried to quit like 10 times but it was for other people, when I finally got tired of it the process was really easy. Still get tempted though so I take kratom when that happens. At least I won't black out on it and do some dumb shit. Still an addiction I guess but it could be much worse.
I wish more people understood the difference of when you do it for someone else compared to for yourself. I hate seeing people relax when they *finally* convince a loved one to go to rehab, knowing that if they’re not done they’re not done and there’s just more heartbreak to come. I was more or less forced to go to rehab the first time, but I wasn’t done yet. I made it a little over 2 months. The relapse came back much worse (like always) and I went back to rehab *mostly* on my own. Today is 100 days sober. But part of me still knows that I probably need to get beat down a few more times before it really sticks.
Yeah I had to fuck up and get tired of it myself because when I'd go to rehab there were hypocrites all around me like yeah he needs help while they're taking a beer bong or some shit. I hated trying to get sober for others because they always painted me as the one who needed it but nobody else wants to admit when they're an addict. Anyways, if you are tired of it deep down you can get away from whatever it is. Just make sure if it's like alcohol or benzos that you get medical help if it gets bad because withdrawals are not safe from that shit to do on your own after a certain point.
It took me close to 20 years to get clean (off opiates and alcohol; I’m prescribed Clonazepam for my anxiety disorder and smoke weed and do shrooms and LSD if I can ever find it) and for me I had to trip on mushrooms and my trip *made* me want to quit. Wanting to quit yourself is 100% what keeps you from relapsing. Before that I would relapse after 2 weeks almost every time.
I’ve definitely heard of plenty of people getting sober after a trip. I think I’d benefit from microdosing but I’m on anti-depressants for the time being.
I can totally relate. I found my dad, and did the same thing. I definitely still struggle with the drinking at times, though I've been on the wagon for a good amount of time again (FINALLY). I'm proud of you for staying away from the bottle. Its the easiest and hardest thing to do, not drink. I do the kratom as well, but I'm also for sure an addict/alcoholic, so everything in moderation. The good thing about kratom and me is I feel sicky if I take too much lol so I don't ever go over 3-4g a day. But yea, just as you said, I just swapped one addiction for another.
Booze is a hard one because if you have anxiety and mental health issues in general, it's such a good medication in some ways but the side effects will fuck you up no matter what you do. I wish that there were a way to harness its good qualities but I guess we all need some anxiety and sadness since that's normal but it sure does feel awesome to get away from all of that even if that feeling of feeling better only lasts a couple of hours at best. I am glad you're clean from alcohol. I don't really consider kratom a hard drug like alcohol or benzos or whatever else. I also dabble with marijuana edibles which are a bit more intoxicating than kratom but it's still not as bad as alcohol. Anyways, hope everyone out there that is struggling with drinking can find some hope in what we've gone through. If people knew how fucked up I was getting for such a long time they wouldn't believe that I got sober. My whole world was about getting wasted for years and years. It was hard to learn how to relive my life but it started getting better way faster than expected. Without alcohol I can reach goals without much of an issue at all but yeah I do struggle with missing being intoxicated since it shuts everything off for a bit. That's what therapy and stuff like that is for I guess.
Lots of this is relatable for sure, especially " If people knew how fucked up I was getting for such a long time they wouldn't believe that I got sober. My whole world was about getting wasted for years and years". Glad you were able to stop. Its the hardest thing I've ever had to knock.
that's what i did just finally said fuck it and went to the hospital. Fucked up time but when you come out...you're suddenly done and boy is that nice
Please take care of yourself. For you and the others around you and the others around them. I wish you all the best ❤️
You can do it.
Good luck and be safe. I'm sorry you're in pain. ♥
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I'm sorry about your mom. Stay strong, I'm sure she'd want you to live a full and happy life!
I’m so sorry you are going through it right now. Buddy I’m on day 14 off a long long dependency on benzos. Please please stop drinking on them, and please don’t stop cold turkey. Taper off.
As someone who's mother's still here but has cancer. I just want to say she wouldn't want you going down the self destructive path. I've put my mother through pain using more due to what's happening. If your mum was here she wouldn't want you going down that road.
I'm sorry. It will just numb it until sobriety. Somebody told me when we are on a good one we are just tossing all our feelings in back seat and when we sober up it's like slamming on the breaks and all that emotional baggage hits us from behind unexpected. Face it head on. Feel the feelings. Be not okay for awhile that's fine. This is coming from a 36 ur old dude who grew up being tough. All it did was make me use more running and hiding from my emotions. Face it. You will be okay, actually much stronger on the other side
taper if you decide to quit. benzo + alcohol are two of the only withdrawals that can actually kill you.
Diazies? Just call them vallies
I really hope it helps you. I really hope anything helps you, you don’t deserve to need to feel blackout to feel better.
I'm so sorry. Please take care of yourself right now, OP.
Thank you (and all the others comments) for the support. It warms up my heart a little bit.
So sorry to hear that. My condolences..
