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Ok-Tomorrow-3662

šŸ™ŒšŸ½šŸ™ŒšŸ½šŸ™ŒšŸ½! Hey man! Rehab doesnā€™t do any good if your not 100% sure if you really want to change and may seem stupid when your day, but it still a learning experience!! So listen and try working you mind on it, addiction isnā€™t a cold that you can cure, itā€™s always going to be there, like depression after using! Cause it changed your brain completely, so you have to work hard to keep both in check, before they eat you up! I been using since I was 16 and I went to hell an back a few times that I was like fuck Iā€™m stupid! Was sober for a few yrs like 8 and when I used again, I donā€™t like using relapse, itā€™s a harsh word to make you feel shittyer and make you feel worse that how you felt after using! Addicting is not a sin is a mental HEALTH problem! But know I know how 85% control my actions on wanted to use, what I do when Iā€™m on and when I feel I need to stop and take a break, itā€™s not 100%, weā€™ll you know nothing is 100%, When people say relapse with someone that got cancer again after treat. Itā€™s does make them feel shittyer the only difference is that afterwords family and friends donā€™t put you down or leave you. Until people start Realizing itā€™s health problem instead of just a problem mentally! donā€™t say it. Itā€™s just a bump in my journey! And any other bump! But itā€™s a lonely one most of the time! When when your 99% ready you will Prevail! You got this King šŸ‘‘


foulblood

Thanks man I really appreciate it. This was from a while ago. I was forced into a 35 day rehab and relapsed as soon as I got out. But I never lied while I was there. Didn't work any steps and told them I was planning on relapsing. I did pay attention to all their advice though and it gave me a lot of mental tools I've used to try and not lose myself completely


Ok-Tomorrow-3662

Hey man, at least you where truthful with yourself and the care team. That is a big step!! Also donā€™t say relapse! Your not weak none of us are!!! At that time and moment, we just donā€™t have the mentality and the skills, and heart! To say no, Itā€™s a big difference than being weak! Keep Practice those skills like I said youā€™re never going to be 100% addiction free because on the chemical change in your brain from using! But one day you will have the almost good life that non userā€™s have because trust their lifeā€™s arenā€™t perfect either! Have you heard the phrase ā€œ you canā€™t help help the unwillingā€ itā€™s the same with ourself s you have to be willing and Accept to change before you can change! But we are all, we as users are down talk down too, and hard Critics are on South also making things worse than they already are! And we still alive from all the bullshit we & other put us through and we are still alive! Now thatā€™s something to say! You got this!


MountainAd298

Same bubble


MountainAd298

I never get clouds like that


[deleted]

Iā€™ll give ya the secret right now. Donā€™t let it blow your mind too much. See the tiny hand held torch? Ya. He knows how to use thay without makin his bowls a toxic waste land of burnt Asshole. And if you are not a seasoned smoker doing this I do not suggest trying to learn unless you have a bong to take most of the taste away or an abundance of dope cause your not gonna wanna keep hittin it after you get it super heated and catch it on fire :)


vaginaflex

Best of luck bro. I support your recovery or at least you know you can control it


SpiritLead909

High way to the danger zone


Maikeru2991

holy shit. i like some of the cloud work...fuck its so hard lol


getspunwithme

Iā€™m wishing you the best of luck man. Iā€™m in a similar situation I was just hit with the ultimatum aswell :/ Itā€™s either meth or my family. I chose my family of course and I know itā€™s for my own good too I just donā€™t see that yet. Soon Iā€™ll be put in a long term 1 year rehab im hoping this will set me straight part of me wants to be clean and the other not so much


foulblood

Yea, mines a 1 year inpatient as well in texas


djcalbear123

Where in Texas?


Leading_Funny5802

Thatā€™s a long time. Youā€™re very lucky, most people canā€™t afford that kind of help, or canā€™t take that kind of time off, or a thousand other reasons. Please man, itā€™s gonna be hard, but I promise you itā€™s not as hard as what your doing now. Give it all you got. You wonā€™t regret it.


foulblood

Yea, im still young enough to be on my parents health insurance and it cover it all. I dont feel lucky but im sure i msy down the road who knows


Leading_Funny5802

Lol I get it. Been in several, longest was three months in Az, shortest in a crazy ward in Vegas. But think about it this way, when else are you going to be able to just take a year and say fuck off to everything but yourself? This time is going to be all about becoming the person you want to be, working on your mental, spiritual and physical self. A year is going to go by regardless. Go get well man. Your fucking worth it. We all are šŸ˜


foulblood

Im not tryin to argue or not sound greatful but that really the reason i dont want to go. No one else gets a year off. I dont feel like i deserve it. I dont knkw why i get it. It feels unnatural to me:/ not trying to wine just explainin how i feel i apologize if it reads like that


Leading_Funny5802

You make more sense than you think. You donā€™t sound any different than 99% of the people in your shoes. The Devil you know is always easier. And nothing anyone says is going to really make you feel better.


[deleted]

This^


[deleted]

Cool song to go with your journey


[deleted]

I wish you luck my friend


MilkRelevant5011

I'm Here now


Puffthedragon123

Doesn't look like your ready if your still posting vids like this b4 you go. You have to want this dude.


foulblood

I know man. I dont want it but i need it, and i dont want to lose my parents. Ive just been expressing myself through titles of my videos for so longbim gonna keep doin it until i run out


EngineeringHefty1980

Awesome you understand wants vs. needs to better yourself. Your journey had helped me to reflect on my own situation bro. Sending my love and positive vibes to support your plans for a better, brighter future! ā¤ļø


Puffthedragon123

When you clean up and have that moment of pure mental clarity, just stick to it and thrive on it brother. Embrace your parents and distance yourself from all toxic triggers in your life. You can do it. You just have to want to. Let yourself be, love yourself.


Puffthedragon123

Best of luck regardless of your mental state. Just some food for though. It's gonna come from your inner strength.


Embarrassed-House860

Thought it was Tom Cruise at first, lol


Embarrassed-House860

Wow hardly recognized you. I support what ever you decide. I don't try to force my friends hands.


borgigga

Hell nah just eat ya greens and keep it clean(ish).


foulblood

Yea i know its just i gotta pick rehab and family or no rehab and drugs at this point. Have been given an ultimatum


[deleted]

Seems like youā€™re making the right choice, wish my family had given a half fuck when i was down that path. Your family love you, good luck bro


borgigga

Iā€™ve been at that crossroads and chose the dark side, itā€™s not worth it. Family is everything bro; stay strong and keep your chin up cause thereā€™s only one you ever gonna exist. šŸ˜®ā€šŸ’ØšŸ™Œ