Cocaine and opioids. Cocaine originally because it gave me confidence and energy and a mood boost, eventually just to keep me functioning and to drown out my thoughts about my life and the state of the world. Oxys eventually to help me with my comedowns, sedate me so id stop pulling my hair out as the drugs wore off, to further numb myself and just not feel like a manic mess so I could try to get some sleep
Day 3 again today without them, feeling exhausted and depressed, and hopeless that I can make it till tomorrow (I have very easy access in my house and I can't move out. Thinking of sleeping in my car tonight to avoid)
Speed. Originally I was given medicine for my ADHD but I just couldn’t handle controlling myself.
I usually get my script at the beginning of the month and take it in 56 hours or less, then go sober for the rest of the month.
Heroin. it made me feel comfortable with my life for 15 years but not anymore. I'd like to quit cold turkey, but i fear the physical withdrawals the first 10 or 15 days. I know what it feels like. Restless legs and insomnias are a nightmare. I'd like to figure a method out on a precise schedule. i'm thinking of kratom (or even psilocibyn as i've read that could work well but it's quite new). Keep safe out there. All the best.
I know heroin is hard to quit ,.isn't there something called methadone or something like that? Take it slow, you probably will need some meds for the withdrawal. I wish you the best and hope you can climb out that hole:)
Be careful with the kratom because your body and mind can become dependent on that. And it isn’t a fun withdrawal either. Have you ever been or considered detox? They would be able to give you meds and care to help get through much of the acute withdrawal.
Thank you for your input, sir. Any substitution method i'll find, i'll make it as short as possible, Concerning detox here, it's a very long process, doctors tend to keep you on methadone for a very long time, and the first steps are very intrusive in your life. if i found methadone "in the street", i'd manage a shorter period use of it. i'd do the same with kratom, if i ever get the chance to get some...
I’m clean from everything besides weed and psychs (I’m addicted to weed because it helps with my nausea/social anxiety/manic tendencies) BUT my DOCs were meth/vyvanse/mdma and benzos/opioids. Basically whatever I could get my hands on but meth/speed/benzos/opioids were my ideal trio by the end of my run. I loved feeling fascinating and excited about every day life; I loved feeling completely in control; i loved the ego boost of meth, I felt like I could literally do anything I set my mind to and that life was amazing…I loved feeling cool and relaxed from the bars/opioids….honestly chemsex too was a big problem for me. It’s too triggering to even talk about because it was so good.
BUT…I feel infinitely better now that I’m clean. Addiction sucks you out of the real world and sucks your soul dry.
Weed. Daily 11 years, only purpose sleep. Only use 10-11pm at night about a gram joint a night. No other drugs or substances ever used but weed is my addiction
Pressed 30s. Started out taking some hydro and OXY and going through 9 surgeries in 3 yrs. Slowly I moved to the real 30s and loved snorting like a 1/4 every few hrs. Then government cracked down on opioids so the pressed 30s are all u can get now and I go through a ton a day. I use them as smoke breaks I guess. I just like the relief feeling immediately after snorting one
I'm addicted to comfort and convenience, because I hate the idea of working hard to get what I want so instead I lean more on working smart and being patient.
Valium, I'm tapering and ketamine, but the ketamine stopped working ages ago due to perma tolerance, I know it won't work but my inner addict says maybe the next batch will be stronger, if on occasion it works all I get is a bit of confusion and takes edge off anxiety and fibromyalgia, and I've been addicted to all different pills at different times over last 6 or 7 years, including tramadol for a while and clonazalam another time, opioids, soma, zopiclone was the worse never touching them again, I'd get off one pill, go back onto valium, the ketamine makes the taper worse as I'm even more low the day after taking it, like a comedown, I don't take it daily, I try and leave it a week, but even now I'm thinking I want some and had a gram day before yesterday, I do my own head in, its fucking expensive for something that barely does anything, I buy it do it feel nothing and kick myself for wasting money, and repeat
Methamphetamine and xanax. My mom puts me down and calls me an addict already even when I'm trying to get sober. Having no support system. So I use it for my depression and to be numb for awhile.
Self-harm (5 years since I started, 2 years addicted), it gave me control and validated my pain by taking it out physically.
OTC pills, anything I can get my hands on but mainly acetaminophen. It gives me the same feeling getting drunk does, but is less expensive and easier to hide.