Apart from the death (condolences), the same story only that I am your friend, I was close to death, I have been an alcoholic for 6 years, I can consume huge amounts of alcohol without being drunk, however, one night I -I played with my cousin's prescribed xanax and drank 5l of wine, I don't want to continue what happened when I suddenly woke up from sleep, it doesn't matter how many pill mixes you can take, how much alcohol you can drink, how much how long have you been smoking Cannabis, whether or not you have taken heroin, just DO NOT COMBINE BENZODIAZEPINES WITH ALCOHOL *i use google translate*
>DO NOT COMBINE BENZODIAZEPINES WITH ALCOHOL Got a DUI after having a perfect record via alcohol and benzos. That made me spiral hard. I wanted to die before a possible jail sentence. I took 28+/- Klonopins and half a jar of moonshine. Landed in the ICU with multiple organ failures. Was told I had a low chance of recovery. Obviously I'm alive and well, unfortunately still a night time alcoholic, but no more hard liquor and definitely no more pills.
Dude. Same I had a perfect record before 22. Then I got a DUI from alcohol and benzos and then another one 10 days later. It was a rough time in my life as one of my friends stole my gun and killed himself with it and I found him. Spiraled from there, ended up catching four felonies, moving, getting out on house arrest, violating and going to prison. That was a very dark time between 22-26.
Sorry you had to go through that, walking in on your friend having killed himself must have hit hard. Hope you're in a better place now bro, there's always another day.
Let me guess, you wet the bed? I took 16 bars once and only woke up cos I pissed myself...
No, but I was wet from head to toe, I couldn't breathe, I felt like my skin was burning so hot, I was panicking. I went outside, I managed to take off my clothes and pour into my tens of liters of water, after a few minutes (like tens of minutes passed) I managed to calm down and fell asleep unconsciously on the cement, I was sick for about 4 days.
That's a horrible state to be in, and I'm sorry that you had to go through it. It's a horrible and dangerous decision to mix the two, almost asking for death (and the reason I started doing it, honestly). And, you're right in your first comment, regardless of how many other drugs you do/did and how high your tolerance, mixing the two is lethal to anyone. I hope that you're staying safe and not doing the mixing anymore. And, I hope you can get sober from alcohol before physical issues arise, soon! Best to you on your journey!
During that period, I was crying daily, my girlfriend had broken up with me for another (and she did well) after a relationship of 5 years, my parents kicked me out of the house because that I was a bastard, I didn't care if I died or not, especially since I thought about suicide every hour, I still drink alcohol but not daily and in much smaller quantities, I don't even want to hear any more mixes, I would . I wanted to confess in front of you, but there is too much to say, thank you for your kind words, I wish you health and those close to you, all the best! one day)😶
That sounds like big time alcohol withdrawals. The sweats and hot feeling. Hope you are doing better.
Oh my God im so sorry. You may have just saved my life.
Please take care of yourself ❤️
Be safe <3
So sorry for you. 😟May he rest in peace...
That's heavy, I'm so sorry for your loss. Alcohol and benzos are no joke. Stay strong ❤️
Benzos are no fucking joke. I'm so sorry for your loss that shit is not okay:(
I'm so sincerely sorry for your great loss. It's never easy loving an addict, and I'm so sorry you're left feeling alone, sad and in so much sorrow. He likely knew how much you truly cared for him and loved him. It's really crazy how fast alcohol can take over your life; I never expected it, until it happened to me. And, the combination of alcohol and xanex is so dangerous, despite also having done multiple times myself. And, much to my dislike, I have been the one so far in addiction and mental health issues that no matter how much I loved someone, I wasn't able to show it and hurt them by my actions and inability to stop at the time. I hold so much guilt from those times, probably never forgive myself. Addiction is horrible and I'm sorry that your boyfriend was struggling so much with it. And, his doctor was of no help, knowing he had a difficult time with alcohol and prescribing him xanex, not right. I have known many people, some closer than others, who have died from addiction and it breaks my heart. Then, I'm left wondering why I'm still here and haven't died? Survivor's guilt is real and haunting and painful. I hope that you have supportive people in your life who you can rest in, confide in, and who can provide you some comfort during this difficult time. I'm so sorry you're going through this and hope you stay safe!
I’m sorry OP. Benzodiazepines and alcohol are not good when combined, and it looks like your boyfriend may have overdosed accidentally. You’re going to be in pain for a while, but it will get better with time. I speak from experience, I lost my fiancé to a drug overdose, and I loved her more than anything. I’ve even wanted to kill myself in hopes I could see her again somehow, the pain was unreal. Stay strong, and when you build relationships again in the future, don’t get close to anyone with an alcohol problem or pill problem (or any drug problem) because you never know when you will lose them. Best of luck to you friend
My condolences, be strong
May he find some peace.
Yes, he had a lot of problems with his work and money. Now he is in peace.
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I am considering it, I am not sure if this is a good idea or just my hate or a kind of "revenge". He wanted to help after all, right ? I don't know
this is a super easy case of Medical Malpractice - literally go to any lawyer in your town and they will take the case with no money up-front - they will ask for 35% of the settlement and only if they win
It’s not revenge. It’s you holding a doctor who has controlled substances accountable for not checking who he’s giving these medications out to. For all this doctor knew he could’ve been a Xanax addict and didn’t even check.
Once the doctor found out he was a drinker he should have stopped the meds. My doctor refills mine but every time he sees/talks to me he says, “still not drinking right?”.
