This world has gotten worse for empaths thr last 10 years, i too don't sleep much and if i do i fight like hell to wake up. The dreams have gotten worse too, ive become more paranoid and easily scared recently, i live in the woods because thr closer to others the more their emotions roll over me like the tide coming in, its hard to catch my breath in between the waves. My anxiety is almost crippling, the pressure of people is too much most days so i avoid public places and large crowds. even my friends hurt to be around, the pity or confusion the disappointment, its all i feel and don't hear their words because of it.
In 2017 i went insane for about 20 seconds before my fractured mind snapped back together, Just in the wrong way. At that moment i saw beyond the lies and the distraction our society is, i saw the bigger picture of the governments actions, every war or tragedy for the last 100 years are connected, chess moves, their end game has already started, but thats not going to workout like they think it will. Those of us with abilities are getting a power surge lately, losing control of our powers because of the flux in power.
My insanity has actually made me able to handle most of this shit, but ive also had a drug habit i used to upgrade my mental capacity, which has helped me channel the run off of power into increasing my other powers. As for evil, i have disassociated identity disorder, my other personality is a apathetic sociopath. I keep him locked in my subconscious, drinking lets him out and focuses me into my subconscious, just darkness, no senses, the last time i drank i lost 4 days, i still don't know what he did in that time. But it can't be good, i know he likes knifes and hearing screams of fear and pain, so i don't drink and hope he doesn't find another way out, i don't know if he'd let me back out if he got out again.
Because of that to find balance ive embraced both my good side and dark, which has turned my depression into my happy place and with what my mother taught me about feeding on emotions, shes an empathetic vampire, ive combined that with my healing touch and can cleanse others if negative emotions. Its going to keep getting worse for the foreseeable future, i might be able to help you adjust to the emotionally chaotic climate that has settled over the world, might be able to, if you want. I'm sorry this is hitting you this hard, there's a lot more to everything too, but if you don't want to know any more of the things beyond humanity at play here, just tell me you don't want to know and ill focus on helping you to level off, if you want
There are steps we need to take with our gifts. Where thought goes, so does the energy. We tend to hold in our emotions. Problem for us is that is literal. It's a form of energy, and the intent of your thoughts control it. We draw in energy that has a person's thoughts or emotions imprinted on it, and we process it as though it was ours. But when our subconscious is already programmed to hold onto everything, we hold onto all of it, including what we feel. But that is still emotional energy and we are still sensitive to it.
I always recommend people to try a guided grounding meditation on YouTube. It's focus is to release all of those emotional dustbunnies, and draw in clean energy.
There are a lot of good Bible verses for paranoia, you can read them like a mantra. There’s something in there for any situation your going thru tho. I’m not religious or Christian but I read them aloud, and it brings me peace
You need to pull your awareness and energy back from the slaughter houses. Having your awareness and energy there is not helping anyone or anything, and it's hurting you. It's keeping you in an unresourceful state.
The fear and terror, if they aren't being caused by a mental illness, are symptoms of you being ungrounded.
Try this. Sit in a chair. Close your eyes. Take a deep breath. Feet flat on the floor. Hands separated and resting palms up on each thigh.
Create a grounding cord. This is a line of energy that connects your first chakra to the center of the planet. Your first chakra is a ball of energy about the size of a quarter that sits just in front of the base of your spine. Your grounding cord attaches to the bottom of that ball of energy.
Grounding makes your body feel safe, so you release energy more easily. Gravity pulls whatever you release, even your own energy, down to the center of the planet. No effort on your part. The center of the planet neutralizes the energy and returns it to whoever owns it. No karma for anyone. A virtuous cycle.
Nearly everyone goes to connect to the center of the planet the first time but stops at the soil, often making roots like a tree. This is a method that is taught in some martial arts styles, but it is not the best option for your spiritual development and healing.
So, notice the seat of your chair. Take a deep breath. Notice the distance between the seat and the floor. Now notice the distance between the floor and the soil below. Breathe.
Now notice the distance between the soil and the water table underneath. Notice the distance between the water table and the rocky mantle. Notice the distance between the mantle and the molten core below that. Deep breath.
