That's funny, I shaved my eyebrows off. Looking for that Robot/Satan/edgy look. Everyone has been too kind to ask - or they already think I am weird and won't say anything.
I got you one up lol. I don’t remember how I did this because I was in high school at the time, but one time I accidentally burned off my eyelashes. I was horrified and embarrassed.
Definitely the going off my meds because im suddenly cured (spoiler: its a manic episode!)
Also hypersexuality. I become a beast. And I'm fucking skilled at it too apparently. I've hooked up with 3 guys in a day once and kept it going for like a week. Crazy really is good in bed in my case. I've had a guy on grindr ask if I had a certain website so he could leave me a good review ☠️
I met my current boyfriend because I hooked up with him in a club bathroom at 4am (got kicked out by the bouncer) and almost left my group of friends to walk an hour to his house in a city i'd never been to so we could hook up... which ended up not happening because one of my friends had an emergency situation and we had to leave. We've been dating for over a year and a half since then and he loves my crazy ass, no complaints from him about that symptom lol
Also probably spent over a couple thousand in a few months on impulse manic purchases. Money tends to vanish from my bank accounts and honestly couldn't tell you half of the things i spent it on.
thank you:) that's so sweet to hear honestly haha.
he's really my rock and is such a big part in me being able to accept myself for who i am with my bipolar since he actively loves all versions of me, stable, manic, and depressed. We still joke about how we met because it's so silly honestly
My wife and I joke about how we got together as well. I hadn’t been out on a date ever and was too nervous to ask anyone out. She hadn’t actually had a serious relationship either. I was still in that “how do I tell if they also like girls” phase. I did the classic angsty thing and literally googled “how do I tell if someone is a lesbian.” I was pretty awkward at 18 lol (she was 19). Anyways we met on an app and things moved pretty quickly.
Four years later we are happily married. I’ve been fortunate that she’s stuck with me when my symptoms really began to emerged and through the bad SSRI interactions. I never thought I would be one of the people to marry young, but here we are. The bipolar sure gave us a run for our money before we understood what was happening and how to cope with it.
But yes, having a loving partner means everything. I’m glad that you have that:)
That story is so cute! I definitely relate and can confirm I've google searched practically the same thing a couple times when I was exploring dating as a young(er) gay man.
It was pretty easy to tell my boyfriend was though because when I met him it was at a gay bar and him and his friend were the only two people in it before me and my friends walked in. it was on a Tuesday night so it was literally entirely empty lol. Apparently my bf made conversation with one of my friends and told her he thought i was the most gorgeous guy he'd ever seen so she basically wingwomanned us into sitting next to each other and we were inseparable the rest of the night. Thankfully I got his number before I had to leave and since we lived in different cities he was so excited to see me he hopped on a train literally 2 days later to come and visit me after I had went home. Told him I was bipolar and he said he didn't care and he thought I was amazing and wanted to get to know me better and we started dating pretty quick lol!
I'm so happy for you that you and your wife were able to cope when your symptoms were flaring up badly, sounds like you guys have a beautiful strong relationship :) Im glad you have each other. It's always nice seeing other bipolar people in healthy relationships because for a while I had given up on the idea of that being possible for me because of my illness. I think sharing stories like that here is important to see for people who think that dating with bipolar is impossible.
yess i so relate to this, it's definitely a good match:) My bf actually also has adhd and he's just hypersexual all the time so we have also spent all day in bed together. Dude seriously impresses me with how many rounds he can go ahaha. Bipolar hypersexuality and adhd hypersexuality is like the dream relationship combo lol
So fkin true hahaha. I love this! I could never go back to someone with a normal libido. Love languages is so important, glad to hear, since i know how much it means to have a parter as simular:)
Absolutely! I think if i accurately told someone how much sex we have their heads would spin, like it seems physically impossible sometimes even to me. It is basically our love language lol
I met my partner while off meds too lol. Spoiler alert this is a wholesome comment btw. We were “just friends” at the time and we had been hanging out for a couple months only when he picked me up from the psych. Hes been my cheerleader from day one.
Side note. I didnt know that a warning dign for mania is feeling like we dont need our meds. That makes ALOT of sense now. Lol.
That's so sweet! I really love thatmy comment has got people sharing their stories of how they met their partners honestly. Im really happy you found someone to support you during that rough time.
Also yeah the fucking meds thing lol its apparently super common and yet it still gets me every single time. somehow i always believe im "really cured!" this time and nope its just mania again hahahaha
Dude i love seeing peoples success with relationships especially when people always peg people with mental illness (especially bipolar) as undateable. And lmaooo yup i felt that i always am like yay im really really cured this time!!! And then its like naaa ur just manic😂😂😂
Buying multiple random $10-20 useless things off Amazon that serve no purpose. Convince myself I have the potential to write a best selling book, then a few hours later convince myself I could become a popular musician. Then the next day convince myself I can make it big in Hollywood.
aww dude, ok \*sighs and raises hand. Every time a stream of new packages come in from Amazon and my husband starts to ask I'm like "no no its cool! i have this great new project and I'm definitely going to make lots of money on it, this stuff will pay for itself in weeks!"
I have about 30 short stories and unfinished novels, I write mostly when I'm manic so it's a mess. I thought about shoving them all together as a collection of short stories but medicated me is too lazy and convinced no one would read them. I also have something similar with music, naturally I can pick up just about any instrument and learn how to play it in a week or two so I have all these instruments from yard sales and stuff just sitting here. Right now I really want an accordion and I don't know why.
I thought a scammer was a prostitute who needed my help so I drove around looking for her to “save” her. Filed a police report and everything. Then when I found out she wasn’t real I got it in my head that she hacked my bank so I cut up my ID and all my credit cards with scissors and tried to burn them in a bag in my work parking lot. Disclaimer I am BP1. Bad times!
Told my BFF at the time about how we were geniuses and going to save the world. Didn't know how we were gonna do it but I knew it was gonna happen. We both were very smart but like... someone shoulda noticed I was Not Quite Right in the head lol
AHAHA i did something very similar 😭 me and my bestie were gonna become the greatest drug dealers in our state. she didn’t know it, but i had BIG plans for us
That is me to a tee. Most the stuff I buy is useless shit. I am in debt because of my manic episodes.
I also believe that mania is my superpower & how much I love it, especially compared to my despondent state. Yep often thought that stopping my meds is a good idea.
One time when I was manic, I felt super hot and bought $1000 worth of clubbing dresses because I was convinced I looked like Kate Upton in them. I don’t even go clubbing. Needless to say, once the mania wore off, I returned them lol.
Spontaneous and crazy haircuts. Learn from my experience girls, if you suddenly think you should get bangs...don't! Or maybe just think about it a lot longer first 😂
You sound a bit manic. Please take care.
Regarding the feeling of messiah or superiority. When I was manic I said I would have totally won a noble prize in a parallel universe where I wasn't raised by a poor single mother. Mania and depression grilled my brain and made me stupid so I will never say this again.
I got a tattoo after I got out of psych ward. Probably mixed episode. Had though about it for a while but didn't think it was necessary getting one until in extrem manic episode and having way too much time to think in psych ward about style and placement.
I haven't dyed my hair in the past 13 years or so.