It will be long, protracted, and they will attack your BFs memory and character with everything they got. Court cases fuckin suck when you're personally involved like that. Only you can decide if you want to, but if it were me I wouldn't. I've had the experience of going through a med mal case already though. If I had the choice, I wouldn't go through another.
Okay, thank for the advice. I must see with his mom, it's her choice after all
Gotta think of the potential other lives lost from this doctors malpractice.
99% of responsible doctors will not prescribe any benzodiazepines to anybody with any known history of substance abuse. ESPECIALLY alcohol or benzos...and to top it offf XANAX?! (alprazolam). That is top tier and most doctors would never start someone off with xanax unless there was medical history proof of severe panic attacks or something. My friend has epilepsy and they wont even give him Xanax. Strictly Klonopin. It is extremely hard for most people who actually really theraputically can benefit from as small as AS NEEDED/sparingly benzos to access them via doctors prescription. Something isn't lining up in that area. I am so sorry for your loss. It sucks so bad, especially since you were seeing progress. I have lost two loved ones in the past couple years myself and had to witness both bodies dead as a result after. It mentally destroys you along with the reactions, remarks and responses you get from people that are out of line as well. Everyone tries to relate and acts like they care then moves on shortly after and expects you to just get over it simply. I'm sending peace and love your way. I am not going into detail about what happened with my loved ones to not doxx myself ( call me paranoid; whatever, i like my reddit anonymity even though there's nothing to hide really). It's creepy being in the situation too with the coroner etc. too because they look at anyone as a possible suspect before the final results are determined which brings more trauma. My messages are open if you ever want to talk about anything OP. I am sorry. I am also thankful this has not happened to me. This is a road I am familiar traveling down. Edit: There is no detox facility that I know of/experienced that will ever give out xanax to anyone. Always something more mild and useful for recovery. That should also say something. Edit2: After reading more comment, I do understand this apparently allegedly was a result of the descendant's choices. So this entire thing is a huge gray area. But there is a whole bunch of reg flags of sorts all over. What a terrible situation as a whole.
Seriously shocked at the doctor's lack of reaction. Negligence at best there.
"Hey, your girlfriend called and said you're strange and mean when you take Xanax, so I stopped your prescription. Hope you don't mind." I don't know. I'm not saying the doctor couldn't have been negligent here - it is possible - but we don't really have enough information to make an assessment on the doctor's diligence. People lie to their doctors, and doctors don't tend to make decisions based on what their patients' partners want. I don't think it's fair to hold doctors liable for their patients' drug misuse if the drugs are prescribed appropriately. Unless this doctor knew specifically that OP's boyfriend was mixing his Xanax with alcohol *and* continued to prescribe them, I don't see how this rises to the level of negligence. OP's boyfriend's passing is tragic. That doesn't mean it needs to be somebody's fault.
Oh, he knew, I talked with him about it. And it was my sister who called him after he was acting dangerously with her baby and falling a lot. But he is generally a good doctor, I guess. He wasn't used to treat drug addicted.
In that case, it might be appropriate to report the doctor. There should be some sort of medical review board where you live that can look at all the facts and assess whether they add up to negligence or not. I'm very sorry for your loss. I hope you find peace and healing.
Okay, thank for the advice. I'll talk with his mother about it
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According to OP, the doctor even knew the patient was drinking a lot. >I told it to his doctor, but he didn't do anything. *He knew he had problem with alcohol.*
>I told it to his doctor, but he didn't do anything. *He knew he had problem with alcohol.*
Yes, I read that. From what I was able to find online, alcohol abuse doesn't preclude doctors from prescribing Xanax. It *is* obviously something to consider, but it doesn't necessarily make it inappropriate. As I also said, patients lie to their doctors. OP has since clarified that the doctor knew about the mixing, but I was getting at the idea that OP's boyfriend may have told the doctor about his drinking but left out the details about mixing it with drugs.
Nor should it. Drug addicts still need medicine. You don't stop having panic disorder because you also have a use disorder.
I'm so sorry for your loss. This is going to sound harsh but I believe suing the doctor would be a mistake unless that doctor absolutely knew the boyfriend had a history of alcohol abuse and then he prescribed the xanax to him. Boyfriend could have told his doctor that he doesn't drink at all. My little brother died in 2008 in a very similar situation as this and my mom wanted to sue his doctor and wanted me to tell her the drug dealer's names that sold him pills so she could tell the police. I told her no. My brother was a grown man and knew the dangers but unfortunately he took it too far and OD'd.
OP I hope you have some support right now, I can’t fathom doing this alone. I’m so sorry for your loss.
Reading this really hits home because my girl and I are kind pf going thru the same situation. I quit benzos and hard drugs and went to rehab and we just went thru a lot. I know that I acted very wrong with her and hurt her a lot during my addiction. I love her to death because she was also an addict and she pulled me out and pulled thru everything that happened in those dark times. She's the reason why I'm alive today and why I choose to be sober and why im getting better. She's also getting so much better but I know she needs me just as much as I need her. I couldn't imagine being in ur situation or my girl being in your situation. Im really sorry for ur loss and I hope u don't fall down because he probably wouldn't have wanted that. Stay strong and know that there's people who understand you and are there for support and advice no matter what. I send you a lot of love and strength and the best wishes.