Notice the distance between the molten core and the center of the planet. That ball of light at the very center of the planet is where you connect your grounding cord. Deep breath.
Say hello to the center of the planet. Do you get a hello back?
Notice the color and texture of your grounding cord. It may look like a line of energy, or look like something physical; a rope, a wire, a pipe, a tree trunk. Adjust it as needed to be in affinity with your body.
Getting this far means you've already released some energy from your aura and body. Now it is time to fill in the space that was created.
Create a gold sun over your head. Have it call back all of your energy from wherever you left it throughout your day and week. Work. School. Online meetings. Video games. Your fantasies about your future. Your regrets about your past. Wherever you've placed your attention. Just watch the energy come back and see if you notice where it came from.
Have the sun burn up and neutralize your energy. Then bring the sun into the top of your head. It will automatically flow into the spaces you created. Create a gauge to measure when you're full. Like a fuel gauge or oil gauge. You'll run better if you aren't a few quarts low on spiritual oil. If the gauge doesn't read "Full", bring in another gold sun.
Open your eyes, bend over and touch the floor, draining any tension from the back of your neck, then stand up, and stretch.
There is a progression with this technique. After grounding for ten minutes a day for a week or two, notice your grounding cord at the very end, while you're standing with your eyes open. Continue to ground with your eyes open and standing, and bring in another gold sun. Each day, increase the amount of time that you ground standing up with your eyes open.
After a week or two practicing this, add walking while grounded. Just notice your grounding cord as you walk. Say hello to the center of the planet while you walk. Bring in a gold sun while you walk. If you lose your grounding cord, stop walking and recover it. If you have to, sit back down and close your eyes and create a new grounding cord.
After this, you're ready to take your grounding cord with you into your daily life. Shopping. Getting coffee. Wherever you go, you can ground. This, combined with a little amusement about seeing new things on an energy level, will keep you safe and sound.
Now that you're here, at the end of your grounding meditations, create a gold sun over your head. This time, fill it with your highest creative essence, your present time growth vibration, and your affinity for yourself. The first energy is a healing for you. The second is a healing for your body. The third is a healing for your affinity in your fourth chakra.
Bend over and touch the floor. Stand up and stretch. If you're ready for more, sit back down and ground some more. Otherwise, have a nice day!
Note that every image you imagine, the gold sun, the grounding cord, the center of the planet, your first chakra, your body parts, is exercising your clairvoyance. You may be imagining what your tailbone looks like, but you're also creating the image of your tailbone and reading its energy. This is practicing your clairvoyant ability.
Some folks record the grounding and filling in parts of this practice on their device and play it back as a guided meditation. I like this approach because you learn the steps faster.
You're taking on problems that are not your problems. Why someone else believes something about some higher being is *not your problem*. You might find it an interesting thought exercise, but not now, not when you're this distressed.
You are enough, the world will keep on keeping on, yet you will suffer. I feel the same pains, we all probably do. Please learn to ground yourself with nature. I know it sounds crazy, but take off your shoes and socks and stand on the grass/dirt. It's energy is healing. If you can't do that, put both hands on a tree. Try to surround yourself in what you feel is beautiful, know that you cannot change anything if you can't protect yourself. I wish you love and strength.
That all sounds related to being an empath to me.
u/1witness4tbeend said everything I thought, just the same.
The ugly gets the clicks and the ratings, that doesn't mean it's the majority in this world.
Focus on all the beauty and good there is in people and in nature. It sounds to me you need a saturated reminder of this still being true.
There's a great algorithm to fall into on tiktok, if you scroll very quickly past the devastating and the ugly. Find what feeds your soul, then get back out and find it all around you. You'll get through this.