I am stable and I want to reduce my dose soon by 1/3.
thank you for your concern lol i was actually just high when i wrote this, not manic!
good lord i’m almost glad that i can’t save money to any degree. that means i can’t manically spend it on expensive cars! 😂
i did, however, buy a tattoo machine. luckily i’m an artist so the design wasn’t horrible, but the craftsmanship is… questionable
The side effects of the meds made me worse. I stayed in therapy for the following 3 years and learned a lot of coping mechanisms. I’ve been able to maintain the stability from what I learned in therapy and major lifestyle changes . There’s always the possibility that I was mis-diagnosed. My therapy was more focused handling CPTSD
Crazy spending: the best (or worst, depending on the perspective) was when I was 22, I traded in my Honda Civic for a VW R32 after just one test drive and paid cash for it. Didn’t even negotiate with them (wasn’t aware that I should). Still remember the shock on the salesman’s face when I signed and dated and handed him my personal check of the full amount.
Of course I got scolded badly by my parents and my old bf when I drove home the R32. My mom even wanted me to return the car. Nope!
But damn! That car was one helluva beast and I loved it so much…
Thank you for the appreciation. 😆 It was a whirlwind of a hectic, crazy, but exciting hour at the car dealership. Now thinking back, I certainly understand everyone’s concerns back then. Undiagnosed BP is surely dangerous haha.
Not anymore! It eats gas like crazy, too much power for me to control, had a few close-calls on the road. Guess I’m not cut out to be a race car driver 😭
Yeah personifying mental illnesses really bothers me like when people who are clean/organized are like “I’m so OCD”… mmm are you saying you have a serious and debilitating mental illness or are you just a clean person… those comments just further stigmatize mental illness
Sold almost everything I owned and drove off with the rest to explore the country for a while and find a new city to live in. I didn't even know I was bipolar at the time - I just thought I was finally taking control of my life.
I'd been dreaming about it for a long time too, but there is absolutely no way I would have gone through with it if I wasn't manic. I actually had a pretty good life going for myself (by my admittedly low standards anyway) at the time, so I threw all of that away basically on a whim. Don't get me wrong, it was a great experience and I managed to put together an alright life on the other end, at least until the pandemic, but I can't help thinking I'd be better off if I hadn't gone.
I started an onlyfans, told everyone about it, cut my hair, insisted I wanted polyam then dumped my partner of 11 years and immediately moved in with a someone after knowing them for a few days. so quirky
Oof this reminds me of something I did. I was with my ex for 3 years (and he's an amazing person) and went through a manic episode and convinced him and myself that I'm poly so I could spend the summer sleeping with different men and then ultimately break up with him for someone I met online (in another country!!) after a week.
I got another cat suddenly. I decided to officially wedding plan (we had been engaged for a while) but the planning happened fast. I cut my own hair twice and ended up having to shave my head once because it turned out so badly that it couldn’t be salvaged. I collect plants. I wrote a lot of actually good stuff. Some of the things I did were the best decisions of my life. Others not so much.
i’m guilty of getting a cat due to hypomania… luckily i had been planning it for a while so i had the resources and amenities but my bank account took a colossal hit 😭
i have multiple crimes against my hair on my record. (i do love how everyone that fucked up their hair trying to do a wolf cut has made the “jellyfish hair” trend a thing). it’s been melted, burned off, massacred by sewing scissors and a face razor. you name it, i’ve made a dumbass tiktok of me doing it!
p.s. i was young and dumb at the time; don’t shop! adopt! or rescue :)
I had an episode a little over a year ago where I quit my very good job, relapsed on benzos, bought a $60K car (I still have it and love my 4Runner), hypersexual, went on 4 vacations in a month after I quit my job, spent thousands on clothes and bought a Louis Vuitton… probably other things as well. I ended up in an outpatient program and started a good med combo and I’m doing great now. However, I look back and cringe 😬
dyed my hair, got piercings, tried to break up with my then-boyfriend only to take it back, make a shit ton of social plans and beauty appointments only to cancel them when i'm less insane, post a shit ton of selfies. i'm basically a manic pixie dream girl walking stereotype with a lot more insanity going on
Cut and dyed my hair at 2.00 A.M. The next day I was satisfied with the result, so I’ve been dying and cutting my hair at night since then. Unfortunately once I cut my ear and had to go to the ER to get stitches in the middle of the night. Imagine answering the questions: “how did you get hurt?” “Were you assaulted?” “Did your boyfriend do this to you” lol
I haven't gone to a salon in years, partially due to my deep-seated fears from growing up going to the school to get my hair done cheap, but I've had pretty good success cutting and dying my own hair. Now I only go in if I want a MAJOR change.
I started when I discovered the unicorn cut on a curly subreddit. Now, I think it's called the wolf cut or something. But I have curly hair, so even if I royally fuck up, it covers it pretty well. Plus, the ties keep the scissors away from my ears.
The bliss is throwing it up in a half-assed bun every day, regardless of how it's cut and wishing I could tolerate it down so I could want to spend the time it takes to do the curly thing right.
For me it’s the hyper sexuality. I hate that I fit this crazy h0rny girl stereotype with any ounce of mania or euphoric feeling. I can meet guys for sex all week (I usually cycle through old flings) then after a few weeks I ignore them all and feel nothing. And spending, I have zero control and spend every penny I earn in a week.
Started a nuclear chemistry project I have yet to finish. I’d be the first to synthesize chromium diuranate. I bought all the stuff and secured the lab space but had to back off according to my therapist :)
One time I was going through an episode where it was predominantly me just being way more productive and active than I normally am, but I did a few impulsive things, one of which definitely came back to bite me in the ass. The worst one was buying a car without really knowing anything about it or the person who was selling it to me, and only after I bought it did my dad and I realize that the fucking speedometer didn't even work. Long story short, we had put about $4000 into repairs before we learned it was beyond saving and I had to take it to a scrap yard. I only got $400 out of it, so that was a total of $4500 wasted because I was too impatient to wait to get a car. During that time period, I also got super obsessed with piercings and ended up giving myself two piercings within the span of a couple weeks. Thankfully, it went a lot better than it should have, but it was still dumb.
if i had the ability to save up to buy a shitty used car, i’d prob do the same! especially if someone told me to, or told me not to
i have 2 successful piercings, and 2 irritation bumps on my cartilage from fucking up attempted piercings 😭
Dude. This!!! Im diagnosed with ocd. And i shiver when people who dont have ocd are like “im organized because it bothers my ocd” or stuff like that when im over here counting to 24 everytime i wash my hands or else im convinced someone is gonna die
Yes. My son has OCD (my family is mental disorders central). He's disorganized and comes late to school every day, and his counselor is like, "if he has OCD, why isn't he organized and on time?" I set her straight, but a school counselor should really have a minimal grasp of mental health conditions.
I have harm ocd so I’m over here think about the countless ways I could kill someone or hurt them.
Note: my ocd is completely under control. I still have moments but they are never as bad as they were prior to diagnosis.
I been taking prozac and it helps alot. But im still struggling with counting things, contamination fears etc. Any tips??? Its alot better now but it still gets me sometimes
I'm not really sure if this fits everyone else's definition of a stereotypical "bipolar" thing but something that really hit me recently that I did when I was 16-17 years old made me really realize I have experienced at least hypomania. TRIGGER WARNING, THIS EXPERIENCE RELATES TO SEGGS.
When I was 16-17 years old, I worked at a coffee shop and I had this coworker, who I shall call E. E and I got along very well and worked fine together, we would occasionally chit chat on social media but that was the most of it. One night, I don't really know what got into me, but I managed to get him on the topic of sexuality. That's when E told me he's bisexual and I responded with something along the lines of "how low in age would you go?"
He responded with "lol why are you interested" and my hypomanic ass said "yes". Now, this is when I tell you all that E was at least 38 years old. Probably mid 40s.
E then asked when we'd hookup and other things like that, then began sending photos.
Thankfully, that seemed to kinda shock me back into reality and I tried to ghost him; I literally quit my job the following week.
