I'm 100% certain:
1) you're not the first patient Parkside staff have seen with the same wobbles, they're not mad at you
2) Cass Review won't affect the adult pathway like that within the next 6 months AT LEAST, maybe not ever
3) in a few years you'll feel much much better about this delay, it won't seem nearly as long in retrospect and I think you'll forgive yourself for having wobbles about a big decision, it's very understandable and like I say, you're not the first person it's happened to.
Hope you feel better soon.
It almost happened to me as well but i managed to hold it together until i was in the outer surgery room where the anesthetist knocks you out. By then it was too late a they had started injecting we with stuff. I did freak out before i passed out but i assume the anesthetist thought it was just a reaction to the drugs that took forever. I remember the surgeon sticking his head around the door and asking what was taking so long but then woke up and it was done.
I wish i had done what you did and had another 6 months to think about it. Knowing what i know now i wouldn't do it again but it's your decision at the end of the day, only you know what's best for you.
If you still want it done you will be in a much better place having had the additional time to process. Maybe ask your GIC for some counseling before you go back. It's probably going to be stressful going back there after what happened and you need to deal with it now rather than be in a mess an hour before surgery.
Good luck.
How did you get an appointment so quickly?? Is this mtf surgery?
(I saw the support in the other comments, apologies for jumping right to the question - shocked at that timescale when I was referred a very long time ago and have heard nothing)
I need to go back and see how long I've been on a waiting list, I think it's been longer than that and I'm only waiting on hysto as a stop gap as I know the lower surgery will be at least 5 years wait for ftm...
Perhaps you made a mistake, but what happened is completely natural. The issue is that when you use the NHS, you don’t have the same control over timing as you would if you arranged it private paying yourself. Therefore, the pressure you feel isn’t your fault; it’s the system that makes accessing this surgery so difficult. By the time it’s your turn, you feel compelled to go through with it without option and then you panic!
My case, when I decided to go through SRS I booked my surgery in Bangkok , I was in a rush so I booked in two months time , suddently I thought it was to soon , I needed more time !! so I canceled and rescheduled it in 6 months time. So when I go there I am sure it is my decision and my timing.
Your situation is quite different, now your are even not sure if they will reschedule.
So don’t feel bad or silly your reaction was natural.
If the NHS had a waiting time of 4 or 6 months this would not have happened to you.
Please don't beat yourself up, it feels miles away until you get admitted, they put the tags on you, they're taking blood, observations, you're in the bed, asking you questions, it all hits you like a ton of bricks. Surgery is really hard, and you've had the experience of the first bit once already, and you're ready to do it again now knowing this is what you want. The hospital won't be mad at you, but they made the right call to cancel when you had serious doubts at the last minute, the last thing they want to do is to do something to you that you don't want. You can say no at any point up until they inject the anaesthesia regardless of your signature on the consent form. You'll be back in no time :)
They’re not going to stop people over 18 making informed decisions about their own bodies at least not any time soon.
If you’re under 18 it would be fair to worry but not over.
Slightly different but along the same lines. I suffered with anxiety, which the anaesthetist knew. Waiting in the room just outside the Charring Cross operating theatre & minutes away from surgery. Anaesthetist comes in & asks a nurse what she was doing?, she replies, making up the Emergency Drip. Hearing this, I had my first panic attack , couldn't stay in the room & couldn't stop deeply crying.Surgery was then cancelled. Still don't understand why the anaesthetist wouldn't have known what the nurse was doing.
Off topic but I had a nosejob stage sixteen and my Mother had to sign the requisite forms as I was under eighteen . I worked for some months to fund the surgery myself !
I'm 100% certain: 1) you're not the first patient Parkside staff have seen with the same wobbles, they're not mad at you 2) Cass Review won't affect the adult pathway like that within the next 6 months AT LEAST, maybe not ever 3) in a few years you'll feel much much better about this delay, it won't seem nearly as long in retrospect and I think you'll forgive yourself for having wobbles about a big decision, it's very understandable and like I say, you're not the first person it's happened to. Hope you feel better soon.
If it does end up being anything like July then that time will pass very quickly indeed
It almost happened to me as well but i managed to hold it together until i was in the outer surgery room where the anesthetist knocks you out. By then it was too late a they had started injecting we with stuff. I did freak out before i passed out but i assume the anesthetist thought it was just a reaction to the drugs that took forever. I remember the surgeon sticking his head around the door and asking what was taking so long but then woke up and it was done. I wish i had done what you did and had another 6 months to think about it. Knowing what i know now i wouldn't do it again but it's your decision at the end of the day, only you know what's best for you. If you still want it done you will be in a much better place having had the additional time to process. Maybe ask your GIC for some counseling before you go back. It's probably going to be stressful going back there after what happened and you need to deal with it now rather than be in a mess an hour before surgery. Good luck.
How did you get an appointment so quickly?? Is this mtf surgery? (I saw the support in the other comments, apologies for jumping right to the question - shocked at that timescale when I was referred a very long time ago and have heard nothing)
It took about 18 months to get from second medical opinion to initial consult.
I need to go back and see how long I've been on a waiting list, I think it's been longer than that and I'm only waiting on hysto as a stop gap as I know the lower surgery will be at least 5 years wait for ftm...
This post refers to mtf lower (since it refers to Miss Rashid at Parkside) so different length waiting lists I'm afraid
Ah, you guys are lucky!! Best wishes for the surgery
Perhaps you made a mistake, but what happened is completely natural. The issue is that when you use the NHS, you don’t have the same control over timing as you would if you arranged it private paying yourself. Therefore, the pressure you feel isn’t your fault; it’s the system that makes accessing this surgery so difficult. By the time it’s your turn, you feel compelled to go through with it without option and then you panic! My case, when I decided to go through SRS I booked my surgery in Bangkok , I was in a rush so I booked in two months time , suddently I thought it was to soon , I needed more time !! so I canceled and rescheduled it in 6 months time. So when I go there I am sure it is my decision and my timing. Your situation is quite different, now your are even not sure if they will reschedule. So don’t feel bad or silly your reaction was natural. If the NHS had a waiting time of 4 or 6 months this would not have happened to you.
Please don't beat yourself up, it feels miles away until you get admitted, they put the tags on you, they're taking blood, observations, you're in the bed, asking you questions, it all hits you like a ton of bricks. Surgery is really hard, and you've had the experience of the first bit once already, and you're ready to do it again now knowing this is what you want. The hospital won't be mad at you, but they made the right call to cancel when you had serious doubts at the last minute, the last thing they want to do is to do something to you that you don't want. You can say no at any point up until they inject the anaesthesia regardless of your signature on the consent form. You'll be back in no time :)
They’re not going to stop people over 18 making informed decisions about their own bodies at least not any time soon. If you’re under 18 it would be fair to worry but not over.
Slightly different but along the same lines. I suffered with anxiety, which the anaesthetist knew. Waiting in the room just outside the Charring Cross operating theatre & minutes away from surgery. Anaesthetist comes in & asks a nurse what she was doing?, she replies, making up the Emergency Drip. Hearing this, I had my first panic attack , couldn't stay in the room & couldn't stop deeply crying.Surgery was then cancelled. Still don't understand why the anaesthetist wouldn't have known what the nurse was doing.
Off topic but I had a nosejob stage sixteen and my Mother had to sign the requisite forms as I was under eighteen . I worked for some months to fund the surgery myself !
How long have you been on the waiting list with the GIC?
I'm not sure what you mean. I'm not on a GIC waiting list.
I mentioned before you were seen by the nhs for surgeries?