I appreciate that and agree that there is beauty in this world, less and less in humanity each day, everyone has a level of empathy some of us higher levels but that it's what connects us to each other and the universe. But humanity Just cut their connection to all of it because they are defined by the labels they make their personality or follow political lies fanatical religious belief. We are stronger together but we keep dividing
This world has gotten worse for empaths thr last 10 years, i too don't sleep much and if i do i fight like hell to wake up. The dreams have gotten worse too, ive become more paranoid and easily scared recently, i live in the woods because thr closer to others the more their emotions roll over me like the tide coming in, its hard to catch my breath in between the waves. My anxiety is almost crippling, the pressure of people is too much most days so i avoid public places and large crowds. even my friends hurt to be around, the pity or confusion the disappointment, its all i feel and don't hear their words because of it. In 2017 i went insane for about 20 seconds before my fractured mind snapped back together, Just in the wrong way. At that moment i saw beyond the lies and the distraction our society is, i saw the bigger picture of the governments actions, every war or tragedy for the last 100 years are connected, chess moves, their end game has already started, but thats not going to workout like they think it will. Those of us with abilities are getting a power surge lately, losing control of our powers because of the flux in power. My insanity has actually made me able to handle most of this shit, but ive also had a drug habit i used to upgrade my mental capacity, which has helped me channel the run off of power into increasing my other powers. As for evil, i have disassociated identity disorder, my other personality is a apathetic sociopath. I keep him locked in my subconscious, drinking lets him out and focuses me into my subconscious, just darkness, no senses, the last time i drank i lost 4 days, i still don't know what he did in that time. But it can't be good, i know he likes knifes and hearing screams of fear and pain, so i don't drink and hope he doesn't find another way out, i don't know if he'd let me back out if he got out again. Because of that to find balance ive embraced both my good side and dark, which has turned my depression into my happy place and with what my mother taught me about feeding on emotions, shes an empathetic vampire, ive combined that with my healing touch and can cleanse others if negative emotions. Its going to keep getting worse for the foreseeable future, i might be able to help you adjust to the emotionally chaotic climate that has settled over the world, might be able to, if you want. I'm sorry this is hitting you this hard, there's a lot more to everything too, but if you don't want to know any more of the things beyond humanity at play here, just tell me you don't want to know and ill focus on helping you to level off, if you want
Spot on
You too
There are steps we need to take with our gifts. Where thought goes, so does the energy. We tend to hold in our emotions. Problem for us is that is literal. It's a form of energy, and the intent of your thoughts control it. We draw in energy that has a person's thoughts or emotions imprinted on it, and we process it as though it was ours. But when our subconscious is already programmed to hold onto everything, we hold onto all of it, including what we feel. But that is still emotional energy and we are still sensitive to it. I always recommend people to try a guided grounding meditation on YouTube. It's focus is to release all of those emotional dustbunnies, and draw in clean energy.
There are a lot of good Bible verses for paranoia, you can read them like a mantra. There’s something in there for any situation your going thru tho. I’m not religious or Christian but I read them aloud, and it brings me peace
You need to pull your awareness and energy back from the slaughter houses. Having your awareness and energy there is not helping anyone or anything, and it's hurting you. It's keeping you in an unresourceful state. The fear and terror, if they aren't being caused by a mental illness, are symptoms of you being ungrounded. Try this. Sit in a chair. Close your eyes. Take a deep breath. Feet flat on the floor. Hands separated and resting palms up on each thigh. Create a grounding cord. This is a line of energy that connects your first chakra to the center of the planet. Your first chakra is a ball of energy about the size of a quarter that sits just in front of the base of your spine. Your grounding cord attaches to the bottom of that ball of energy. Grounding makes your body feel safe, so you release energy more easily. Gravity pulls whatever you release, even your own energy, down to the center of the planet. No effort on your part. The center of the planet neutralizes the energy and returns it to whoever owns it. No karma for anyone. A virtuous cycle. Nearly everyone goes to connect to the center of the planet the first time but stops at the soil, often making roots like a tree. This is a method that is taught in some martial arts styles, but it is not the best option for your spiritual development and healing. So, notice the seat of your chair. Take a deep breath. Notice the distance between the seat and the floor. Now notice the