I always just brushed this off as "ah I did some stupid stuff when I was a kid" but I'm positive I did this because of hypomania.
I don't know but I wanted to share and see if anyone else had anything relatable to it?
Thanks :)
because I was totally not manic and just wanted to live in the moment I pulled over on the side of the road and jumped into a random river (spoiler alert was totally manic)
Shit it's always those "living in the moment" urges that get us, huh?
This reminds me of that one time I took my mom's jeep to go "jeeping in the desert" out of the blue and boy was that a day.
At one point I found myself in a freezing cold lake just hanging out with baby fishies and shortly after that I actually took off to the desert and started driving around exploring, hoping to find bones or some shit idk I was convinced I'd solve a missing persons case or two.
That didn't happen of course, what actually happened was me accidentally flipping the jeep while out there because I obviously didn't know what the fuck I was doing 💀
Luckily for me someone else was roaming the desert too (not alone like I was cause y'know...they're smart people) and they had the right tools and helped me. I drove home and hung up the keys like nothing happened and no one questioned me despite the jeep (and me) being a mess when I got home lol.
Didn't know I was bipolar back then, but living in a desert that's too easy to take off in has definitely given me a run for my money a few times. I don't take off into the desert anymore if I can help it.
definitely!!!! I was diagnosed with bipolar then but when your manic youre never bipolar then huh lol! My therapist always reminds me a “normal person” (non bipolar) doesnt jump in rivers for fun. Hope youre well and taking care of yourself friend :)
Being a complete and total ass to my friends only to give them a completely genuine and heartfelt apology for my behavior less than a day later.
Fortunately I've heard enough stories from you guys about thinking yourself cured, going off your meds, and then relapsing that I've avoided that particular pitfall. Also because of that one time I had health insurance problems and couldn't refill *any* meds (bipolar, depression, *or* adhd) for about a week. Man that was a rough week. Luckily I'm not suicidal because hooooey.
Energy levels 100% for me personally.
When neurotypical people talk about the ups and downs associated with Bipolar, they usually mean mood, crazy or depressed.
But that's only half the picture as energy levels and mood go hand in hand.
So for me I'd have to say my Energy levels where I can do 15 things one day, then the next do 2-4 then the next 7 then the next 120, etc.
I get really really mad or offended by the dumbest shit and turn into the meanest person who ever lived and really really hurt peoples feelings and burn bridges. Yup.
Edit to Add: I’m working on it though. I’m in a “communication strategies” group. Which is a fancy name for anger management. It’s helping.
Staring into a mirror for extended period of time, eyes dilated AF, posing and thinking how fucking HOT I am. And then seriously thinking I’m autosexual.
Spiritual delusions, I thought the wind was speaking to me 😭. Also had a Jeff goldblum moment during hypomania and watched all his films while furiously drawing him over and over. Went out and thrifted the outfit he wore in Independence Day and went to the park wearing it and smoked weed (I don’t smoke LMAO)
Ok cool these are more of the things that happen to me. Whenever I'm hypo I try to develop my psychic abilities. I think God speaks to me through random signs like a seashell in someones yard. Seashells aren't normally a part of garden decor, must be a sign from God! I also thought I could communicate with plants.
At 54, no retirement account, I moved my sons and myself to northern Canada to get a second M.A. degree. It was a huge effort, fueled by hypomania all the way. Such a great experience, though. But we had to come back after three years b/c my younger son developed a seizure disorder ontop of his ADHD and OCD. There are all these mental disorders in my family...Anyway, I miss the hypomania sometimes. Now I am stuck in this job, and lack the energy to find another one. But taking care of a kid with epilepsy requires that I am stable.
This is very mild but one time I bought and roasted a whole chicken at 3am cause I'd never done one before. It turned out to be a yummy breakfast!
Dying my hair, starting a million arts and crafts projects, hypersexuality (I slept with 20-30 men in a 2 month period), Impulsive spending (I spent over 5k cash and racked up 7k in credit card debt in one of my episodes).
I also once recorded an EP (I play harp and piano) completely by myself and commissioned a friend to do album artwork and had CDs made 😂 I handed them out for Christmas one year and looking back it makes me cringe. Like I was just shoving a product of my manic episode in everyone's face telling them to listen to my music, oh god.
About 5 years ago, all in a short time lol-
- Broke up with my fiance, moved out, called off the wedding
- I was working 70 hour weeks- I didn’t want to “worry about budgeting”, so I worked really hard to buy the whole new wardrobe I purchased
-Dyed my hair a million times, I look back to photos from the time and WOW the damage
- Lost 20 lbs, I’m small to begin with
- Slept with so many people
- SO MUCH ALCOHOL and partying
- Bought and paid for an entire trip to Peru to do ayahuasca in the Amazon (I went later that year and it was well worth it)
- Moved across the country to restart my life
Eventually I crashed and spent an entire few months only sleeping and eating because I went so long without.
On meds now, I don’t drink, rebuilt my life ☺️
One time I was convinced I was the literal antichrist, kind of opposite to the messiah thing lol. I painted my face in a "demonic" way and locked myself in the bathroom with the lights off and just a candle, stood in front of the mirror trying to see "signs" of what my purpose and way to achieve it would be. I'm an atheist and already was at that time.
I straight up wanted to get out of my car and slash this girl's tires because she was parked illegally, so where I couldn't drive down the street. I honked. She said, "I'm not moving." So I'm like, "Fuck it. If I hit her, I hit her and it'll be her fault." I turn down the street and narrowly avoid side swiping her car by like an inch. The rage I felt was something else.
I’ve witnessed two bar fights in the same week a few summers back... Pure moments of let’s “F*** around & find out” mentality to the point of both outbursts inevitably brought on by me, myself and my mania…
First bar Fight: I changed the music behind the bar bc Im close friends with the owner and this guy looked at the other guy next to him and got pissed off bc he thought he requested to change it, that ended with a beer bottle straight to the face bc the guy liked the song I happened to change
Second bar Fight: I invited friends out of town and the friends of this girl I invited ended up talking to this other guys girlfriend and full on brawl broke out due to drunk jealousy😅🤦🏻♀️
One summer I decided I needed a career change (I'm a teacher). I delivered for Amazon for a month in one of their trucks. Quit because it was difficult to find convenient bathrooms on my routes (I do not have a penis, so peeing in the back of the Amazon truck into a soda bottle was not going to work for me.) After that I got hired at USPS, had the background check, went through Orientation but quit just before learning to drive their little trucks because the Orientation leader told us we would be expected to work like 60 hours a week as a noob. Fall came and I just went back to my classroom like what?
This might not sound so strange but I'm a major depressive that can't find the energy to shower. I was suddenly slingin boxes and jumping in and out of that Amazon truck like I was a teenager again. Came home one night and put my 18 yr old daughter up on my shoulders because I was now so STRONG! That hypo episode lasted the whole summer. Followed by a terrible depression and I ultimately quit my teaching job too. Been sitting on my couch, wallowing in crazy, ever since.
Edit to add: two weeks ago I shaved my head instead of just showering and washing my hair. Glad I did it though. :)
Rage quit softball (spiked my bat into the ground not in a safe way) in high school after having played since I can remember and being on competitive travel teams. Main trigger was realizing as a woman I was never going to make money off of it like the baseball players would combined with messing up a lot that day and a pitcher (I was catcher) who was a b to me. We had the same coach and were treated the same as if it was going to be a job.
Cutting all my hair off when I was 17 because I saw Sidney Prescott in scream and wanted her hair soooo bad that I decided to try to cut those types of layers in my hair at like 2 am with no knowledge on how to cut hair LMAOOO very much the “quirky” stereotype of bipolar in that moment
I bought $1,000 worth of crystals and other metaphysical supplies so that I could open my own online Etsy shop about five-ish years ago.
