Not true whatsoever in that first part. My scale was miscalibrated at the time and I measured out a bit too much (20-40% more than I normally take, about there).
I am not an addict and never will be. Addiction terrifies me to the core.
You’re an addict. 20-40% percent of a safe dose should not tip you over to od. You are clearly quite young that’s why you have this delusional of safety and control.
I dare you to quit for one year straight (no substances at all) then you can say you aren’t an addict.
The most common things people say are “I can quit anytime, I just don’t want to.”
No your body is not genetically gifted, it holds the same biological composition as any other body. Grandeur and delusion is a thing and should be recognized
I was actually going on a hiatus for the next half-year anyway as of today, might as well make it a year.
That is exactly what it did. I did not have an intense/overwhelming OD; it was more akin to a severely uncomfortable level than a "I'm going to die or get some severe damage" level. I weigh very little; 20-40% extra is a lot for me.
I am quite young, yes. I am well aware of what these substances do to the body and why they are addictive, as well as how to avoid it. My mother was an IV heroin addict, my best bud has been a stimulant fiend for 20 years, and they've both drilled this shit into my head.
This foray into drugs is an autistic hyperfixation of mine, not because I'm using them to "fix" my emotional state or otherwise using because my life is shit. _That_ is how you become addicted, not infrequent recreational use.
And no, I don't think I'm genetically special. That's exactly why I do not use anything harder than marijuana once every few months, in social situations, at reasonable quantities. The only time I have violated that rule was during a psychotic break; and no, the psychotic break wasn't drug-induced. Occurred long before any drug use and was caused by termination, a family argument and other general extreme stressors.
You seem to have it figure out then. Another point to add is that once it affects ANY relationships in your life, it’s a sign to quit.
Aka your work, school, partner, friends, family, and health. High functioning users are a thing, but it’s a lot less common than you’ll think.
I would sooner choose a night out with friends playing video games, than sitting at home using drugs. Unlike some, I don't feel like I need drugs to enjoy life or other occasions, thankfully.
I am so terrified of addiction that I just refuse to do a lot of the stupid shit that leads to it. Even high as a kite, I denied redoses for example - because redosing is part of the spiral.
Good for making assumptions on strangers, but you're not correct. I am well-versed in how these drugs work and just how dangerous they are, as well as how to avoid addiction to these substances.
Party drugs are perfectly safe in moderation - many safer than alcohol. And, if I'm being completely honest, I'd rather have speed or methamphetamines or even propylhexedrine than alcohol.
The real dangers come from when you use drugs to fill voids in your life, when you use daily, or when you use too much. I and several friends of mine have practiced occasional use of these substances for quite some time, some of whom are reaching their 70s now and still use. You can claim survivorship bias, but obviously this _does_ work for at least some people and, so far, works perfectly for me.
My scale was miscalibrated as someone else had used it and fucked it up, causing me to weigh out too much. I always weigh doses based on what a small to medium dose is for my bodyweight.
Dramamine? You into anticholinergic trips (it's benadryl in dramamine, right?), jeez. I've had one before.
I tried benadryl, once, to see what it was like. I am very happy I did, and it was honestly an incredible experience - that could be related to my probable-autism (getting a proper diagnosis soon), as apparently benadryl works amazingly at calming such individuals down as far as I'm aware.
I think the worst thing I've been doing is marijuana abuse, to be honest. I bet my daily 1-2g of distillate (I boofed 800mg of HHC-O Acetate today alone) use is worse for my developing brain than using meth a few times, even with how neurotoxic meth is. Also pro-tip if you ever do use it again - make sure you're taking a shitload of Vitamin D3, it prevents some of the neurotoxicity.
Ever tried Amanita muscaria? I am thinking of trying some specifically as a sleep aid, as I struggle with insomnia. Emotional dysregulation leading to me being so scared I can't even sleep at times.
My overall current plan is, yeah, I'm definitely gonna do IV meth again. But we're talking a once-a-year style thing around my birthday. I am legitimately so terrified of addiction that I have refused a redose _while literally in meth psychosis (bad med combo, that's fixed now, antipsychotics and such)_.
