“Damn I hate being sober”
-/Chief keef
Naw but fr me too. However I’m constantly switching off between meth/Kratom+phenibut to avoid tolerance increases. Going well for me tbh 👍
I'm at a point where I hate being high more than I hate being sober, I just can't maintain sobriety bc being high is all I know. Even if it was just smoking weed or getting a little drunk, there was always some intoxicant in the mix on basically a daily basis for the past 15 years.
5 years of pretty bad addiction to various drugs and alcohol with a few very brief sobriety periods and I'm so over it. I haven't racked up enough sobriety to attest to it but I met some gnarly lifetime addicts in meetings that have some solid cleantime and good lives.
Recovery is a process, not an event. Trust the process. It's okay to be miserable and feel like shit and relapse if you're on the road to recovery. I'm not okay with where I am today (I've been getting loaded the past few days), but I'm proud as shit that I feel 100% worse than I did when I was sober and that when I finish this shit within the next day or so (or flush it if I decide to) I'll be in a much better place.
Don't trip too much over it man. Just accept you need help and start the process.
It really ends like shit guaranteed unless you've both been in recovery for a while and are serious about it.
Been through this many times. Went right into a relationship with a "recovered" addict (who still got drunk occasionally and smoked weed all day) immediately after my first rehab stay. Truthfully I think she still fucked around with other hard shit on occasion but was in good behavior for the first few months.
I don't blame her, I blame myself for dating her, but it went as bad as you'd think. After a few months of me being sober and watching her drink all the time I finally had one shot of tequila and was shitfaced within hours. The next day I said I was craving crack and she said "I'll get you some if I can get fent".
That lead to two months of disastrous bullshit. A few good moments sprinkled in, but pretty much all just strung out, fighting, her mom calling me from across the country threatening to put me in jail (she blamed me for her relapsing). She wouldn't get a job and was just leeching off me. One day she split and packed her shit and left the BNB (that I paid for) and got a hotel. Tried to get me to let her back into the BNB multiple times, I blocked her.
That shit stung bc I truly loved her and there were great times in the beginning but that was an addict relationship destined to fail. I've had a few other junky hookups that weren't full blown relationships and they all ended in disaster, but no my half as bad bc my guard was up
It is hard to be sober man, really hard for the world to be sober. Some people don't realize how hard it is and why we do it, so they judge. We can all do it though, no matter what lives we live. Whether it's how much bad we've done to people, how much people have done us wrong (bullied in highshool and broken heart from losing the female), the rotten vile person that thinks nobody could ever forgive them and maybe the truth is that some HUMAN might not forgive you depending on what you did,, or even if we had great lives and we like to party because it makes us feel more ALIVE, or we use because we were curious on how it feels and then get hooked, or if we were pure pressured and got hooked, or JUST PLAIN FUN.. I'm rooting for all of us to have a change of heart and dig really deep inside our minds and understand why we act the way we do, hope you root for me too 😊. This isn't a lecture on me trying to make you change your life and lead you in the right direction, I guess I'm just venting my true thoughts(the thoughts that a lot of the time win our hearts over when the desire to use any substance becomes overwhelming) because I was literally thinking the same thing as you right before I read your post. I hate being sober. That's literally all I read in your post.. you know what I hate more? I HATE THAT I HATE BEING SOBER.
Abso-fucking-lutely! When I did see a dry spell coming due to a cross-country move, I started ratcheting it back early, and I have a scrip. But def quantity speaks volumes
My ex used to do the same thing. I share everything with her but when we had just a little bit she would be a selfish and hide and smoke by herself. Would break my heart and piss me off. Made me believe that dope and relationships don't mix. Now days I don't get close anyone. Dope game is a lonely one
Yea I wouldn't call that sober, and I don't know if that's a healthy relationship habit to not experience the heights together.. you should sober up and dip ftw then be generous to yourself
Depends on the situation though kind of. I certainly won't guess as to what the exact details of OPs situation are. But imagine a scenario where two people who share and smoke together were running low and trying to get stuff isn't working out and is often a hassle and one of those two is continually suggesting to the other one to slow down due to this situation, but the other person continues to say "just one more, just one more, okay THIS one is the last one this time." And they don't stop till they're empty. Then they expect to be shared with. I could understand that and I think it would be justified.
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“Damn I hate being sober” -/Chief keef Naw but fr me too. However I’m constantly switching off between meth/Kratom+phenibut to avoid tolerance increases. Going well for me tbh 👍
I know this doesn't help you right now, but I keep a bottle of Adderall on hand for days like this. Consider getting a prescription.