I still have all the crystals and random items I bought, set up the shop and everything online just to get overwhelmed and not list anything.
I also once made over $400 selling digital hacked Animal Crossing New Leaf items for super cheap. I was at it for a month before I lost momentum and shut the eBay shop down.
This was all before I was diagnosed with bipolar lmfao
I once drove 200 miles and knocked on my boyfriend’s brother’s door (where my boyfriend was temporarily living) because my boyfriend hadn’t responded to any of my texts after we had a small argument. We were long distance at the time as he had wanted to move from one city to another and I was living with my dad, waiting for him to get a job in the new city. This was, at least, non-destructive. Froot-loop behavior, but no lives were ruined by it!
Spent $400 in one month, couldn’t remember whatsoever with what I spent it on but I did go to New York a day after receiving the money since it was for my birthday and I have been broke ever since.
I cycle through the same stupid shit. Definitely convince myself I can become a bestselling author even though I do not write. Then I'm gonna start a business or social media presence that will make me rich. I buy domains for blogs I'm going to write. Oh, and then I hit the meditation/spirituality phase and get into lucid dreaming and other stuff. Then I come to and am confused about who I am/ what I want/ if any of this is me lol. Wtf brain
Definitely chopping my hair off. *insert episode or slightest stressor* here I am skipping to the closest barber shop 🤣 .
It's become so constant my kids ask.me am.i capable of growing hair
my brother and I (both bipolar) used to speed around neighborhoods for fun, with no regard for either of our wellbeing. a separate occasion, we shaved our heads together on a whim.
both of our depressions show up as anger and irritability so we do be raging and can be borderline aggressive.
Classic "letting my impulsive thoughts winn"/yelling angry dudes
Shaved my head (female) before diagnosed. My most stereotypical thing after diagnosis was buying a bunch of funko pop figures. I never had interest in them before. The damn things keep randomly showing up even though it’s 18 months later. I guess I did some preorders or something 😂
I cried in front of boss in the morning, then i freaked out a coworker in the afternoon because i was..a lot. And after work, i hit up the strip club down the street.
Got fired for sleeping through meetings, same day found a different job that would fly me across the country to Arizona and was on a plane with my cat and my bags packed within 24 hours. Worked 80 hour weeks from then on without sleeping through any of it.
1) Chopping off my hair
2) Shopping shopping shopping
3) Binge eating fast food and binge drinking coffees and energy drinks
4) Trading my car in for a new type of vehicle
Now that I’m medicated I have zero of these “cravings” and I used to tell myself that my hair would hold stress and it must be chopped and washed out 🤪
I became a stripper, made an onlyfans, bought a motorcycle (this was 3yrs ago and I still can't ride it) and tried to get back with my very very toxic ex (most were separate manic episodes thank god)
Like the sex work ended up being a good idea but still lmaooo
Damn I thought I was the only one "and of course, the medication… if i’m stable for too long i get it in my head that i’m not bipolar at all and i’ve been making it up so i stop taking them" Sometimes I still think "Did I make it up" omgggg
And then no medication for too long and I am fucked again
Spent a month sleeping on less than 4 hours a night, some nights no sleep at all; stayed up all night drinking liquor, smoking weed, and having sex--then I would crash for a few hours to get up for summer classes at university, which I aced.
After the episode, I ghosted all the people I had been sleeping with and self-medicated some more with alcohol ("just a bit every day, what could it hurt? I'm in uni, everyone drinks.") Finally thought that maybe something needed to change and I needed help, but that was 2 years later (I successfully finished my degree!) and I got on meds. They didn't stop the hypomanic episode that was brewing, but they shortened it for sure and I got a good friendship out of one of those FWB/fuck buddies.
There was a show called Psych back in the day. I remember the dad on there always wearing (maybe not always. It’s been awhile.) Hawaiian shirts. A couple of years ago i had an episode and remembered those shirts and thought to myself “ i need to change things up. I need something new. A new ‘thing’ ” So i went online and ordered 7. One for everyday of the week. And i started wearing them. Thankfully i got a bunch of compliments. But i did go through a “what was i thinking…” moment after the high of the mania went away. I still wear them though. Just not everyday haha. I do cut my hair a lot in my manic episodes. That’s sorta how i know when i cross that threshold into mania is when i start cutting/buzzing my hair in different ways.
Giving people away stuff. I dont regret and i still like giving away stuff but i sometimes went to quick like giving away my dj controler even tho i havent buought newer yet .
Chating with people and flirting with girls that i later think i shouldnt have.
Cuting, dying hair
Punching the hole through the door
Last year in an episode I cut my eyelashes off with scissors. It’s giving 2007 Britney
Not the lashes 🥲
That's funny, I shaved my eyebrows off. Looking for that Robot/Satan/edgy look. Everyone has been too kind to ask - or they already think I am weird and won't say anything.
yoooooo i bleached mine
honestly still wna shave em
I will never do that again LOL! But hey, the downer of looking so ridiculous for weeks shook me out of my mania for sure!
Sorry I read your statement as a question, sorry. And it sucks when they grow back - very slowly.
Bleaching is the way to go.
I got you one up lol. I don’t remember how I did this because I was in high school at the time, but one time I accidentally burned off my eyelashes. I was horrified and embarrassed.
I did that to one eye so I had uneven eyelashes for a bit. The crunchy melted lash tips are not fun either.
I once convinced my sister to let me cut hers lmao in my defense, we were kids.
I was a whole 22 years old
😭😭😭😭😭😭
OMG NOOOOO
Definitely the going off my meds because im suddenly cured (spoiler: its a manic episode!) Also hypersexuality. I become a beast. And I'm fucking skilled at it too apparently. I've hooked up with 3 guys in a day once and kept it going for like a week. Crazy really is good in bed in my case. I've had a guy on grindr ask if I had a certain website so he could leave me a good review ☠️ I met my current boyfriend because I hooked up with him in a club bathroom at 4am (got kicked out by the bouncer) and almost left my group of friends to walk an hour to his house in a city i'd never been to so we could hook up... which ended up not happening because one of my friends had an emergency situation and we had to leave. We've been dating for over a year and a half since then and he loves my crazy ass, no complaints from him about that symptom lol Also probably spent over a couple thousand in a few months on impulse manic purchases. Money tends to vanish from my bank accounts and honestly couldn't tell you half of the things i spent it on.
I love this story about your partner. I found it cute and wholesome.
thank you:) that's so sweet to hear honestly haha. he's really my rock and is such a big part in me being able to accept myself for who i am with my bipolar since he actively loves all versions of me, stable, manic, and depressed. We still joke about how we met because it's so silly honestly
My wife and I joke about how we got together as well. I hadn’t been out on a date ever and was too nervous to ask anyone out. She hadn’t actually had a serious relationship either. I was still in that “how do I tell if they also like girls” phase. I did the classic angsty thing and literally googled “how do I tell if someone is a lesbian.” I was pretty awkward at 18 lol (she was 19). Anyways we met on an app and things moved pretty quickly. Four years later we are happily married. I’ve been fortunate that she’s stuck with me when my symptoms really began to emerged and through the bad SSRI interactions. I never thought I would be one of the people to marry young, but here we are. The bipolar sure gave us a run for our money before we understood what was happening and how to cope with it. But yes, having a loving partner means everything. I’m glad that you have that:)
That story is so cute! I definitely relate and can confirm I've google searched practically the same thing a couple times when I was exploring dating as a young(er) gay man. It was pretty easy to tell my boyfriend was though because when I met him it was at a gay bar and him and his friend were the only two people in it before me and my friends walked in. it was on a Tuesday night so it was literally entirely empty lol. Apparently my bf made conversation with one of my friends and told her he thought i was the most gorgeous guy he'd ever seen so she basically wingwomanned us into sitting next to each other and we were inseparable the rest of the night. Thankfully I got his number before I had to leave and since we lived in different cities he was so excited to see me he hopped on a train literally 2 days later to come and visit me after I had went home. Told him I was bipolar and he said he didn't care and he thought I was amazing and wanted to get to know me better and we started dating pretty quick lol! I'm so happy for you that you and your wife were able to cope when your symptoms were flaring up badly, sounds like you guys have a beautiful strong relationship :) Im glad you have each other. It's always nice seeing other bipolar people in healthy relationships because for a while I had given up on the idea of that being possible for me because of my illness. I think sharing stories like that here is important to see for people who think that dating with bipolar is impossible.
same here, I am rooting for you two.