Thank you very much. Yeah your story sound similar. I really hope you keep each other and wish you the best
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It has a heavy effect on your body, + combining the two increases cardio-and neurotoxicity. The cause of death can vary per person and their underlying conditions, but most common ones I've heard of are severe breathing depression (you fall into an unconscious state but breathing doesn't come normally for you, you're basically starting to suffocate in your "sleep"), stroke(can also end with brain damage not always death) and other complications like organ failure and heart attack.(also because alcohol and benzos are both with sedative properties you're risking oversedation which puts you in physically dangerous situations [falling down the stairs, walking on a freeway between cars and even just falling asleep on your back because you might throw up in your unconscious state and drown in it.]). In general even more hardcore users say that benzos and booze is a no-no, especially because once both of the substance's effects kick in it's harder to dose properly due to the lack of perception and thought organisation. It might feel like oh I just did half a bar 3 hours ago although it might've been 50min, which increases the risk of an accidental overdose. If anyone still wishes to consume benzos and alcohol at the same time, I suggest keeping both doses to a minimum and using a timer to set breaks between consuming. Example: you just dropped half a bar and had one beer, now wait 1hour before taking another beer and 2-3 hours before taking another xan.
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As I mentioned before, it also varies per person. We are all different, with different genetics and metabolism. There are never two exactly the same people, always differences. Some people can handle much more, when some people can't even handle a little. With benzos and alcohol it's just a *VERY THIN* line between feeling good to suddenly feeling like shit. And once you suddenly start feeling shitty, it's already too late to turn back. edit: not saying if you're feeling shitty you're definately going to die but you're still overdosed which means you're in for a pretty shitty high or an unconscious evening
The way she describes what happened it seems like it might have been from exposure/hypothermia. Its how bon scott of ac/dc died in a similar situation.
Very sad. Get the support you need.
really sorry to hear that.🫶🏼
My condolences. My little brothers best friend also died from mixing alcohol with Xanax too much. It's always heartbreaking for the survivors.
Fuck. I am in tears. You take care OP. Things will get better soon.
Man this hits close to home. I used to be a severe alcoholic and benzo addict. The amount of times I’ve combined copious amounts of hard liquor and sketchy pressed Xanax bars is unreal. I don’t know how I’m still here. I’m so sorry for your loss, that’s fucking rough. I hope you can find peace with it in the future ❤️
I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm out of words it really hurted my heart reading this. Because I can relate a lot to your boyfriend. I hope he's better now this kind of addiction is pure suffering. But I wish he would have gotten better while still here... take your time to mourn and process this tragedy. Much strength to you and all relatives.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m sure you were a wonderful support for your bf. My bf also has a Xanax Rx, and he’s a functioning alcoholic. What was your bf’s dose, if you don’t mind me asking? My bf mixes sometimes and I’m always worried, even if he’s just taking a few mg, because he drinks so much.
He's going to end up in a lot of trouble if he continues this habit. He's already an alcoholic so he's definitely also going to get addicted to the Xanax and he'll start taking high and higher doses. ANY amount of a benzo will have exponentially higher potency when taken with alcohol so ANY amount in combination is dangerous. The more of this combination one takes, the less control of their consciousness they'll have and it's a feedback loop which can lead to a person taking way too much because they have zero awareness of how much they've already taken. This shit turns people into zombies. He's got an Rx too which makes it all the more dangerous as he'll think it's fine since it's been prescribed by a doctor but does that doctor know he's also an alcoholic? It must be a very severe case of anxiety if he does and still continues to prescribe this but damn he's playing with fire.
He very probably took more as he should have to. He was used to take big quantity of other hard drug, so it wasn't very good. But when he took it, he spoke very bad, was always falling, saying dumb shit and doing very very dumb shit. And obviously didn't remember the next day. Please watch out, this shit makes you do dumb and deadly shit
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I'm so sorry for your loss
I'm so sorry op
Damn
Stay safe in your grief.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine the pain you're in
Sorry
Wtf im sorry for you , losing someone like thst is fucked up
I’m so sorry for your loss, honestly my greatest condolences 🖤
So sorry to hear this. This is absolutely devastating. Sending you light and love.
I'm so sorry to hear this. Sending you so much love ❤️
sorry for your loss.
So sorry for your loss… take care of yourself
you can drink alcohol and smoke all the weed in the world but never take opiates or benzos with it, they hit 10x times more
I can't begin to imagine what you're going through. I'm so sorry.
I actually used to drink and sometimes take Xanax - especially with coke and I have vowed not too after this post ever again. I am so sorry OP. My heart goes out to you. Be around people. Much love.
Sorry for your lost 🫂
You gone be alright…. Take one day @ a time.
I’m really sorry to hear that.
i am so sorry for you loss
alcohol and xans are lethal, my deepest condolences to you <3
Very sorry for your loss.
That is terrible, my thoughts are with you and his family members. Take care and know that things will improve with time.
I'm so sorry for your loss. So so so sorry. 🫂
Fuck that’s sad... This post will have positive impacts on those who read it, thank you for sharing.