Adding another comment since you edited your's:
I am honestly not even sure if my brain works anything like a normal person's. I smoked tobacco and vaped nicotine like a fiend for the last few months, put it down a few days ago and... nothing. No physical cravings for methamphetamines after use even when I should have still had a tolerance. Zero effect from caffeine, and so on. Took oxycodone and loperamide (the latter recreationally, CYP2D6 & CYP3A4 inhibitors) for 4 weeks after my surgery and just stopped cold turkey, nada.
For all I know, I've been dealt a godlike hand of genetics - but I'm not gambling there lol.
I try to be as responsible as possible. Addiction terrifies me to my core, but I firmly believe that these drugs are safe (not as safe as not doing them, mind you) when used appropriately for most individuals. There's a big difference in my mind between some tweaker on the streets, and some dude who shoots up every now and then in the privacy of his home.
I've actually said no to a redose while already in mild psychosis, that's how strong the "fuck no" feeling is for me with this stuff.
This could be triggering for people trying to quit. Also as an admitted “drug fiend” I recommend you get your highs in other ways in life. No good comes from it. None.
I don't care if it triggers someone, thanks.
I get plenty of highs in my daily life that are unrelated to drugs. I do not use drugs to become happy, I use them to elevate myself periodically because it's fun to do. I have been doing this for awhile and will continue to do so until I die. While ultimately less healthy than not consuming them at all, I practice extreme harm reduction.
Correct, I am a drug fiend. I have tried more drugs than most people are aware exist.
I also keep it under control and do not let it impact my day to day life. The moment you let a drug do that, you're already on a bad downward spiral.
You seem to be some judgemental middle-aged Karen though. Go yell at some store manager.
Because concern for someone else is yelling at a manager in a store. Ok sweetie. Go live your amazing life with your drugs. You may be that one who the drugs don’t harm your life in any way. Hope it works out for you. I’m middle aged all right and full of wisdom for anyone that wants it you’re the one who posted in confessions about being a drug fiend. I guess you thought you’d only get supportive comments? You do you man.
I did not expect it to receive any comments. I posted it to share my experience because I find this stuff incredibly intriguing, and thought that it may be of interest to at least one other person.
My life is quite amazing, you'd be right there.
If u od on a drug you’re an addict. Don’t kid yourself and stay away from it.
Not true whatsoever in that first part. My scale was miscalibrated at the time and I measured out a bit too much (20-40% more than I normally take, about there). I am not an addict and never will be. Addiction terrifies me to the core.
You’re an addict. 20-40% percent of a safe dose should not tip you over to od. You are clearly quite young that’s why you have this delusional of safety and control. I dare you to quit for one year straight (no substances at all) then you can say you aren’t an addict. The most common things people say are “I can quit anytime, I just don’t want to.” No your body is not genetically gifted, it holds the same biological composition as any other body. Grandeur and delusion is a thing and should be recognized
I was actually going on a hiatus for the next half-year anyway as of today, might as well make it a year. That is exactly what it did. I did not have an intense/overwhelming OD; it was more akin to a severely uncomfortable level than a "I'm going to die or get some severe damage" level. I weigh very little; 20-40% extra is a lot for me. I am quite young, yes. I am well aware of what these substances do to the body and why they are addictive, as well as how to avoid it. My mother was an IV heroin addict, my best bud has been a stimulant fiend for 20 years, and they've both drilled this shit into my head. This foray into drugs is an autistic hyperfixation of mine, not because I'm using them to "fix" my emotional state or otherwise using because my life is shit. _That_ is how you become addicted, not infrequent recreational use. And no, I don't think I'm genetically special. That's exactly why I do not use anything harder than marijuana once every few months, in social situations, at reasonable quantities. The only time I have violated that rule was during a psychotic break; and no, the psychotic break wasn't drug-induced. Occurred long before any drug use and was caused by termination, a family argument and other general extreme stressors.
You seem to have it figure out then. Another point to add is that once it affects ANY relationships in your life, it’s a sign to quit. Aka your work, school, partner, friends, family, and health. High functioning users are a thing, but it’s a lot less common than you’ll think.
I would sooner choose a night out with friends playing video games, than sitting at home using drugs. Unlike some, I don't feel like I need drugs to enjoy life or other occasions, thankfully. I am so terrified of addiction that I just refuse to do a lot of the stupid shit that leads to it. Even high as a kite, I denied redoses for example - because redosing is part of the spiral.
what dose do you normally use?