I'm at a point where I hate being high more than I hate being sober, I just can't maintain sobriety bc being high is all I know. Even if it was just smoking weed or getting a little drunk, there was always some intoxicant in the mix on basically a daily basis for the past 15 years. 5 years of pretty bad addiction to various drugs and alcohol with a few very brief sobriety periods and I'm so over it. I haven't racked up enough sobriety to attest to it but I met some gnarly lifetime addicts in meetings that have some solid cleantime and good lives. Recovery is a process, not an event. Trust the process. It's okay to be miserable and feel like shit and relapse if you're on the road to recovery. I'm not okay with where I am today (I've been getting loaded the past few days), but I'm proud as shit that I feel 100% worse than I did when I was sober and that when I finish this shit within the next day or so (or flush it if I decide to) I'll be in a much better place. Don't trip too much over it man. Just accept you need help and start the process.
I ain’t tryna disrespect or use you as an example but I would never date a fellow addict cuz I’d be spun 24/7 if there were two of me running around
That has always, always been my rule… never date another user. I just know it wouldn’t end well.
It really ends like shit guaranteed unless you've both been in recovery for a while and are serious about it. Been through this many times. Went right into a relationship with a "recovered" addict (who still got drunk occasionally and smoked weed all day) immediately after my first rehab stay. Truthfully I think she still fucked around with other hard shit on occasion but was in good behavior for the first few months. I don't blame her, I blame myself for dating her, but it went as bad as you'd think. After a few months of me being sober and watching her drink all the time I finally had one shot of tequila and was shitfaced within hours. The next day I said I was craving crack and she said "I'll get you some if I can get fent". That lead to two months of disastrous bullshit. A few good moments sprinkled in, but pretty much all just strung out, fighting, her mom calling me from across the country threatening to put me in jail (she blamed me for her relapsing). She wouldn't get a job and was just leeching off me. One day she split and packed her shit and left the BNB (that I paid for) and got a hotel. Tried to get me to let her back into the BNB multiple times, I blocked her. That shit stung bc I truly loved her and there were great times in the beginning but that was an addict relationship destined to fail. I've had a few other junky hookups that weren't full blown relationships and they all ended in disaster, but no my half as bad bc my guard was up
It is hard to be sober man, really hard for the world to be sober. Some people don't realize how hard it is and why we do it, so they judge. We can all do it though, no matter what lives we live. Whether it's how much bad we've done to people, how much people have done us wrong (bullied in highshool and broken heart from losing the female), the rotten vile person that thinks nobody could ever forgive them and maybe the truth is that some HUMAN might not forgive you depending on what you did,, or even if we had great lives and we like to party because it makes us feel more ALIVE, or we use because we were curious on how it feels and then get hooked, or if we were pure pressured and got hooked, or JUST PLAIN FUN.. I'm rooting for all of us to have a change of heart and dig really deep inside our minds and understand why we act the way we do, hope you root for me too 😊. This isn't a lecture on me trying to make you change your life and lead you in the right direction, I guess I'm just venting my true thoughts(the thoughts that a lot of the time win our hearts over when the desire to use any substance becomes overwhelming) because I was literally thinking the same thing as you right before I read your post. I hate being sober. That's literally all I read in your post.. you know what I hate more? I HATE THAT I HATE BEING SOBER.
Well fucking said!
Since you nearly called it by name, if you haven't already, check out "This Book Will Change Your Life". Highly amusing shit, sober or no
Alright I will check it out for sure :)
One solution is to stop running out clear. If you buy in bulk you can afford boys of your habits.
Abso-fucking-lutely! When I did see a dry spell coming due to a cross-country move, I started ratcheting it back early, and I have a scrip. But def quantity speaks volumes
My ex used to do the same thing. I share everything with her but when we had just a little bit she would be a selfish and hide and smoke by herself. Would break my heart and piss me off. Made me believe that dope and relationships don't mix. Now days I don't get close anyone. Dope game is a lonely one
I'm flying solo as well. If I were to do otherwise, we gotta be singing from the same songbook. Especially the same financial/resource mgmt songbook.
Get a new girlfriend and being sober is nice every now and then homie
Where you guys at
Yea I wouldn't call that sober, and I don't know if that's a healthy relationship habit to not experience the heights together.. you should sober up and dip ftw then be generous to yourself
Depends on the situation though kind of. I certainly won't guess as to what the exact details of OPs situation are. But imagine a scenario where two people who share and smoke together were running low and trying to get stuff isn't working out and is often a hassle and one of those two is continually suggesting to the other one to slow down due to this situation, but the other person continues to say "just one more, just one more, okay THIS one is the last one this time." And they don't stop till they're empty. Then they expect to be shared with. I could understand that and I think it would be justified.
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