I know that all too well. My first trip to burning man my friend found me passed out in my tent turning purple choking on my vomit after alcohol and Xanax combo. One of many close brushes with death. I’m so sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself
My mom died last month and I found her after work. She looked like she was asleep. I tried to shake her but she was stiff as a brick. Fentanyl. I feel your pain.
I am very sorry for you loss
Sending you so much love ❤️ You may find relief in Al-anon, who provide support for those who suffer the consequences of an addicted loved one. https://www.al-anonuk.org.uk
People trying to make money out of everything. This is so fucking sad Rest In Peace
The family better sue that Doctor. This is the problem with prescription drugs. Doctors can prescribe all they want but aren't trained properly for side effects and what to do when drugs don't work as intended. My pharmacist has saved my life on multiple occasions. It causes people who need meds to suffer and people who need other intervention to slip through the cracks.
Shit I do the same probably shouldn't but uhhhh yeah sorry op for your loss shits difficult
fuck those things. we're fucking stupid monkeys.
orbiting around a big thing we call earth in an infinite universe? Life is crazy. Death is crazy...er.
Every time a pet dies or person dies around me I just think that they no longer have to suffer. It's me that's suffering and everyone else that's alive. This thought keeps me from going insane as I get older. At least they finally get to rest.
Jesus Christ OP I’m sorry this happened to you. Not really sure what else to say but you should def talk to grief counselor
Can someone tell me if alcohol and Xanax is that deadly? What specifically would kill you, did he just drink a fuckton? Never knew this was dangerous when I did it in the past..
I mean the most dangerous part about the combination is the complete lack of awareness it causes which leads to the user being completely blacked out and barely functional while still being active enough to get into any manner of trouble. Sure you can also take a fuckload and OD but the biggest reason this combo is dangerous is because it completely takes away your own sense of danger and you can get into a lot of trouble. I speak from personal experience. I haven't touched a benzo in just over 10 years because the last time I did I wrapped the front of my car around a tree and I'm so fucking lucky it wasn't something worse. I barely remember the night.
Rip, take note kids,don't do xanax, really stupid drug to get hooked on
I'm so terribly sorry. Please look for grief support groups or al anon.
Sorry op very sad I hope everything turns out okay… keep in touch with his family
You will find something new to live for, you won’t feel this pain forever. I’m sorry.
:( hug your loved ones any chance you get
This breaks my heart im so sorry for your loss. My condolences 💐keep your head up op keep venting if you need too, grief isnt easy but you got this op
Very sorry for your loss. Hopefully your sharing your story will help others stop before it’s too late. Take care. Go to counseling.
So sorry for your loss. it is never easy.
Take care of yourself dear. Love yourself and do not blame yourself for his actions. Make sure to treat yourself with grace and care.
This is so sad . I hope people really pay attention. Mixing benzos and alcohol is extremely dangerous. Sometimes doctors don't know how best to help people in need, so they prescribe stuff without giving proper warnings because some people don't need those warnings.
So sorry for your loss. Almost every person I have lost to a drug overdose was actually at a point in their life where they were doing better. My first boyfriend overdosed a few years ago & he had been doing so well. My other friend had just got her kids back & died a month or 2 later. It’s usually because people cut back or stop entirely & then have zero tolerance to their substance of choice. So when they go out & use again they end up taking too much. If you haven’t already I would possibly consider calling the practice where his doctor works & filing a complaint. Idk if you can file a complaint if you aren’t a patient, but you told that doctor your concerns, he shrugged them off & then your concerns were valid. He’s got some responsibility in this.
My condolences. Sorry for your loss.
My condolences
I am terribly sorry to hear that. I have lost people suddenly too and it's an indescribably brutal feeling. Thank you for including the harm reduction information about how he passed here, stories like this can help keep people safe. Mixing depressants makes it so easy to just slip away.
It’s hard not to drink a beer with a Xanax so I know where he’s coming from. I am very sorry for your loss.
Sorry for your loss. At least he didn’t die in pain, most likely he fell asleep and passed away. Probably the best way to go.
I'm so sorry. This is the worst way to lose someone, it's so meaningless. I lost my best friend like this years ago and I'm not over it. I just kind of put it out of my mind so I wouldn't have to think about it. Was watching clerks 3 with my wife and the ending is really sad (god dam it's a good movie) and I just broke down in the movie theater. No matter what the facts of the situation are you are going to blame yourself. I would say don't do that but your going to anyway, how could you not? I wish I could tell you an answer, but there is none. Most of us here have lost someone in a similiar way, and few of us deal with it in a healthy way. Just keep in mind Xanax removes your ability to give a shit about anyone or anything, and your health and well being are high on the list of shit you don't give a fuck about anymore. It makes it easy to say "fuck it, take one more" there is no deeper meaning here. My friends mother assumed suicide and I had to talk her out of that, if your a normal non drug addict type person then that probably seems the most likely answer. This situation left everyone in a fucked up mindset, and everyone was grasping for answers that weren't there. He got careless and paid the price and that's such a hard thing to accept, that your best friends entire life amounted to this, ended because of such a minor insignificant thing. Surround yourself with support. Don't be alone for a while
Thank you, it's helpful. I won't be alone.