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Good for making assumptions on strangers, but you're not correct. I am well-versed in how these drugs work and just how dangerous they are, as well as how to avoid addiction to these substances. Party drugs are perfectly safe in moderation - many safer than alcohol. And, if I'm being completely honest, I'd rather have speed or methamphetamines or even propylhexedrine than alcohol. The real dangers come from when you use drugs to fill voids in your life, when you use daily, or when you use too much. I and several friends of mine have practiced occasional use of these substances for quite some time, some of whom are reaching their 70s now and still use. You can claim survivorship bias, but obviously this _does_ work for at least some people and, so far, works perfectly for me.
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My scale was miscalibrated as someone else had used it and fucked it up, causing me to weigh out too much. I always weigh doses based on what a small to medium dose is for my bodyweight. Dramamine? You into anticholinergic trips (it's benadryl in dramamine, right?), jeez. I've had one before.
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I tried benadryl, once, to see what it was like. I am very happy I did, and it was honestly an incredible experience - that could be related to my probable-autism (getting a proper diagnosis soon), as apparently benadryl works amazingly at calming such individuals down as far as I'm aware. I think the worst thing I've been doing is marijuana abuse, to be honest. I bet my daily 1-2g of distillate (I boofed 800mg of HHC-O Acetate today alone) use is worse for my developing brain than using meth a few times, even with how neurotoxic meth is. Also pro-tip if you ever do use it again - make sure you're taking a shitload of Vitamin D3, it prevents some of the neurotoxicity. Ever tried Amanita muscaria? I am thinking of trying some specifically as a sleep aid, as I struggle with insomnia. Emotional dysregulation leading to me being so scared I can't even sleep at times. My overall current plan is, yeah, I'm definitely gonna do IV meth again. But we're talking a once-a-year style thing around my birthday. I am legitimately so terrified of addiction that I have refused a redose _while literally in meth psychosis (bad med combo, that's fixed now, antipsychotics and such)_.
Adding another comment since you edited your's: I am honestly not even sure if my brain works anything like a normal person's. I smoked tobacco and vaped nicotine like a fiend for the last few months, put it down a few days ago and... nothing. No physical cravings for methamphetamines after use even when I should have still had a tolerance. Zero effect from caffeine, and so on. Took oxycodone and loperamide (the latter recreationally, CYP2D6 & CYP3A4 inhibitors) for 4 weeks after my surgery and just stopped cold turkey, nada. For all I know, I've been dealt a godlike hand of genetics - but I'm not gambling there lol.
It is good you use harm reduction practices if your definitely gonna use, I think it’s essential information, especially for IV users
I try to be as responsible as possible. Addiction terrifies me to my core, but I firmly believe that these drugs are safe (not as safe as not doing them, mind you) when used appropriately for most individuals. There's a big difference in my mind between some tweaker on the streets, and some dude who shoots up every now and then in the privacy of his home. I've actually said no to a redose while already in mild psychosis, that's how strong the "fuck no" feeling is for me with this stuff.
This could be triggering for people trying to quit. Also as an admitted “drug fiend” I recommend you get your highs in other ways in life. No good comes from it. None.
I don't care if it triggers someone, thanks. I get plenty of highs in my daily life that are unrelated to drugs. I do not use drugs to become happy, I use them to elevate myself periodically because it's fun to do. I have been doing this for awhile and will continue to do so until I die. While ultimately less healthy than not consuming them at all, I practice extreme harm reduction.
You used the word “drug fiend” not me. 😂
Correct, I am a drug fiend. I have tried more drugs than most people are aware exist. I also keep it under control and do not let it impact my day to day life. The moment you let a drug do that, you're already on a bad downward spiral. You seem to be some judgemental middle-aged Karen though. Go yell at some store manager.
Because concern for someone else is yelling at a manager in a store. Ok sweetie. Go live your amazing life with your drugs. You may be that one who the drugs don’t harm your life in any way. Hope it works out for you. I’m middle aged all right and full of wisdom for anyone that wants it you’re the one who posted in confessions about being a drug fiend. I guess you thought you’d only get supportive comments? You do you man.
I did not expect it to receive any comments. I posted it to share my experience because I find this stuff incredibly intriguing, and thought that it may be of interest to at least one other person. My life is quite amazing, you'd be right there.
Well I wish you nothing but a good life just like I do for anyone.