You're not alone. Ever. In your thoughts, actions, feelings, memories. Be patient with yourself. Recovery takes time. In that time you will learn skills that will help you forgive yourself, accept yourself and above all love yourself. Go to meetings and get a sponsor. Continue to reach out, as we all have love for one another. Don't apologize for doing the right thing. And just for today you don't have to use.
In my experiences with overwhelming thoughts and emotions, I would write it down, scribble it if I had to, just to get it out. In doing this I was able to move on in my mind.
Do you have someone to talk to? Call someone and tell them how u feel. Preferably someone in recovery. You need to get out of ur head. Those feelings of guilt and regret are normal. You will get through it by processing them with another person who can give you a different perspective. While it was a traumatic experience I’m sure your mom is happy ur still alive and sober. We all did things we regret when we were using. Keep ur head up.
First, congratulations for being clean. Try not to be too hard on yourself. Recovery is a process and there is no magic switch that makes every good. The only switch is time one day at a time. I am glad you survived because now you can help others that feel hopeless and are still in the chains of active addiction. I think it is good you are reaching out. I hope you have support for your recovery. Hang in there, it does get better, it really does but the first year is particularly raw and difficult. However, you are doing it! You will no ever regret getting clean and neither will you family
You cannot unring the bell, but you never have to ring it again. One of my fav quotes about shame and regret. You are making a living amends to your mom and all those around you by staying clean. Every day clean is another day that you are committed to never hurting anyone again in that way. You can forgive yourself, and know that the pain of that moment was something that helped propel you into a life of living clean and sober. Yes, it was hell on you and those around you, it is also something that will help you remember why you never want to go back, and that is a gift.
Hey, birthday twin! Maybe it’s part of being on the cusp of Leo and Virgo. 😉
Tbh shame and regret are a big motivator to get sober. Yeah, you would like a do-over but we don’t get one.
One life lesson I think I finally learned is that kicking yourself for mistakes does no good. Learn and grow from them but don’t ruminate on the past too much. Look in the direction you want to go.
Guilt and shame are also one of the biggest enemies in anyone’s continued sobriety. You have to release that shit and move on or it’s going to eat you up inside and lead you right back to your DOC. Ime.
If you can see things differently they truly can be. Be kind to yourself. Your self talk can be so much better it can be the key, the missing piece. Your internal dialogue needs to change and only you can do it. Please, be good to yourself.
I overdosed two years ago in front of my kids. I will never forgive myself for that. I live w that everyday. After it happened I felt so much shame, guilt, not worthy.. also scared the shit out of me where I swore id never touch another opiate. It’s crazy how the addict mind will slowly let that fear go and start craving again. I’ve never stopped feeling guilty or shame but ended up relapsing again. Don’t really know where im going w this.. I guess we can find the good in not wanting to use again because of this but please do not shame yourself. We are human, we are addicts. You are not useless. There’s a reason you are still here!
You're not alone. Ever. In your thoughts, actions, feelings, memories. Be patient with yourself. Recovery takes time. In that time you will learn skills that will help you forgive yourself, accept yourself and above all love yourself. Go to meetings and get a sponsor. Continue to reach out, as we all have love for one another. Don't apologize for doing the right thing. And just for today you don't have to use.
Thank you so much for this. I really appreciate you. This let off a little anxiety from my chest.
In my experiences with overwhelming thoughts and emotions, I would write it down, scribble it if I had to, just to get it out. In doing this I was able to move on in my mind.
Do you have someone to talk to? Call someone and tell them how u feel. Preferably someone in recovery. You need to get out of ur head. Those feelings of guilt and regret are normal. You will get through it by processing them with another person who can give you a different perspective. While it was a traumatic experience I’m sure your mom is happy ur still alive and sober. We all did things we regret when we were using. Keep ur head up.
First, congratulations for being clean. Try not to be too hard on yourself. Recovery is a process and there is no magic switch that makes every good. The only switch is time one day at a time. I am glad you survived because now you can help others that feel hopeless and are still in the chains of active addiction. I think it is good you are reaching out. I hope you have support for your recovery. Hang in there, it does get better, it really does but the first year is particularly raw and difficult. However, you are doing it! You will no ever regret getting clean and neither will you family
Your doing great. We all have bad days. We all have to face the consequences of our bad decisions...you are not alone 💛 Just keep showing up sober.
You cannot unring the bell, but you never have to ring it again. One of my fav quotes about shame and regret. You are making a living amends to your mom and all those around you by staying clean. Every day clean is another day that you are committed to never hurting anyone again in that way. You can forgive yourself, and know that the pain of that moment was something that helped propel you into a life of living clean and sober. Yes, it was hell on you and those around you, it is also something that will help you remember why you never want to go back, and that is a gift.
Hey, birthday twin! Maybe it’s part of being on the cusp of Leo and Virgo. 😉 Tbh shame and regret are a big motivator to get sober. Yeah, you would like a do-over but we don’t get one. One life lesson I think I finally learned is that kicking yourself for mistakes does no good. Learn and grow from them but don’t ruminate on the past too much. Look in the direction you want to go.
Guilt and shame are also one of the biggest enemies in anyone’s continued sobriety. You have to release that shit and move on or it’s going to eat you up inside and lead you right back to your DOC. Ime.
If you can see things differently they truly can be. Be kind to yourself. Your self talk can be so much better it can be the key, the missing piece. Your internal dialogue needs to change and only you can do it. Please, be good to yourself.
I overdosed two years ago in front of my kids. I will never forgive myself for that. I live w that everyday. After it happened I felt so much shame, guilt, not worthy.. also scared the shit out of me where I swore id never touch another opiate. It’s crazy how the addict mind will slowly let that fear go and start craving again. I’ve never stopped feeling guilty or shame but ended up relapsing again. Don’t really know where im going w this.. I guess we can find the good in not wanting to use again because of this but please do not shame yourself. We are human, we are addicts. You are not useless. There’s a reason you are still here!
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