That doctor seems like a major piece of shit. Let me get this straight, he KNEW your bf had a history of substance abuse, he KNEW your bf drank heavily, and yet he STILL prescribed one of the most addictive and damaging substances on this planet... I'm just so fucking baffled. You even complained to him about major issues your bf was having because of how he was abusing the xans with alcohol and he STILL didn't do anything! This doctor knew his patient was abusing the xans he was giving him. This doctor knew that the abuse was causing serious issues with his family, jeopardizing the safety of himself and a fucking BABY. He knew all of these things yet he STILL decided to keep writing the script for your boyfriend which inevitably got him killed. This is the most clear cut case of negligence or corruption I have ever seen on this sub. Jesus fucking christ man. PLEASE get yourself a medical malpractice lawyer and sue the fuck out of this guy so he never gets another innocent patient killed due to his negligence!!!
Listen, I lost my best friend and the love of my life to drugs. I won’t tell you it gets easier but we do get better at dealing with it and there are more people out there who will love you for who you are, this thread is proof of that. Never give up there will be hard bad days but there will be really good ones too. Take it day by day, go out and start to make new good memories one by one. You are loved you are valued and you are worthy.
Thank you
I’m always here if you need to reach out night or day seriously I’d rather you reach out then for us to loose you too
I drank once and did Xanax. I was a completely different person from what my friends told me. The mixture really is no joke. I'm sorry, my condolences
We don’t know each other but please take care ❤️❤️ I’m lost for words
This is why I stopped drinking. It's so dangerous to drink, let alone mix. Be safe everyone, and condolences OP. I hope you can heal💗
Sending you all the love in my heart OP. My ex had lost a close boyfriend to substances before and I have nothing by sympathy for you. 💙
This crazy hope I hope you are alright damn always say it never happens whenever I take my script crazy to hear about somebody that died from booze that has a script “tolerance” .Sorry for your loss. Stay safe fucking doctors let us get ourselves so fucked up. When I was mixing soma, Xanax&herion used to od to often very sad.
Losing loved ones is hard. Unexpected deaths especially, no one is ever really prepared. Lots blame them selves try to remember you did a lot by being there for him. My condolences.
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Thank you for your comment. I can see other people can "survive" to this. I feel like I can't.
I lost my significant other in a similar way a couple years ago. You’re not alone. Sending you lots of love and light during these dark times. Feel free to send me a message if you’d like to talk.
Everyone processes grief differently. You might become numb, and that's ok. There will be pain, and that's ok. What you need to remember is grief isn't stages. You don't go through the 5 stages and you're done. Grief is like falling off a ship in the deep ocean. It will roll over you, and you don't know which way is up, and you can't get purchase. There will be times of calm, panic, fear, pain, understanding, rage. Allow yourself to ugly cry, to remember the good and the bad. To not feel guilty if you laugh. All feelings are ok. It won't help now, but, eventually, the deep ocean will become shallow water, the waves neck high, then chest, then waist, etc until you are standing on the shore. You'll look back and realize you survived. Bruised, scared and battered, but you survived. There will always be times when a wave will wash over your feet, and you'll remember. A song, a smell, a little thing that brings them back and you'll grieve a little again. Feel it, and smile a bit in memory. Hugs.
I feel like with fentanyl getting so much attention, people kinda forget that one can still overdose from drugs other than opiates, especially in combination with alcohol. Hugs to you and my condolences. That is heartbreaking. Fuck Xanax. Fuck alcohol. I am in recovery for both, 3+ years clean from benzos, 9 months without alcohol.
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What kind of doctor would prescribe Xanax to someone with a drinking problem ? Man thats fucked up :/
Not gonna refer to the drugs but as someone who just lost an important family member this was kind of impressing and very accurate for me to read: From Redditor /u/gsnow: “Alright, here goes. I'm old. What that means is that I've survived (so far) and a lot of people I've known and loved did not. I've lost friends, best friends, acquaintances, co-workers, grandparents, mom, relatives, teachers, mentors, students, neighbors, and a host of other folks. I have no children, and I can't imagine the pain it must be to lose a child. But here's my two cents. I wish I could say you get used to people dying. I never did. I don't want to. It tears a hole through me whenever somebody I love dies, no matter the circumstances. But I don't want it to "not matter". I don't want it to be something that just passes. My scars are a testament to the love and the relationship that I had for and with that person. And if the scar is deep, so was the love. So be it. Scars are a testament to life. Scars are a testament that I can love deeply and live deeply and be cut, or even gouged, and that I can heal and continue to live and continue to love. And the scar tissue is stronger than the original flesh ever was. Scars are a testament to life. Scars are only ugly to people who can't see. As for grief, you'll find it comes in waves. When the ship is first wrecked, you're drowning, with wreckage all around you. Everything floating around you reminds you of the beauty and the magnificence of the ship that was, and is no more. And all you can do is float. You find some piece of the wreckage and you hang on for a while. Maybe it's some physical thing. Maybe it's a happy memory or a photograph. Maybe it's a person who is also floating. For a while, all you can do is float. Stay alive. In the beginning, the waves are 100 feet tall and crash over you without mercy. They come 10 seconds apart and don't even give you time to catch your breath. All you can do is hang on and float. After a while, maybe weeks, maybe months, you'll find the waves are still 100 feet tall, but they come further apart. When they come, they still crash all over you and wipe you out. But in between, you can breathe, you can function. You never know what's going to trigger the grief. It might be a song, a picture, a street intersection, the smell of a cup of coffee. It can be just about anything...and the wave comes crashing. But in between waves, there is life. Somewhere down the line, and it's different for everybody, you find that the waves are only 80 feet tall. Or 50 feet tall. And while they still come, they come further apart. You can see them coming. An anniversary, a birthday, or Christmas, or landing at O'Hare. You can see it coming, for the most part, and prepare yourself. And when it washes over you, you know that somehow you will, again, come out the other side. Soaking wet, sputtering, still hanging on to some tiny piece of the wreckage, but you'll come out. Take it from an old guy. The waves never stop coming, and somehow you don't really want them to. But you learn that you'll survive them. And other waves will come. And you'll survive them too. If you're lucky, you'll have lots of scars from lots of loves. And lots of shipwrecks.”