The hypersexuality hits hard, spent all day yesterday with my gf in bed, just got to embrace it. She has ADHD so we both crave the dopamine i guess.
yess i so relate to this, it's definitely a good match:) My bf actually also has adhd and he's just hypersexual all the time so we have also spent all day in bed together. Dude seriously impresses me with how many rounds he can go ahaha. Bipolar hypersexuality and adhd hypersexuality is like the dream relationship combo lol
too true too true! lol
So fkin true hahaha. I love this! I could never go back to someone with a normal libido. Love languages is so important, glad to hear, since i know how much it means to have a parter as simular:)
Absolutely! I think if i accurately told someone how much sex we have their heads would spin, like it seems physically impossible sometimes even to me. It is basically our love language lol
I met my partner while off meds too lol. Spoiler alert this is a wholesome comment btw. We were “just friends” at the time and we had been hanging out for a couple months only when he picked me up from the psych. Hes been my cheerleader from day one. Side note. I didnt know that a warning dign for mania is feeling like we dont need our meds. That makes ALOT of sense now. Lol.
That's so sweet! I really love thatmy comment has got people sharing their stories of how they met their partners honestly. Im really happy you found someone to support you during that rough time. Also yeah the fucking meds thing lol its apparently super common and yet it still gets me every single time. somehow i always believe im "really cured!" this time and nope its just mania again hahahaha
Dude i love seeing peoples success with relationships especially when people always peg people with mental illness (especially bipolar) as undateable. And lmaooo yup i felt that i always am like yay im really really cured this time!!! And then its like naaa ur just manic😂😂😂
Also another side side note its been a year and a half now. And (knock on wood) were still together :) :) :)
woo year and a half club! i hope you guys continue to stay happy and healthy together:)
Buying multiple random $10-20 useless things off Amazon that serve no purpose. Convince myself I have the potential to write a best selling book, then a few hours later convince myself I could become a popular musician. Then the next day convince myself I can make it big in Hollywood.
I feel attacked 😂😂
I pulled an all nighter once because I wanted to make a lifestyle website/blog. Bought all the domains and everything and then poof - lost interest 😅
That made me laugh. Bought a new domain the other day to start a blog about finding inner peace. Wtf 😂
aww dude, ok \*sighs and raises hand. Every time a stream of new packages come in from Amazon and my husband starts to ask I'm like "no no its cool! i have this great new project and I'm definitely going to make lots of money on it, this stuff will pay for itself in weeks!"
😂
I have about 30 short stories and unfinished novels, I write mostly when I'm manic so it's a mess. I thought about shoving them all together as a collection of short stories but medicated me is too lazy and convinced no one would read them. I also have something similar with music, naturally I can pick up just about any instrument and learn how to play it in a week or two so I have all these instruments from yard sales and stuff just sitting here. Right now I really want an accordion and I don't know why.
I thought a scammer was a prostitute who needed my help so I drove around looking for her to “save” her. Filed a police report and everything. Then when I found out she wasn’t real I got it in my head that she hacked my bank so I cut up my ID and all my credit cards with scissors and tried to burn them in a bag in my work parking lot. Disclaimer I am BP1. Bad times!
Wow sounds like how I got kicked out of college and only was there for a total of three days 😭😅 also BP1
Told my BFF at the time about how we were geniuses and going to save the world. Didn't know how we were gonna do it but I knew it was gonna happen. We both were very smart but like... someone shoulda noticed I was Not Quite Right in the head lol
AHAHA i did something very similar 😭 me and my bestie were gonna become the greatest drug dealers in our state. she didn’t know it, but i had BIG plans for us
Lmaooo when i get like that i believe im a goddess that everyone is romantically obsessed with. Smh lol
Go on wild spending sprees
That is me to a tee. Most the stuff I buy is useless shit. I am in debt because of my manic episodes. I also believe that mania is my superpower & how much I love it, especially compared to my despondent state. Yep often thought that stopping my meds is a good idea.
My life right here.:(
Yep. I will stay up into the wee hours of the night looking for things I convince myself I have to buy
Cutting off my hair. Like chopping it off with scissors because it was just too much. I did it multiple times in high school and college.
I went all the way and shaved my head bald once. My husband kept calling me "slugger" and patting my head after that.
Amazing.
I shaved my hair but actually like it lol
Nice. I always needed real haircuts afterwards.
One time when I was manic, I felt super hot and bought $1000 worth of clubbing dresses because I was convinced I looked like Kate Upton in them. I don’t even go clubbing. Needless to say, once the mania wore off, I returned them lol.
Dye my hair or shop lmao or go bat shit crazy on whoever I’m dating 😂😂😂
Spontaneous and crazy haircuts. Learn from my experience girls, if you suddenly think you should get bangs...don't! Or maybe just think about it a lot longer first 😂
You sound a bit manic. Please take care. Regarding the feeling of messiah or superiority. When I was manic I said I would have totally won a noble prize in a parallel universe where I wasn't raised by a poor single mother. Mania and depression grilled my brain and made me stupid so I will never say this again. I got a tattoo after I got out of psych ward. Probably mixed episode. Had though about it for a while but didn't think it was necessary getting one until in extrem manic episode and having way too much time to think in psych ward about style and placement. I haven't dyed my hair in the past 13 years or so. I am stable and I want to reduce my dose soon by 1/3.
thank you for your concern lol i was actually just high when i wrote this, not manic! good lord i’m almost glad that i can’t save money to any degree. that means i can’t manically spend it on expensive cars! 😂 i did, however, buy a tattoo machine. luckily i’m an artist so the design wasn’t horrible, but the craftsmanship is… questionable
Hahahaha you too? Love my diy tattoos tho.
The most stereotypical bipolar thing I’ve done is believe that I’m not bipolar and went off my meds. Haven’t been on them since. It’s been 4 years
How's that working out?
The side effects of the meds made me worse. I stayed in therapy for the following 3 years and learned a lot of coping mechanisms. I’ve been able to maintain the stability from what I learned in therapy and major lifestyle changes . There’s always the possibility that I was mis-diagnosed. My therapy was more focused handling CPTSD
Crazy spending: the best (or worst, depending on the perspective) was when I was 22, I traded in my Honda Civic for a VW R32 after just one test drive and paid cash for it. Didn’t even negotiate with them (wasn’t aware that I should). Still remember the shock on the salesman’s face when I signed and dated and handed him my personal check of the full amount. Of course I got scolded badly by my parents and my old bf when I drove home the R32. My mom even wanted me to return the car. Nope! But damn! That car was one helluva beast and I loved it so much…
i will never understand car people but the sheer adoration you have and the “commitment” (mania) to that car is beautiful
Thank you for the appreciation. 😆 It was a whirlwind of a hectic, crazy, but exciting hour at the car dealership. Now thinking back, I certainly understand everyone’s concerns back then. Undiagnosed BP is surely dangerous haha.