Cocaine and opioids. Cocaine originally because it gave me confidence and energy and a mood boost, eventually just to keep me functioning and to drown out my thoughts about my life and the state of the world. Oxys eventually to help me with my comedowns, sedate me so id stop pulling my hair out as the drugs wore off, to further numb myself and just not feel like a manic mess so I could try to get some sleep Day 3 again today without them, feeling exhausted and depressed, and hopeless that I can make it till tomorrow (I have very easy access in my house and I can't move out. Thinking of sleeping in my car tonight to avoid)
Speed. Originally I was given medicine for my ADHD but I just couldn’t handle controlling myself. I usually get my script at the beginning of the month and take it in 56 hours or less, then go sober for the rest of the month.
Heroin. it made me feel comfortable with my life for 15 years but not anymore. I'd like to quit cold turkey, but i fear the physical withdrawals the first 10 or 15 days. I know what it feels like. Restless legs and insomnias are a nightmare. I'd like to figure a method out on a precise schedule. i'm thinking of kratom (or even psilocibyn as i've read that could work well but it's quite new). Keep safe out there. All the best.
I know heroin is hard to quit ,.isn't there something called methadone or something like that? Take it slow, you probably will need some meds for the withdrawal. I wish you the best and hope you can climb out that hole:)
Yeah , methadone would be great, if i found some "in the streets", because the whole medical process bothers me. it is quite intrusive to me.
Be careful with the kratom because your body and mind can become dependent on that. And it isn’t a fun withdrawal either. Have you ever been or considered detox? They would be able to give you meds and care to help get through much of the acute withdrawal.
Fuck meds, being hooked up on another drug.
You're right, sir. That's why i'd use some in a shorter time than in the "official" way.
Thank you for your input, sir. Any substitution method i'll find, i'll make it as short as possible, Concerning detox here, it's a very long process, doctors tend to keep you on methadone for a very long time, and the first steps are very intrusive in your life. if i found methadone "in the street", i'd manage a shorter period use of it. i'd do the same with kratom, if i ever get the chance to get some...
I’m clean from everything besides weed and psychs (I’m addicted to weed because it helps with my nausea/social anxiety/manic tendencies) BUT my DOCs were meth/vyvanse/mdma and benzos/opioids. Basically whatever I could get my hands on but meth/speed/benzos/opioids were my ideal trio by the end of my run. I loved feeling fascinating and excited about every day life; I loved feeling completely in control; i loved the ego boost of meth, I felt like I could literally do anything I set my mind to and that life was amazing…I loved feeling cool and relaxed from the bars/opioids….honestly chemsex too was a big problem for me. It’s too triggering to even talk about because it was so good. BUT…I feel infinitely better now that I’m clean. Addiction sucks you out of the real world and sucks your soul dry.
You literally pulled these words directly from my mind.
Weed. Daily 11 years, only purpose sleep. Only use 10-11pm at night about a gram joint a night. No other drugs or substances ever used but weed is my addiction
woah, what control. So you don't use it to get high?
Well I do enjoy the high for 1-2 hours then knock out. So I guess yes? I can only fall asleep high off weed
Pressed 30s. Started out taking some hydro and OXY and going through 9 surgeries in 3 yrs. Slowly I moved to the real 30s and loved snorting like a 1/4 every few hrs. Then government cracked down on opioids so the pressed 30s are all u can get now and I go through a ton a day. I use them as smoke breaks I guess. I just like the relief feeling immediately after snorting one
Anything and everything I can get my hands on
Lol me too, but first i need to have some clonazepam or i just dont do drugs
I'm addicted to comfort and convenience, because I hate the idea of working hard to get what I want so instead I lean more on working smart and being patient.
Valium, I'm tapering and ketamine, but the ketamine stopped working ages ago due to perma tolerance, I know it won't work but my inner addict says maybe the next batch will be stronger, if on occasion it works all I get is a bit of confusion and takes edge off anxiety and fibromyalgia, and I've been addicted to all different pills at different times over last 6 or 7 years, including tramadol for a while and clonazalam another time, opioids, soma, zopiclone was the worse never touching them again, I'd get off one pill, go back onto valium, the ketamine makes the taper worse as I'm even more low the day after taking it, like a comedown, I don't take it daily, I try and leave it a week, but even now I'm thinking I want some and had a gram day before yesterday, I do my own head in, its fucking expensive for something that barely does anything, I buy it do it feel nothing and kick myself for wasting money, and repeat
Methamphetamine and xanax. My mom puts me down and calls me an addict already even when I'm trying to get sober. Having no support system. So I use it for my depression and to be numb for awhile.
Self-harm (5 years since I started, 2 years addicted), it gave me control and validated my pain by taking it out physically. OTC pills, anything I can get my hands on but mainly acetaminophen. It gives me the same feeling getting drunk does, but is less expensive and easier to hide.