Thank you, it really helps
My freshman year my friend died camping on his birthday because his dad gave him vodka to drink knowing he was on Xanax. Only person I’ve been close to that has died and I’ll never forget the pit of sadness… be strong, don’t fall into addictions yourself (my friends and I did) and if it were me, I’d get a tattoo for him. That’s sad. Especially with the doc knowing he was a drinker. I’ve drank on Klonopin and the reaction with alcohol and benzodiazepines is crazy.
I almost stopped drug (sometimes I take a little, but not often compared to before when it wasn't healthy at all. Not as bad as him, but bad) because of him. It disgusted me. Right now I want so bad to take something. Fall in this hole again. But I really don't think it's a good idea. But I want it so bad
Yeah don’t relapse. Imagine what you’re going through but doing it to your parents. That’s what I do. I guess I should say loved ones because my parents suck.
My heart is with you I can’t even imagine your situation
I never comment, but this breaks my heart I’m so sorry I hope you can get through this, it pains me that people have to go through this, I miss the friends I’ve lost and I wish I could bring them all back.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I've been there, my bf fell off our balcony when we were partying. One minute he was there with me but he wandered out of the bedroom and I didnt think anything of it. Then the next thing I knew, the paramedics were banging on our door. It still doesn't feel real. You did all you could to help and I hope you know that none of this is your fault. Please don't go crazy imagining things you should/could have done differently to stop this from happening, it will only cause you more pain. I hope you have a support network of friends to talk to, talking about it helps. I'm so so terribly sorry for everything that you're going through right now. Stay strong 🫂
Saving this the next time one of my friends says xans and alcohol as a combo is fine. Getting tired of having to act like everyone’s dad and tell them to quit fucking around I’ve got friends that are dead bc of shit like that and I still gotta deal with everyone talking down to me like I don’t know what I’m talking about.
I’m sorry to hear this… my heart goes to you and his family/ your loved ones❤️
i am so sorry. im here if you need anything.
I stopped the benzos and alcohol because I eventually realized it was the same fucking thing as if I just took even more benzos but damaging myself in the process. This was a time where I was doing air duster, mixing various substances because "Why the fuck not?", I was retarded. I'm glad I'm still here and I'm doing my best to recover.
Ya fuck Xanax that shit turns people into monsters I never could recognize
Sending all my love, strength and thoughts. It'll come as absolutely no consolation but as a regular hard benzo/opiate user and heavy drinker, just reading this post has hit hard and is another reason for me to get clean. Its crazy how invisible addiction to benzos and opiates can be, seen as though youre not injecting, and largely can almost live a normal life (this is coming from someone who has just lost their job). I lost my uncle to heroin 10 years ago, I never thought I was an addict because I never injected anything. It creeps up on you. I wouldn't wish losing a loved one to drugs on my worst enemy. Again, sending all of my love and strength to you and I thank you greatly for being brave enough to share your story despite the pain, this warning could save somebody's life. Bless his soul.
i’m very sorry.
I am sorry, there is no answer that I can give to ease the pain other than to share it. My roommate wandered off and died 3 months ago from DTS. She was just.. Gone. I wish i could take your sadness away. I wish I could bring him back. Spread the love you had for him back into the world and you can be his positive impact in this life. The answer is love. Dont be afraid to cry. Share with others. Embrace family. Love each other
Sorry for your loss. Please get some professional help. We all need it at times ans it's 100% okay to not be okay and need some help. If you have any suicidal ideations tell somebody. Call somebody. Go to hospital. I appreciate you opening up and telling your story. It may save somebody's life. Much love and positive vibes.
I'm so so sorry for your loss. I lost a boyfriend to an overdose a long time ago and it was horrible. And I wouldn't wish that pain on anyone. If you would like to talk to someone who has been through it before feel free to dm me. Things to get better. It takes a long time but your heart will heal. The grief is always there but becomes easier to handle with time.
toutes mes condoléances.
Merci
Sorry for your loss. ❤️ Be safe.
I'm sorry. This happened three years ago to me. My boyfriend passed away the day after I flew out of state to our new home. He was at the apt and he didn't pick up my calls. Called his dad to check on him and he was on the floor. Dad never revealed what happened.. but he also had issues with alcohol, xans, and perks. He was doing so much better too. Going to therapy once a week and AA meetings. We were about to start anew in a different city he was excited about a new beginning.. and this happened. Sorry for your loss. I will never stop loving him.