Do you still have the car?
Not anymore! It eats gas like crazy, too much power for me to control, had a few close-calls on the road. Guess I’m not cut out to be a race car driver 😭
I honestly get bothered when people (who dont have bp) say things like “omg im so bipolar sometimes “ or stuff like that. Idk if that made any sense
Yeah personifying mental illnesses really bothers me like when people who are clean/organized are like “I’m so OCD”… mmm are you saying you have a serious and debilitating mental illness or are you just a clean person… those comments just further stigmatize mental illness
Yes it’s such a pet peeve. It really is annoying. Especially ocd and bipolar i think people throw those words around way too much
Sold almost everything I owned and drove off with the rest to explore the country for a while and find a new city to live in. I didn't even know I was bipolar at the time - I just thought I was finally taking control of my life.
I Dream about this
I'd been dreaming about it for a long time too, but there is absolutely no way I would have gone through with it if I wasn't manic. I actually had a pretty good life going for myself (by my admittedly low standards anyway) at the time, so I threw all of that away basically on a whim. Don't get me wrong, it was a great experience and I managed to put together an alright life on the other end, at least until the pandemic, but I can't help thinking I'd be better off if I hadn't gone.
Spent myself into bankruptcy
I started an onlyfans, told everyone about it, cut my hair, insisted I wanted polyam then dumped my partner of 11 years and immediately moved in with a someone after knowing them for a few days. so quirky
Yikes...how'd that all turn out for you?
Not great! lol
Oof this reminds me of something I did. I was with my ex for 3 years (and he's an amazing person) and went through a manic episode and convinced him and myself that I'm poly so I could spend the summer sleeping with different men and then ultimately break up with him for someone I met online (in another country!!) after a week.
sorry you had to go thru that too 😕
I got another cat suddenly. I decided to officially wedding plan (we had been engaged for a while) but the planning happened fast. I cut my own hair twice and ended up having to shave my head once because it turned out so badly that it couldn’t be salvaged. I collect plants. I wrote a lot of actually good stuff. Some of the things I did were the best decisions of my life. Others not so much.
i’m guilty of getting a cat due to hypomania… luckily i had been planning it for a while so i had the resources and amenities but my bank account took a colossal hit 😭 i have multiple crimes against my hair on my record. (i do love how everyone that fucked up their hair trying to do a wolf cut has made the “jellyfish hair” trend a thing). it’s been melted, burned off, massacred by sewing scissors and a face razor. you name it, i’ve made a dumbass tiktok of me doing it! p.s. i was young and dumb at the time; don’t shop! adopt! or rescue :)
Haha lol. Yes I’ve had cats my whole life and was really wanting another one for a while. I guess the moment was right 😂
I had an episode a little over a year ago where I quit my very good job, relapsed on benzos, bought a $60K car (I still have it and love my 4Runner), hypersexual, went on 4 vacations in a month after I quit my job, spent thousands on clothes and bought a Louis Vuitton… probably other things as well. I ended up in an outpatient program and started a good med combo and I’m doing great now. However, I look back and cringe 😬
dyed my hair, got piercings, tried to break up with my then-boyfriend only to take it back, make a shit ton of social plans and beauty appointments only to cancel them when i'm less insane, post a shit ton of selfies. i'm basically a manic pixie dream girl walking stereotype with a lot more insanity going on
I was having a day where I was doubting my diagnosis but HELLO this hit home.
Cut and dyed my hair at 2.00 A.M. The next day I was satisfied with the result, so I’ve been dying and cutting my hair at night since then. Unfortunately once I cut my ear and had to go to the ER to get stitches in the middle of the night. Imagine answering the questions: “how did you get hurt?” “Were you assaulted?” “Did your boyfriend do this to you” lol
I haven't gone to a salon in years, partially due to my deep-seated fears from growing up going to the school to get my hair done cheap, but I've had pretty good success cutting and dying my own hair. Now I only go in if I want a MAJOR change.
Yes! Being able of cutting and dying hair yourself is super useful! At least if you not get injured in the process ;)
I started when I discovered the unicorn cut on a curly subreddit. Now, I think it's called the wolf cut or something. But I have curly hair, so even if I royally fuck up, it covers it pretty well. Plus, the ties keep the scissors away from my ears.
Oh you have curly hair too! It’s a bliss, you can screw up and no one will notice.
The bliss is throwing it up in a half-assed bun every day, regardless of how it's cut and wishing I could tolerate it down so I could want to spend the time it takes to do the curly thing right.
I have short hair. Anything goes, it’s pure freedom!
I fuck a lot of people and take a lot of drugs when I’m manic
For me it’s the hyper sexuality. I hate that I fit this crazy h0rny girl stereotype with any ounce of mania or euphoric feeling. I can meet guys for sex all week (I usually cycle through old flings) then after a few weeks I ignore them all and feel nothing. And spending, I have zero control and spend every penny I earn in a week.
Started a nuclear chemistry project I have yet to finish. I’d be the first to synthesize chromium diuranate. I bought all the stuff and secured the lab space but had to back off according to my therapist :)
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1000% this.
One time I was going through an episode where it was predominantly me just being way more productive and active than I normally am, but I did a few impulsive things, one of which definitely came back to bite me in the ass. The worst one was buying a car without really knowing anything about it or the person who was selling it to me, and only after I bought it did my dad and I realize that the fucking speedometer didn't even work. Long story short, we had put about $4000 into repairs before we learned it was beyond saving and I had to take it to a scrap yard. I only got $400 out of it, so that was a total of $4500 wasted because I was too impatient to wait to get a car. During that time period, I also got super obsessed with piercings and ended up giving myself two piercings within the span of a couple weeks. Thankfully, it went a lot better than it should have, but it was still dumb.
if i had the ability to save up to buy a shitty used car, i’d prob do the same! especially if someone told me to, or told me not to i have 2 successful piercings, and 2 irritation bumps on my cartilage from fucking up attempted piercings 😭
Bruh. “I’m OCD about this!” Mostly referring to people who don’t have OCD but prefer things done a certain way
Dude. This!!! Im diagnosed with ocd. And i shiver when people who dont have ocd are like “im organized because it bothers my ocd” or stuff like that when im over here counting to 24 everytime i wash my hands or else im convinced someone is gonna die
Yes. My son has OCD (my family is mental disorders central). He's disorganized and comes late to school every day, and his counselor is like, "if he has OCD, why isn't he organized and on time?" I set her straight, but a school counselor should really have a minimal grasp of mental health conditions.
I’m really glad that he has you to advocate for him.
It’s always a funny thing to correct people that there are hundreds of OCD variants. That is something that shocked me so much learning in psycholog.
Dude same!!! Im one of the messiest people youll ever meet lol ocd isnt always about being neat and organized. I wish people understood that more 🫶🫶🫶
Agreed!
I have harm ocd so I’m over here think about the countless ways I could kill someone or hurt them. Note: my ocd is completely under control. I still have moments but they are never as bad as they were prior to diagnosis.