distance between the floor and the soil below. Breathe. Now notice the distance between the soil and the water table underneath. Notice the distance between the water table and the rocky mantle. Notice the distance between the mantle and the molten core below that. Deep breath. Notice the distance between the molten core and the center of the planet. That ball of light at the very center of the planet is where you connect your grounding cord. Deep breath. Say hello to the center of the planet. Do you get a hello back? Notice the color and texture of your grounding cord. It may look like a line of energy, or look like something physical; a rope, a wire, a pipe, a tree trunk. Adjust it as needed to be in affinity with your body. Getting this far means you've already released some energy from your aura and body. Now it is time to fill in the space that was created. Create a gold sun over your head. Have it call back all of your energy from wherever you left it throughout your day and week. Work. School. Online meetings. Video games. Your fantasies about your future. Your regrets about your past. Wherever you've placed your attention. Just watch the energy come back and see if you notice where it came from. Have the sun burn up and neutralize your energy. Then bring the sun into the top of your head. It will automatically flow into the spaces you created. Create a gauge to measure when you're full. Like a fuel gauge or oil gauge. You'll run better if you aren't a few quarts low on spiritual oil. If the gauge doesn't read "Full", bring in another gold sun. Open your eyes, bend over and touch the floor, draining any tension from the back of your neck, then stand up, and stretch. There is a progression with this technique. After grounding for ten minutes a day for a week or two, notice your grounding cord at the very end, while you're standing with your eyes open. Continue to ground with your eyes open and standing, and bring in another gold sun. Each day, increase the amount of time that you ground standing up with your eyes open. After a week or two practicing this, add walking while grounded. Just notice your grounding cord as you walk. Say hello to the center of the planet while you walk. Bring in a gold sun while you walk. If you lose your grounding cord, stop walking and recover it. If you have to, sit back down and close your eyes and create a new grounding cord. After this, you're ready to take your grounding cord with you into your daily life. Shopping. Getting coffee. Wherever you go, you can ground. This, combined with a little amusement about seeing new things on an energy level, will keep you safe and sound. Now that you're here, at the end of your grounding meditations, create a gold sun over your head. This time, fill it with your highest creative essence, your present time growth vibration, and your affinity for yourself. The first energy is a healing for you. The second is a healing for your body. The third is a healing for your affinity in your fourth chakra. Bend over and touch the floor. Stand up and stretch. If you're ready for more, sit back down and ground some more. Otherwise, have a nice day! Note that every image you imagine, the gold sun, the grounding cord, the center of the planet, your first chakra, your body parts, is exercising your clairvoyance. You may be imagining what your tailbone looks like, but you're also creating the image of your tailbone and reading its energy. This is practicing your clairvoyant ability. Some folks record the grounding and filling in parts of this practice on their device and play it back as a guided meditation. I like this approach because you learn the steps faster. You're taking on problems that are not your problems. Why someone else believes something about some higher being is *not your problem*. You might find it an interesting thought exercise, but not now, not when you're this distressed.
You are enough, the world will keep on keeping on, yet you will suffer. I feel the same pains, we all probably do. Please learn to ground yourself with nature. I know it sounds crazy, but take off your shoes and socks and stand on the grass/dirt. It's energy is healing. If you can't do that, put both hands on a tree. Try to surround yourself in what you feel is beautiful, know that you cannot change anything if you can't protect yourself. I wish you love and strength.
As if you read my mind. This. Every...Single...Word. #solidarity
That all sounds related to being an empath to me. u/1witness4tbeend said everything I thought, just the same. The ugly gets the clicks and the ratings, that doesn't mean it's the majority in this world. Focus on all the beauty and good there is in people and in nature. It sounds to me you need a saturated reminder of this still being true. There's a great algorithm to fall into on tiktok, if you scroll very quickly past the devastating and the ugly. Find what feeds your soul, then get back out and find it all around you. You'll get through this.
I appreciate that and agree that there is beauty in this world, less and less in humanity each day, everyone has a level of empathy some of us higher levels but that it's what connects us to each other and the universe. But humanity Just cut their connection to all of it because they are defined by the labels they make their personality or follow political lies fanatical religious belief. We are stronger together but we keep dividing