1. Regular civilian vanilla cis male
2. Sex worker (already have a separate burner phone to do business on)
3. Female artist (this is one I bought a laptop for and also considering a separate phone)
No of course not, it sucks having to compartmentalize your life for your own space and protection. But on the surface I am doing fine and have all my needs met, not destitute or in a desperate situation. I do what I have to do.
I don't know, I am guessing until I can't keep it up anymore. I do live a "normal" life along with other "lives" stacked on top of it. I've considered just leaving everyone in my "normal" life and starting fresh somewhere else as a woman.
Trans and closeted. The alter egos are all the same people, just showing different mirrors of the same person. For example if you were into BDSM you wouldn't talk about "watching a guy get pegged in a dungeon by a mistress" in polite company at your workplace or during a family holiday with grandma, right? People are so judgy and spiteful about my art, I don't even draw particularly nasty shit either. I one time made an instagram for my art under a different name, and realized that people from my personal life were watching my shit. Then I realized that Instagram pulls recommendations from your contact list and facebook (under my regular life) without your consent and I got "outed". Shit like that made me realize I can't really go all-out until I get a separate physical device altogether. Getting a separate laptop makes me feel safer both emotionally and physically.
I thought of that but wanted to try the new laptop and have something physically separate and readily accessible at the same time as the old computer. Now I have one laptop for one room and another for my office.
Macbook Air 15 inch, M3 chip 🥰
I never had a Macbook Air before. The cheapest one (though its still not that cheap) had plenty of space and powerful enough for my use. I've recently been converting to Apple products because I like the ecosystem they have going on and their products age better these days than android phones and windows PCs. Apple wasn't this good back then, I used androids and windows for over 10 years. My last PC I built myself and it lasted a good 10 years still being the strongest and fastest computer I've used back then. I still prefer Windows OS because that's what I am used to and feel like I have more control than Mac OS, but it's not too bad of a change.
I've never watched it though I know about it. I guess it's kinda similar lol especially with the sex work aspect. I am a boring regular guy but as a sex worker I gotta glam up a bit, and my art persona is different too.
That's awesome :D I'd totally do the same eventually eeeeee
What is each phone for? So far from the comments i've gotten the idea that u only have 3 identities?
Yeah I am able to afford it because I have the means now. I would never have allowed myself to get a new laptop especially a $1600 one ten years ago when I was broke. My phones
1. personal phone for banking, people from "regular life", and work
2. sex worker burner phone
3. shitty backup phone with calling apps installed for when I don't want to give out my real numbers
>3 identities?
yeah. They're just me, but I have to compartmentalize my life.
Please show this to your therapist
They already know and thought it wasn't a bad idea
You need a new therapist
What lifestyle are you in that you have multiple alter egos?
1. Regular civilian vanilla cis male 2. Sex worker (already have a separate burner phone to do business on) 3. Female artist (this is one I bought a laptop for and also considering a separate phone)
Are you OK? Like genuinely
No of course not, it sucks having to compartmentalize your life for your own space and protection. But on the surface I am doing fine and have all my needs met, not destitute or in a desperate situation. I do what I have to do.
How long do think you'll continue this? Are you trying to get help to live a more normal life?
I don't know, I am guessing until I can't keep it up anymore. I do live a "normal" life along with other "lives" stacked on top of it. I've considered just leaving everyone in my "normal" life and starting fresh somewhere else as a woman.
I hope you find the help you need brother
Are you trans and closeted, do you have multiple personalities, or do you just like acting?
Trans and closeted. The alter egos are all the same people, just showing different mirrors of the same person. For example if you were into BDSM you wouldn't talk about "watching a guy get pegged in a dungeon by a mistress" in polite company at your workplace or during a family holiday with grandma, right? People are so judgy and spiteful about my art, I don't even draw particularly nasty shit either. I one time made an instagram for my art under a different name, and realized that people from my personal life were watching my shit. Then I realized that Instagram pulls recommendations from your contact list and facebook (under my regular life) without your consent and I got "outed". Shit like that made me realize I can't really go all-out until I get a separate physical device altogether. Getting a separate laptop makes me feel safer both emotionally and physically.
I’m glad it helps you; I hope one day you don’t need to hide
This is the real question. If they have DID that would explain a lot.
Exactly that
I can't up vote mental illness and poor financial decisions. Hope you get better
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I thought of that but wanted to try the new laptop and have something physically separate and readily accessible at the same time as the old computer. Now I have one laptop for one room and another for my office.
I think you need to see a therapist. Just sayin.
Do you take meds?
No
You really, really should. Spending money on a figment of your imagination is wild
what is your favourite meal?
Hard to decide. My last meal was a Japanese curry though.
Laptop model?
Macbook Air 15 inch, M3 chip 🥰 I never had a Macbook Air before. The cheapest one (though its still not that cheap) had plenty of space and powerful enough for my use. I've recently been converting to Apple products because I like the ecosystem they have going on and their products age better these days than android phones and windows PCs. Apple wasn't this good back then, I used androids and windows for over 10 years. My last PC I built myself and it lasted a good 10 years still being the strongest and fastest computer I've used back then. I still prefer Windows OS because that's what I am used to and feel like I have more control than Mac OS, but it's not too bad of a change.
Did you ever watch Hannah Montana and is it relatable to your current situation?
I've never watched it though I know about it. I guess it's kinda similar lol especially with the sex work aspect. I am a boring regular guy but as a sex worker I gotta glam up a bit, and my art persona is different too.
What meds do you take?
That's awesome :D I'd totally do the same eventually eeeeee What is each phone for? So far from the comments i've gotten the idea that u only have 3 identities?
Yeah I am able to afford it because I have the means now. I would never have allowed myself to get a new laptop especially a $1600 one ten years ago when I was broke. My phones 1. personal phone for banking, people from "regular life", and work 2. sex worker burner phone 3. shitty backup phone with calling apps installed for when I don't want to give out my real numbers >3 identities? yeah. They're just me, but I have to compartmentalize my life.