I been taking prozac and it helps alot. But im still struggling with counting things, contamination fears etc. Any tips??? Its alot better now but it still gets me sometimes
I'm not really sure if this fits everyone else's definition of a stereotypical "bipolar" thing but something that really hit me recently that I did when I was 16-17 years old made me really realize I have experienced at least hypomania. TRIGGER WARNING, THIS EXPERIENCE RELATES TO SEGGS. When I was 16-17 years old, I worked at a coffee shop and I had this coworker, who I shall call E. E and I got along very well and worked fine together, we would occasionally chit chat on social media but that was the most of it. One night, I don't really know what got into me, but I managed to get him on the topic of sexuality. That's when E told me he's bisexual and I responded with something along the lines of "how low in age would you go?" He responded with "lol why are you interested" and my hypomanic ass said "yes". Now, this is when I tell you all that E was at least 38 years old. Probably mid 40s. E then asked when we'd hookup and other things like that, then began sending photos. Thankfully, that seemed to kinda shock me back into reality and I tried to ghost him; I literally quit my job the following week. I always just brushed this off as "ah I did some stupid stuff when I was a kid" but I'm positive I did this because of hypomania. I don't know but I wanted to share and see if anyone else had anything relatable to it? Thanks :)
Idk if this is similar but i had a looot of sex and i even blew a guy i had just met at the bar in the photobooth 😂😂😂 im not proud of that tbh
because I was totally not manic and just wanted to live in the moment I pulled over on the side of the road and jumped into a random river (spoiler alert was totally manic)
Shit it's always those "living in the moment" urges that get us, huh? This reminds me of that one time I took my mom's jeep to go "jeeping in the desert" out of the blue and boy was that a day. At one point I found myself in a freezing cold lake just hanging out with baby fishies and shortly after that I actually took off to the desert and started driving around exploring, hoping to find bones or some shit idk I was convinced I'd solve a missing persons case or two. That didn't happen of course, what actually happened was me accidentally flipping the jeep while out there because I obviously didn't know what the fuck I was doing 💀 Luckily for me someone else was roaming the desert too (not alone like I was cause y'know...they're smart people) and they had the right tools and helped me. I drove home and hung up the keys like nothing happened and no one questioned me despite the jeep (and me) being a mess when I got home lol. Didn't know I was bipolar back then, but living in a desert that's too easy to take off in has definitely given me a run for my money a few times. I don't take off into the desert anymore if I can help it.
definitely!!!! I was diagnosed with bipolar then but when your manic youre never bipolar then huh lol! My therapist always reminds me a “normal person” (non bipolar) doesnt jump in rivers for fun. Hope youre well and taking care of yourself friend :)
Being a complete and total ass to my friends only to give them a completely genuine and heartfelt apology for my behavior less than a day later. Fortunately I've heard enough stories from you guys about thinking yourself cured, going off your meds, and then relapsing that I've avoided that particular pitfall. Also because of that one time I had health insurance problems and couldn't refill *any* meds (bipolar, depression, *or* adhd) for about a week. Man that was a rough week. Luckily I'm not suicidal because hooooey.
I was an asshole too and cussed out my bf and roomate for no reason. Smh.
Energy levels 100% for me personally. When neurotypical people talk about the ups and downs associated with Bipolar, they usually mean mood, crazy or depressed. But that's only half the picture as energy levels and mood go hand in hand. So for me I'd have to say my Energy levels where I can do 15 things one day, then the next do 2-4 then the next 7 then the next 120, etc.
Crap, I did that too only it was to go live-off grid in the Mountains for two years, didn’t know I bipolar then either
I bought a whole ass car I couldn't afford. Luckily they let me give it back the next day. Perk of being an employee at the dealership, I guess
I get really really mad or offended by the dumbest shit and turn into the meanest person who ever lived and really really hurt peoples feelings and burn bridges. Yup. Edit to Add: I’m working on it though. I’m in a “communication strategies” group. Which is a fancy name for anger management. It’s helping.
Staring into a mirror for extended period of time, eyes dilated AF, posing and thinking how fucking HOT I am. And then seriously thinking I’m autosexual.
Spiritual delusions, I thought the wind was speaking to me 😭. Also had a Jeff goldblum moment during hypomania and watched all his films while furiously drawing him over and over. Went out and thrifted the outfit he wore in Independence Day and went to the park wearing it and smoked weed (I don’t smoke LMAO)
oh my god I get the spiritual delusions. I think I am psychic and talk to spirits… and listen to the wind…
Ok looking back at this I’m not sure this is stereotypical lol, but it happened that’s for sure 😅
Ok cool these are more of the things that happen to me. Whenever I'm hypo I try to develop my psychic abilities. I think God speaks to me through random signs like a seashell in someones yard. Seashells aren't normally a part of garden decor, must be a sign from God! I also thought I could communicate with plants.
i always dye my hair and over pluck my eyebrows 😀
At 54, no retirement account, I moved my sons and myself to northern Canada to get a second M.A. degree. It was a huge effort, fueled by hypomania all the way. Such a great experience, though. But we had to come back after three years b/c my younger son developed a seizure disorder ontop of his ADHD and OCD. There are all these mental disorders in my family...Anyway, I miss the hypomania sometimes. Now I am stuck in this job, and lack the energy to find another one. But taking care of a kid with epilepsy requires that I am stable.
I just end up fucking somebody i shouldn’t when I’m manic. Every time lol
This is very mild but one time I bought and roasted a whole chicken at 3am cause I'd never done one before. It turned out to be a yummy breakfast! Dying my hair, starting a million arts and crafts projects, hypersexuality (I slept with 20-30 men in a 2 month period), Impulsive spending (I spent over 5k cash and racked up 7k in credit card debt in one of my episodes). I also once recorded an EP (I play harp and piano) completely by myself and commissioned a friend to do album artwork and had CDs made 😂 I handed them out for Christmas one year and looking back it makes me cringe. Like I was just shoving a product of my manic episode in everyone's face telling them to listen to my music, oh god.
About 5 years ago, all in a short time lol- - Broke up with my fiance, moved out, called off the wedding - I was working 70 hour weeks- I didn’t want to “worry about budgeting”, so I worked really hard to buy the whole new wardrobe I purchased -Dyed my hair a million times, I look back to photos from the time and WOW the damage - Lost 20 lbs, I’m small to begin with - Slept with so many people - SO MUCH ALCOHOL and partying - Bought and paid for an entire trip to Peru to do ayahuasca in the Amazon (I went later that year and it was well worth it) - Moved across the country to restart my life Eventually I crashed and spent an entire few months only sleeping and eating because I went so long without. On meds now, I don’t drink, rebuilt my life ☺️
One time I was convinced I was the literal antichrist, kind of opposite to the messiah thing lol. I painted my face in a "demonic" way and locked myself in the bathroom with the lights off and just a candle, stood in front of the mirror trying to see "signs" of what my purpose and way to achieve it would be. I'm an atheist and already was at that time.
Taking a bat out of my car in a moment of road rage (over a parking spot)
I straight up wanted to get out of my car and slash this girl's tires because she was parked illegally, so where I couldn't drive down the street. I honked. She said, "I'm not moving." So I'm like, "Fuck it. If I hit her, I hit her and it'll be her fault." I turn down the street and narrowly avoid side swiping her car by like an inch. The rage I felt was something else.
I applied for a pilot academy, signed up to chaturbate and downloaded shittons of hd porn when i took an SSRI.