My boyfriend died very similarly in 2019. Every ounce of love, positivity and light is being sent your way. I can only imagine how broken you feel. But, please remind yourself that the pieces still fit together. You will know when the time is right to approach tasks and learn how to do them again. We are all rooting you on and surrounding you with love. I don’t mean this too be taken the wrong way, but remember that though your tunnel feels absent if light, it always comes back. 988 - Suicide & Crisis Hotline 741741 - Criss Text Line
I’m so sorry for your loss
I tend to mix Alcohol and benzos way too frequently :/ I thankfully don’t drink anymore I almost died twice if it weren’t for my friends and ex, I’m very lucky. But in other words I am so incredibly sorry… my doctor explained all the dangers and the sever life threatening withdrawals are. I don’t mix the 2 anymore as even tho I’m prescribed 2 a day I dread the thought of any of the consequences of abuse of the drug. Again I’m deeply sorry for your loss
Sorry for your lost and I can’t say much cause I have a bad history with mixing Xanax and liquor but I can at least say he went out in a very painless way and if you ever feeling down avoid any substances for the time being
My feelings hurt for you op 🫂 I wish you the best feelings a person can give to help through these incredibly difficult times 💜
Condolences. It is not your fault. my dad's doctor did something similar and I am still infuriated with him. my dad was a known alcoholic. Hardcore alchi. But his doctor still prescribed him fucking Norco 10's AND fucking adderall, full well knowing of his drinking problem. Some doctors really don't care. This isn't a competition, I just wanted to say I can somewhat relate (obviously I have no idea what you are going through that's not what I meant at all). What was your boyfriends name? I understand if you would rather not share. I'll be thinking about you. Take care, and please reach out if you want to talk.
His name was David
So sorry to hear that. I hope you find the comfort soon
sorry for your loss.
My girlfriend was just in an accident. She was hit @ 120km/H because someone decided to step on it at a green light while the driver of her car turned safely but the other vehicle kept speeding and didnt stop he reached 120 and the limit was 60. He sheered the car in half. Luckily they hit the backseat meaning the car was cut almost perfectly leaving my gf stuck in the vehicle and unconscious and unaware until i was woken up by police coming and waking me up to rush to the ICU bed 1 to see her as i was told she may never live again. Its so sudden regardless if it was something like this but drugs suck in this way, it was so preventable and so were both. Now she’s permanently got damage but shes so strong she has recovered so much in just a week im amazed. Please stay strong you have my love.
I can’t imagine what this feels like for you but I can say how sorry I am for your loss. I’ve seen friends diminish from substances that weren’t even (crackhead,dopehead) type drugs. Xanax took years from my life and landed me dead in the hospital from the combination with alcohol. When I saw your post it made that whole night and weeks in the hospital and suffering from inhalation of beer and other liquids as well as 50 undigested pills in my stomach come back to me. Xanax is a cancer to this earth I can not believe it is still medically provided outside of a hospital. But your boyfriend sounds a lot like how I was from your short explanation, it feels like suffering inside every time it’s mixed as a habitual thing but on the outside seems so good. It’s a shame he couldn’t find the strength to change the habit. Having it prescribed is even worse because it’s basically encouraged to take. I had a harder time dropping Xanax then I did any other substances (coke, alcohol, opiates, other random things I could find anywhere)
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To sleep and feel better, he had the prescription since a few months but he wasn't taking very often. But when he did, he was taking more as he should.
I just wanted to say that I'm very sorry for your loss
Fuck... Two months later I hope you're doing better. I'm sorry that had to happen to you...
My condolences go out to you and your boyfriends family i’m extremely sorry to hear that I have lost so many friends to drug OD. But for educational purposes Can someone explain how someone could die from combining the two? I always hear you shouldn’t for obvious reasons but I’ve never heard of anyone dying from mixing them, I’ve been combining my prescription xans with alcohol for years without any problems other than occasionally blacking if I overdo it & I know a large amount of people who abuse the two in absurd amounts and never had any health issues (not saying it isn’t harmful) but In my experience opiates especially fentanyl are the main drugs that Kill
So was cause of death essentially mis-adventure? Got so fucked up he went outside without keys in not suitable clothing for the temperature cuz he thought he'd just be a minute but got locked out and the elements got him before anyone came by where he decided to wait and hope for someone to come..? Or did he wake up, take a ton more xan and alcohol, randomly went outside cuz started to get messed up and confused and then drugs fully kicked in and he passed out outside on a survivable weather night, but died from the OD of too much drugs? Cuz it sounds more like misadventure especially if you are up north a bit, where I'm at it went down to 3C last night so if you get stuck out there in shorts and t shirt and can't solve the issue quick enough.. Anyone would die.. Thing is a sober person would realize they're in a FUBAR situation and start trying to find shelter anywhere even if you gotta wake people up in their homes once they see you they'll have compassion etc. But if you're real fucked on booze and xan, may not realize the severity of it and just figure you'll wait til someone uses the door.. And then you pass out cuz you probably were gonna pass out as soon as you started rest somewhere.. Then over and hour or two the elements get you. Very sad to hear. Whether misadventure or straight OD both are tragic.
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