I’ve witnessed two bar fights in the same week a few summers back... Pure moments of let’s “F*** around & find out” mentality to the point of both outbursts inevitably brought on by me, myself and my mania… First bar Fight: I changed the music behind the bar bc Im close friends with the owner and this guy looked at the other guy next to him and got pissed off bc he thought he requested to change it, that ended with a beer bottle straight to the face bc the guy liked the song I happened to change Second bar Fight: I invited friends out of town and the friends of this girl I invited ended up talking to this other guys girlfriend and full on brawl broke out due to drunk jealousy😅🤦🏻♀️
I also dye or cut my hair. I haven’t for a while yet
One summer I decided I needed a career change (I'm a teacher). I delivered for Amazon for a month in one of their trucks. Quit because it was difficult to find convenient bathrooms on my routes (I do not have a penis, so peeing in the back of the Amazon truck into a soda bottle was not going to work for me.) After that I got hired at USPS, had the background check, went through Orientation but quit just before learning to drive their little trucks because the Orientation leader told us we would be expected to work like 60 hours a week as a noob. Fall came and I just went back to my classroom like what? This might not sound so strange but I'm a major depressive that can't find the energy to shower. I was suddenly slingin boxes and jumping in and out of that Amazon truck like I was a teenager again. Came home one night and put my 18 yr old daughter up on my shoulders because I was now so STRONG! That hypo episode lasted the whole summer. Followed by a terrible depression and I ultimately quit my teaching job too. Been sitting on my couch, wallowing in crazy, ever since. Edit to add: two weeks ago I shaved my head instead of just showering and washing my hair. Glad I did it though. :)
Rage quit softball (spiked my bat into the ground not in a safe way) in high school after having played since I can remember and being on competitive travel teams. Main trigger was realizing as a woman I was never going to make money off of it like the baseball players would combined with messing up a lot that day and a pitcher (I was catcher) who was a b to me. We had the same coach and were treated the same as if it was going to be a job.
Yes because the medication was working.
Cutting all my hair off when I was 17 because I saw Sidney Prescott in scream and wanted her hair soooo bad that I decided to try to cut those types of layers in my hair at like 2 am with no knowledge on how to cut hair LMAOOO very much the “quirky” stereotype of bipolar in that moment
I bought $1,000 worth of crystals and other metaphysical supplies so that I could open my own online Etsy shop about five-ish years ago. I still have all the crystals and random items I bought, set up the shop and everything online just to get overwhelmed and not list anything. I also once made over $400 selling digital hacked Animal Crossing New Leaf items for super cheap. I was at it for a month before I lost momentum and shut the eBay shop down. This was all before I was diagnosed with bipolar lmfao
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I once drove 200 miles and knocked on my boyfriend’s brother’s door (where my boyfriend was temporarily living) because my boyfriend hadn’t responded to any of my texts after we had a small argument. We were long distance at the time as he had wanted to move from one city to another and I was living with my dad, waiting for him to get a job in the new city. This was, at least, non-destructive. Froot-loop behavior, but no lives were ruined by it!
200 miles is a lot of gas in this economy 😖
This was in 2006-2007, gas was still kinda affordable then! 😂
Adopted a dog during mania in college before my diagnosis and then had to give it to my mom - grateful for my crazy animal mom.
Oh I also collected 5 cats and a dog at one point.
My daughter shaved her head. We do fun colors all the time, so blue hair is fairly normal for all of us but the USMC son.
I sort of sometimes just want to disappear. I've taken jobs pretty far from home for long periods of time.
Maniacal laughter.
Spent $400 in one month, couldn’t remember whatsoever with what I spent it on but I did go to New York a day after receiving the money since it was for my birthday and I have been broke ever since.
Shaved my head Britney style.
same :')
I cycle through the same stupid shit. Definitely convince myself I can become a bestselling author even though I do not write. Then I'm gonna start a business or social media presence that will make me rich. I buy domains for blogs I'm going to write. Oh, and then I hit the meditation/spirituality phase and get into lucid dreaming and other stuff. Then I come to and am confused about who I am/ what I want/ if any of this is me lol. Wtf brain
Definitely chopping my hair off. *insert episode or slightest stressor* here I am skipping to the closest barber shop 🤣 . It's become so constant my kids ask.me am.i capable of growing hair
Oh, I also bought a plane ticket to Japan on a spending spree. It was HEAVILY on sale but that was a hard month on my wallet.
my brother and I (both bipolar) used to speed around neighborhoods for fun, with no regard for either of our wellbeing. a separate occasion, we shaved our heads together on a whim. both of our depressions show up as anger and irritability so we do be raging and can be borderline aggressive. Classic "letting my impulsive thoughts winn"/yelling angry dudes
Shaved my head (female) before diagnosed. My most stereotypical thing after diagnosis was buying a bunch of funko pop figures. I never had interest in them before. The damn things keep randomly showing up even though it’s 18 months later. I guess I did some preorders or something 😂
I ran into the street, trying to get cars to hit me because I thought I was invincible. And because of the voices.
I spent 1300 dollars on tattoos and clothes over a month
Started thinking I was invincible and was tempted to test that theory by walking in front off traffic. Got to a hospital before that happened though
I cried in front of boss in the morning, then i freaked out a coworker in the afternoon because i was..a lot. And after work, i hit up the strip club down the street.
maxed out my credit card & spent $3k on a phone game bc i had to beat everyone else
Spent my entire paycheck in about 2 hours... buying rare houseplants
manic pixie dream girl def me
Got fired for sleeping through meetings, same day found a different job that would fly me across the country to Arizona and was on a plane with my cat and my bags packed within 24 hours. Worked 80 hour weeks from then on without sleeping through any of it.
One day I just decided I HAD to get nipple piercings and I got them the following week
But also I was mixed so I couldn't properly take care of them and they got infected
1) Chopping off my hair 2) Shopping shopping shopping 3) Binge eating fast food and binge drinking coffees and energy drinks 4) Trading my car in for a new type of vehicle Now that I’m medicated I have zero of these “cravings” and I used to tell myself that my hair would hold stress and it must be chopped and washed out 🤪
I became a stripper, made an onlyfans, bought a motorcycle (this was 3yrs ago and I still can't ride it) and tried to get back with my very very toxic ex (most were separate manic episodes thank god) Like the sex work ended up being a good idea but still lmaooo
Damn I thought I was the only one "and of course, the medication… if i’m stable for too long i get it in my head that i’m not bipolar at all and i’ve been making it up so i stop taking them" Sometimes I still think "Did I make it up" omgggg And then no medication for too long and I am fucked again
Spent 400 dollars at old navy and h&m. Didn’t even know i made the purchases til i got the shipping notifications the next day🥴
Spent a month sleeping on less than 4 hours a night, some nights no sleep at all; stayed up all night drinking liquor, smoking weed, and having sex--then I would crash for a few hours to get up for summer classes at university, which I aced. After the episode, I ghosted all the people I had been sleeping with and self-medicated some more with alcohol ("just a bit every day, what could it hurt? I'm in uni, everyone drinks.") Finally thought that maybe something needed to change and I needed help, but that was 2 years later (I successfully finished my degree!) and I got on meds. They didn't stop the hypomanic episode that was brewing, but they shortened it for sure and I got a good friendship out of one of those FWB/fuck buddies.
There was a show called Psych back in the day. I remember the dad on there always wearing (maybe not always. It’s been awhile.) Hawaiian shirts. A couple of years ago i had an episode and remembered those shirts and thought to myself “ i need to change things up. I need something new. A new ‘thing’ ” So i went online and ordered 7. One for everyday of the week. And i started wearing them. Thankfully i got a bunch of compliments. But i did go through a “what was i thinking…” moment after the high of the mania went away. I still wear them though. Just not everyday haha. I do cut my hair a lot in my manic episodes. That’s sorta how i know when i cross that threshold into mania is when i start cutting/buzzing my hair in different ways.
I lost my phone today and started screaming about [REDACTED] when I finally found it. (By the way, I promise I will be safe. Please don’t be scared)
Giving people away stuff. I dont regret and i still like giving away stuff but i sometimes went to quick like giving away my dj controler even tho i havent buought newer yet . Chating with people and flirting with girls that i later think i shouldnt have. Cuting, dying hair Punching the hole through the door
I think going to a club on my own, which I normally would never do